the reason i came into dr joe's work is because um i had limit brain trauma and for me that
manifested as chronic pain and mold illness so i had chronic pain off and on for about 10 years
and then the last five years really pretty freaking horrible and then i had a vision and
i kind of got some answers on it so without knowing it i applied the parts of the formula
but i didn't really understand at that time that i had limbic brain trauma so that led me to start
power lifting that's how i cured my chronic pain and i just go and i'd show up at the gym every day
and thinking greater than i feel and you know getting over the body that had that identity as
the chronic pain person getting rid of all the stuff that was related to the chronic pain i
didn't have it anymore and um and it was over and so i started powerlifting for two years everything
was great and then um i put a reverse osmosis system in my house which is a water it takes the
fluoride out you know so keeping the pineal all healthy and um it wasn't hooked up right and so it
developed like massive colonies of penicillium and fusarium so i was drinking buckets of this water
every day because i thought oh i'm so healthy but um it was actually taking me down this road so
i got super sick from that and i ended up having to wear a mask everywhere i would go and of course
i had really cool masks i looked like vein you know i'd like whatever and it was about 16 months
that i went through that and um i kind of i got to the point where i was either going to have to go
live in the desert um in a camper or i was just going to kill myself because i had no life that
every environment was not safe for me and then like most foods would make me sick and i've always
been a very vibrant person and so um this this new body was i i didn't want it it was it was terrible
um and with these weird illnesses the other like added bonus is that your friends and family all
think you're crazy so i lost people too so i was really isolated on top of it so i found this other
neuroplasticity program that was based on dr joe's teachings pretty much and one of the recommended
reading was breaking the habit of being yourself and so i go to get the book and um i realize i
already have it and i'm like oh let me listen to this and i was like oh i remember this book
and at the time i kind of thought it was boring but i wasn't in the right state which is suffering
so when i was in that state it became the most interesting thing i ever have read in my entire
life and now i've probably read it like 50 times like i i still read it all the time
so um i got to the point where i was i was doing pretty good like i was really applying the formula
i got over my body i got over my identity i got over my emotions i got over i i overcame
all that stuff i didn't associate myself with that illness scenario i didn't speak its name
i didn't talk about my symptoms i didn't have any of that stuff and i thought i was doing
pretty good and then um i signed up for niagara and that was my treat for myself for like doing
so good but i knew i still had problems because i had massive hypothyroidism i take two different
hypothyroidism medications one of the things that happened when i was sick was the insomnia was off
the chain so i'd go three days without sleeping i started mixing pharmaceuticals that were
contraindicated because i was just like i don't care anymore i'm so desperate i just want to sleep
so my sleep was still not great because i was still in flight or flight fight or flight to some
degree and proving that was my massive amount of impatience super super impatient person um
and uh so i had hypothyroidism i had had chronic pain had come back into my life
lifting wasn't helping with it i also knew that i had neurological imbalances still but it was
it's kind of hard to articulate but i become very in tune with my brain so i knew that my left side
sometimes would check out like it just like my leg would just not lift or do what it was supposed to
do or i was really clumsy or super forgetful i still had some anxiety and depression that i was
dealing with so i decided to sign up for healing and part of me was like oh you know there are so
many people that deserve this more than you but i was like you know what i'm gonna leave that up to
them to decide and if i get it i'm going to be just really thankful that i got it so i
came to the event and i got selected i was on the second night and i had no idea what was in store
for me um when i got here i hadn't reacted to my environment in many many months and i never had
multiple chemical sensitivity that was not one of my conditions that a lot of people who have this
will also have when i get to niagara i immediately start reacting to everybody's um perfumes and i go
to one of the the team volunteers and i'm like i don't know what's wrong with all these people
you know and i'm like losing it and her face was like i was like i must be being a real jerk like i
was just and i was just right you know and that was part of the impatience thing too so my body
was had decided oh i we're we're something's about big about to change and so i'm going to bring you
some suffering in a way that you least expect it and so i ended up with a full-blown multiple
chemical sensitivity event in the first coherence healing i'm sitting there and they bring a lady in
who's firehosed herself and perfume that's what it smelled like to me and um i'm coughing my throat
is closing up i've got tears coming down my eyes snots pouring out of my nose and the best i pissed
my pants i totally peed my fancy you can go ahead and leave that on there i don't care like because
i mean that's the truth it was it was humiliating and horrifying and i went into fight or flight in
the biggest way that i felt i'm like run you gotta run out of the room what's wrong with this lady
run what's wrong with this lady so then i was like huh you know what you you are in fight or
flight and this is what you came here for and how inappropriate for that to happen right now
but you can't beat yourself up you just got to deal with it so i said to my body i was like
later boo you do you i'm gonna put all my love into this person because that's what i committed
to do and you just do whatever you're gonna do and that's what i did and it was a beautiful
moment for me and within minutes all of my symptoms were gone they were just gone
and there was a lady sitting next to me or like two people away and she came over afterwards and
she was like are you okay and i was like she knows like i didn't want anybody to know why i
went through that because you know you're not supposed to be doing that in the healing room
and um i was like i'm good and she was like no i felt that she was like your energy you were
fighting like this great monster and she was like and then you just put it down and your energy shot
right up like that and i was like well i'm glad you experienced it like that it felt a little
different for me but i got there you know and that was the important thing so then i had my healing
and after my healing um i stopped taking sleep medicine so i don't take that anymore i sleep
deeply and beautifully it's awesome and i came off one of my medications by 50 and sometimes
it goes up and sometimes it goes back down but i'm not sweating it because i know i'm doing
work and that i'm gonna get there eventually i've gotta chop that wood might take me a little longer
on that one i don't care i'm in this you know it's a lifetime practice it's one of the few
illnesses that there's no conventional treatment for like if you have diabetes or you have you know
whatever you can go to the doctor and they've got a protocol and they've got whatever mold illness
and electromagnetic frequencies and multiple chemical sensitivities are those weird things that
nobody really knows what to do with so you get myers cocktails you get glutathione you get
tons and tons of supplements and you avoid all the things that are dangerous to you because you know
you're gonna be in flight the rest of your life that's basically it so in order to get through it
you literally the the way you heal yourself is by changing your mind there's no other answer
period for healing for that and so um i kind of feel well i don't kinda i feel super blessed i'm
like thank you mold illness for picking me because this is awesome because i am so in tune with my
thoughts well most of them i mean things are still programs they're still coming up for me right i've
got a lot of wood to chop but the impatient thing was really interesting so i got back home and um
driving in my car and when i'd normally be looking you know eight cars ahead of me so that i could
like rush to nowhere because i was in a state of fight or flight that's what impatience is you want
to fly somewhere so then you can be all angry at everybody and feed all those like addictions
i wasn't that person anymore and it was that alone was worth the whole event to me i felt more free
than i have in so long i was like oh thank you you know it just it feels so good not to have that
on your back anymore um one of the most interesting um things about my healing and one
of the reasons i wanted to come in here and share this was also i know there are a lot of people who
have the same kind of illness that i have but um so in the whole time that i was sick i never gave
up lifting even if i hadn't slept for three days i would still go to the gym i'd still show up and
and lift and sometimes it would give me a little bit more energy for the day sometimes that was
the only thing i did i didn't gain at all like two years i lifted no gains and i even had an
exemption to wear my mask in competition so i was like not giving that up there was just no way so
i get home and i start training and immediately my one rep max in bench press goes up by about 20
or 25 pounds over two months now most women my age 10 pounds a year is pretty amazing so i had
20 25 pounds in two months and i'm like my coach i'm like you're seeing this like oh my god like
i'm superwoman you know and i knew that it was all from the coherence healing and that what happened
was that my brain had suddenly everything was talking to each other all that left side
checking out that wasn't going on anymore and that all the power that i had you know i had
was finally accessible to me whereas it wasn't before and i think it's important for people
to know that you don't have to be an athlete for for that to happen for you because once your brain
if you've been in a wheelchair you've been on a walker or whatever it is you're stronger than
you think you are and i i proofed it and so um once everything starts sinking up and working
it's the flower unfolds and um that was really an unexpected benefit and so um i made the u.s team
and i'm competing in the czech republic in three months and so i went from like spoony life mold
illness victim you know whole thing to now i'm gonna be competing on the national team i won
mention nationals for my division so um i'm really super stoked about that and i'm just if i
could get 20 more pounds out of this next retreat that would be awesome but i don't care i'm just
i'm super happy and um i just i wanted to share that um for people you know just just keep going
you know and if you don't if you don't get it all in like if you if you get a healing
or you're working on something it's not everything goes away overnight it can take it contains time
and it can go up and it can go down and just let it unfold and believe and trust and it'll happen