hey guys welcome to let's talk number five i'm pretty sure this is number five hopefully i'm
right emotionally through your flaws subscribe for more videos because i know that you've got so much
more to give okay so now let's get into the questions and the topics that you guys have for
me at what point will you be getting additional scans to be sure all is clear after the cancer so
i have been doing every scan that they schedule me to do the only one that i currently cannot
do is an mri which that is what i'm working towards you know i'm losing weight do you
plan to ever go to college to get any higher level qualifications for other career paths
i feel the free time you have it'd be the perfect investment and there are plenty of online courses
and degrees to choose from honestly if i was it would definitely be psychology that has been like
a very very intriguing topic for me i remember when i went to college before i got to take one
psychology class and i absolutely loved it you've been very vocal about things that you
want from your partners in a relationship other than money what do you offer to your partner
i i don't offer money to my partner why the [ __ ] you lying why you always lying oh my god
stop [ __ ] lying i will say i'm very much the person if i care about you and i love you i will
give you my last pair of socks destiny's birthday is on july 13th so i got her some gifts so that's
what those are and then these are clothes so i'm hoping this is all gonna fit in the minivan
what i'm trying to say is like i do become very giving in a relationship but i am so grateful
and just happy that i'm in a relationship with someone who has their own job
they have their own money they buy things for me like that is very new
like that's no shade towards my ex's but that is like a very new concept that i'm not used to i
think that i give my partner love unconditional love kindness loyalty we laugh together
not only are we lovers but we're best friends i feel like i give them like the stuff that i crave
in a relationship it's kind of like that cliche quote treat people how you want to be treated
i firmly believe like treat your partner how you want to be treated what do you look forward to the
most once you get down to a more manageable goal weight traveling traveling traveling traveling
i have some some things in mind up here and i'm so excited this one says here we go again
phase two of the cycle y'all someone said i'm still betting on phase three but new year's
i'm just like beyond confused because i've been on phase one for months and months
now like are you guys ever gonna stop this whole cycle thing because clearly
we ain't doing that this season like that's gone that's a bye-bye
it really isn't that hard to pick up a camera and vlog for a day even if you're sick
i had a really bad fever like my brain was being fried i was saying things that was like so dumb i
literally told my girlfriend i was like this was when my fever was at its highest i literally said
i feel like we i could feel i know the texture of our heart that's when i knew my fever was
literally making me delirious which is a thing and it's very scary not only that but when i tell you
i was nauseous i had zero energy i was shivering so bad that i had three blankets on top of me
i you want me to vlog that like what so i'm just going to kind of explain what happened so you
guys kind of know what i'm going through i've been having female problems for a very long time and um
i uh i've done so much crying it's like the tears don't want to come out anymore
why did you get another artificial christmas tree if you just bought a beautiful one last year
so when becky left there was a lot of things that we obviously bought together
i kept some she kept some she kept the tree
seriously what are you going to do if slash when youtube falls through
i'm going to apply for jobs amberlynn only fans 2022. i always think about
only fans i'm always thinking about only fans the fact that you could literally
make so much money on that is like crazy how do you feel now that you know i'm an ssbw episode
i've
i'm literally not lying at all do you think the live streams hurt your channel because you're
getting a lot less views someone replied and said i think it boils down to her being boring
on her own she doesn't have the creativity or personality to carry videos on her own
yes live streams completely hurt my channel but at the time i was doing what i thought was
right for my mental health which in return made my mental health worse it was like a mess and as for
not being able to do videos on my own i've been doing videos on my own this
literal whole time i've been on youtube and i was trying to go back and i was trying to compare
what are the differences now compared to like the eras where people enjoy that era
more and i noticed that i do a lot less move ons trolling videos but for the most part
things are the same i'm showing you guys weigh-ins i'm showing you guys outfits try on hauls what i
eat like these are all things that i have done on my channel forever and things that people request
would you ever take online classes to get better at writing absolutely i honestly would love to do
that i read some of my poetry from years ago and i literally cringe r-a-p-e rain and petals eavesdrop
i use the wrong word rain and petals ease drop i use the wrong word rain and petals eavesdrop
i use the wrong word then i read poetry that i wrote just a couple months ago and i'm like okay
she's good but i'm definitely getting better i love writing poetry it is such a great form of
expression i truly don't think that you need to be good at poetry to enjoy it it is the craziest
thing because i remember april 2019. i'll never forget it i i was on track i was doing really good
and people were like you're so bored and you're born you're so boring once i got off a track
people stopped saying that so we're just going through that again and
i see the comments i see the analytics i can compare from when i get the most engagement from
when i don't and when i'm losing weight i get the less engagement it's fine it's something that i'm
accepting i am choosing my health overviews it's that simple i want to know why you blamed becky
for not being able to travel but now it seems like you blame your weight now and becky is out
there living her best life and traveling all over kentucky she's traveling to her sister's backyard
but becky knows she went through a big portion of her relationship where she did not want to
travel it was due to anxiety and now she does want to travel and i think that's
awesome i really have always told her there is more to this world than just your hometown
and i've always encouraged her to explore it and i'm glad that she wants to do that now
but the traveling all over kentucky part that made me lol that was good that was funny so i've been a
wee bit m.i.a i apologize you know it all started with me spending thanksgiving alone so then that
just put me in a really weird headspace i didn't feel like uploading and then you guys i got sick
i had the shivers i was like frozen to the bone and i had a fever so my brain went directly to
covid so i did get tested for covet and it was negative if i would have just waited a little
bit longer we would have noticed that i actually had cellulitis in the last couple of months i've
gotten cellulitis twice so that's very weird so the fact that i'm getting these infections is very
frustrating to me when i immediately noticed that it was cellulitis i made a doctor's appointment
and i'm on antibiotics i am feeling a lot better the only thing is like when i stand up for too
long i get super nauseous that's it like my leg was highlighter red it was truly terrifying and
now it's just like slightly pink but i just want to say thank you guys so much for being patient
with me and another thing i want to talk about is my youtube schedule as you guys know i am
uploading monday through friday and each day has a designated slot of what the video is i personally
don't like it very much i wanted to give it a try for a hot minute so we did it for weeks
why do other people have to work on sick days but you can take off why can't you treat youtube your
job as an actual job youtube isn't conventional at all and yes there are some jobs where you can
take off when you're sick and sub jobs where you can't regardless no matter what job i was
doing getting cellulitis i could not work so i am treating it like a real job what's something you
like that people would be surprised by it could be anything so i'm only gonna say this because
when i do mention that i love this people do get shocked i love car racing i used to go
when i was younger with my dad so i kind of grew up with it when i was living with my parents i
have been to nascar i don't know i just something about it excites me and i enjoy it anyways i'm
gonna go now tomorrow we have a wednesday weigh-in but i'm going to film what i want upload what i
want and i just hope that you guys stop on by and watch my content if you want anyways
hope you guys enjoyed this video and i'll see you next one bye i'm always going to see through your
cause i know that flaws got so much more to give you made a real mess but i miss you though
cause i can go to sleep when i'm alone
fix again