My heart was constantly racing and
I just wanted to get there and
my mind would go far to like this
new dimension of pleasure.
You don't know where you are,
you don't know what's going on.
Like you just know that you having a great time.
and you feel like you're the luckiest person alive.
That was my main goal in life.
Get money and spend on having fun.
I was lucky to have found out a lifestyle like that.
You soon find out that the only thing that
helps you enjoy to the fullest is the feeling
that the drug can give you.
The amount of drugs that I was taking
wasn't working for me anymore.
I would go from sober to paranoid.
The life that I loved so much suddenly wasn't real.
The friendship, the happiness, the high.
I didn't know how to find that again.
The only solution was to try new things
and try and get back into that moment of happiness.
So this day I got a message from a friend on Facebook
and she started talking to me all about this
strip club where she was working and
she invited me to come along with her
because she was making a lot of money.
So I calculated everything I could pay for
my degree. I could go first of all abroad,
buying drugs and everything.
So I was like okay I'll just give it a try.
When I walked into this strip club
for the first time,
I just looked around, I felt worthless
I couldn't believe where I was.
A place where I found myself at.
And I met this guy and began to talk and
I kind of told him how I felt about
the strip club and everything and
so he offered me a lot of money to
just stop doing that.
After that, I just found myself dating him.
But, the fact that he would give
me money he would take me places and
he would promise me like a career and everything.
For some reason I was just trapped.
My choices were just destroying me.
So even though I had the money to sustain
the lifestyle that I wanted.
I reached the lowest point of my life.
I didn't even know who I was anymore.
Why I was doing those things and
why I couldn't stop it.
During this time that girl that I was
going clubbing with, her mum found out
that she was doing drugs and she made
us promise that we would go to church with her.
I found myself sat in this Bible study
listening to this woman she talked about
what it is not to know God.
It was like, she was describing my whole life and
I just felt really upset and ashamed and
then she played a song and asked us to try and
sing along to it and the lyrics of the song
were "Jesus Christ changed my life and
he's the light that lights my path."
But I couldn't sing to the song.
I couldn't relate so it wasn't true to me.
All I could do was cry.
They all came around and prayed for me and
that's when I heard God saying,
"You're mine. I love you."
That's when I felt like his love towards me
in a way like I never felt before
because no matter what I did.
No matter what I've done, he still loved me.
He still wanted to be near me.
It completely changed the course of my life.
It's like finding a treasure.
There's no party in the world, there's no drugs,
there's no money that can pay for the relationship
he has to offer and I have peace now.
And it's not like that fake love I used to think I had.
It's true, it's real and
it's yeah it's life-changing.