i grew up in a home where my father was always very abusive not only physically but emotionally
growing up was really hard it was actually pretty scary even coming home to him
my father not only beat my mom but beat us as kids as well
to where as a kid i always wanted to be out in the streets you know trying to avoid them when i was
eight years old my parents split which was really hard for me to understand
not having him in the picture was hard despite the way
he was when he was with us i didn't have the father material in my picture anymore
i grew up getting affiliated doing drugs when i was in
kindergarten i met this
as a boy that i grew up with all the way till we were freshman's in high school
this took a a huge impact on me because he was killed by an opponent
or as you would call a a rival gang
it was a huge impact on my life to where if i didn't change the way i was living life
i wasn't end up dead the way he did or behind bars i didn't know how to take it honestly because
this this particular person was somebody i did everything with the good and the bad till i
stepped foot in the in a funeral is when i finally said yes it's him
but as soon as i set foot in this church the worship just hit me
not only the worship but when the pastor did his preaching it was like
he knew about my life story he knew about what i've lived growing up that same year there was
a deliverance that took place i was very very nervous when i was up there but i remember just
having this thirst and this hunger for for god
and knowing that i needed a change
and i needed to be different
i just let it all go at this stage and as soon as they set hands on me
something inside of me got triggered to where i was manifesting
demon taking over me you know all this time guiding me in the the wrong direction
years old okay okay who are you you have a name you demon
okay what else have you done what else have you done in him i will make him succeed in life okay
so i want to ask you demon what have you been using how have you been using him to operate
i make him isolate himself from everybody okay and what else i make him a street the whole world
how did you enter in lucifer how did you
you took him when he was eight yes you lucifer it doesn't matter how long you have been in him
you are coming out out out out of his body
come out out out out out out thank you lord it is done you are free in jesus name rise up
thank you jesus thank you jesus
this is very touching
honestly just to go back to everything i was fighting with i was dealing with the darkness
and to see what god picked me up out of
there's not a thing they can do
to ever repay him and these aren't tears of of sadness but of joy you know
enjoy of what god can do to many of us you know
his love is just so unconditional i was told several times that whenever i acted different
that wasn't me that was somebody else taking over me and those people telling me weren't wrong
the joy i have inside man i just can't contain it inside of me i want to shout it to the world
everybody's seeing me here or live i encourage everyone that is struggling with anything whether
it's something like me or any other testimony or whether it's your own ups and downs look for help
don't isolate yourself because that's the worst thing that you can do seek help find a church
and fight a battle together don't fight it on your own because look what happens when you do
it's a very special moment for me i remember going up on stage and being asked
that if i had slept like a baby that night after my deliverance
i honestly was so happy with with god's grace over me i wish i did sleep like a baby but i
in reality i didn't i had so much joy inside of me that i just wanted to shout into god
all night up all night just praying praising god you know for for everything he did for me
you know removing that bondage removing those chains and setting me free
something that i desired for the longest now i join the watchmen service is here i've been
a member of the church for four years i can tell you all that i have never felt any anywhere better
god is so merciful and so so loving that he will never point a finger at us and judge us for who
we are he loves us all unconditionally his love is so so amazing you know i i have no words honestly
just that my life has been a whole 180. my name is ricardo and this is my testimony