it's OAM life my stance
ah sorry let's begin with why I went as
you know this was supposed to happen
yesterday I was gonna make a hole of
time release isn't there your tunnel
with like things but I have ready um but
then something happened to me everything
weakened as you know I get migraines
every month my week which is the thing
but then I'm not a really really special
one on Saturday special
something really really bad thing where
I basically wrap up his worst migrant
migraine um
worse than well as bad as the last time
when I was 19 I lost vision in my my
brain so kind it was scary
uh oh yeah tires in the comments by the
way say hey to her newly married Clara
first time to live students she got
married anyway so yeah wake up terrific
pain and then I started feeling in my
left entreaty and just Hollow and weird
and and then the left side of my face
then and floppy and I can move it and
then we found an ambulance as you should
do in these in these situations and yes
and then they took me to a me which is
two emergency room you're in America
people are very confused when I say Amy
like what is this that's great you've
never heard of the ER I only know these
things from TV and the doctor the like
it was like well you could potentially
having a stroke right now yes
I mean I say good I did not respond good
I didn't say anything
I was out to this in that intense pain
when you have really really bad pain and
you just kind of shut yourself down and
don't um don't respond so you're still
there you can't respond well so
obviously because I can't hear things
not like I can lie there and hear what's
going on in them spawned so instead I
just I was out of it for many hours and
they prompt me further lots of
painkillers and carrots and antiemetics
reacts and kept vomiting I know you
don't film it with migraines that was
nothing that's real it and it just felt
like different I just knew it was
different anyway and after many hours in
the hospital and blood tests and CT scan
they determined the huge migraine which
is where it's like a stroke with no
lasting effects so yeah they lasting
effects that's for that that's for that
um but it's kind of knocked me out
obviously I look good today but it's a
lie my hair is curls because I killed it
three days ago and I just didn't take it
down from the Romish so looks good
though right
it looks good yeah and I put my makeup
on you know that makes me feel good and
I want to do some crafty stuff with you
guys
hey um but I do feel who is it so we'll
see how long this crafting continues and
I have a big announcement right down on
my phone for you so I remember yes you
know me memory so why obviously you know
the story by the way if you follow me on
Twitter and Instagram
we shouldn't find links to down below
don't you [ __ ] following me I I post fun
outfits on Instagram and on Twitter what
are you on Twitter everything so star
part of the
everything on Twitter so follow me on
Twitter but big announcement eyes after
talking to Clara and Claudia and my mum
because you know it's serious it's when
my mom gets involved um I'm going to be
taking my own advice
I'm taking life easy when big things
happen yeah because I feel horrific and
so I'm gonna take two weeks off from
making videos I'm doing this live stream
now and then they wrote OH
see also worse let's keep escaping me
Friday it won't be a Friday video and
there are videos next week the week
after I think that's it and the next
year we'll be out on D 23rd of November
and not only that it seems to be a very
special video because national UK what
UK just a dirty History Month that's
what I'm trying to say starts on the
22nd of November so I'm gonna make five
videos start on 23rd of November and
profiling different amazing historical
things you will have just thirties and
if you remember how compose our club
which you cannot you can join down below
or there's a link in the description and
I did mention in our behind the scenes
video until we came to see do last month
and I start going to start making
profiles of historical female figures so
this would be kind of a precursor to
that but just litigate if there are any
people that you might suggest please
leave them in the comments not in the
scroll agent but in the comments this
video with people that you think you
like to see me make a video on I'm very
excited to do it I must say so that's
why we do and then also I'm going to be
doing vocalist differently this year
because it's important to be kind to
oneself
and to accept you have a chronic illness
and not overwork you proud of you far
yeah it's very much central Appalachian
yeah so this year instead of vlogmas
being 25 consecutive videos which is a
bit much instead what I'm going to be
doing is doing three videos a week in
December and then doing a very special
thing called Christmas tide which by the
way is the original Christmas which is
twelve days of consecutive videos and
that would start on Christmas Day on the
25th of December and it would go all the
way to the 5th of January so in that
period when they're generally aren't
lots of things to do but you know like
at school yet necessarily at work so you
will have fun videos to watch instead I
hope that we'll probably have a new
member
cindello that isn't nice names hates
Madonna so that's what I'm going to do
this year and I hope you guys are really
on board with that and that you hungry
sorry that there aren't going to be lots
of lots and lots of fun was videos but
there will continue to be videos
because I'm not going to burn myself out
that's my that's my goal looking after
myself what else today wouldn't you say
oh I will still be vlogging some things
there in that in the time I'm off
because I'm going to be just taking
things that snow takes when I make these
I'm including I'm getting a PhD from the
University of Wooster thank you which
I'm going to go and collect this Friday
I'm just very exciting and that would be
in this month's weekend this video which
members have access to so you can see me
in my robe I mean of course I'm gonna
post pics on Instagram of me of my road
I'm very excited oh yeah health comes
first and if you want to bounce around
in a robe you
take your home with me which is a shame
I was quite into that okay
well back to it back to the actual
reason we're here today the started
turning off into a list of things they
need to buy like eggs frozen raspberries
sorry I assume that was not what I
intended to tell you guys so my idea
originally was that I was going to make
in Greece using my glue gun I know he'd
let me have a glue gun souls foolish
foolish people and this really cool
piece see I come prepared and all this
chalkiness
to make movies and yeah and I was gonna
try it with him to like questions and
need to ask questions whilst I make an
eternal youth yes he's a hundred and who
else is ready to help and we want these
very special gold leaves and for every
single part I will be adding a gold leaf
right but I should start making this now
someone asked me a question the actual
answer was ridiculous what's the phd in
your question I'm going to be a Doctor
of Philosophy well though I'm not match
their doctor outside academic circles
mister so if I want a plane no one comes
to me and asks me to save someone's life
I think I am actually married to a
doctor yes dentists the doctors so she
is really great apparently oh hello
I see supersnap
that's one gold leaf that's coming up Oh
Billy
thanks candy awesome
okay everything and there we go okay one
goatee next question I'm ready
scrolling down in the other day someone
asked you favorite candy my favorite
candy well I can't have sugar but I'm
really really into fruit phones limit
when they cook very anxious learn I want
to just around it oh there are fruit
Ella there we go not sponsored clearly
because if I was I'd remember the name
of the bright fruit election tree fruit
firms the sweetened with stevia the
comments replaces a strawberry lemon and
peach the teachers the best obviously
yeah very catchy and that phone me as
the name suggests yes it's my favorite
favorite vintage dress shop my favorite
vintage dress shop Oh hmm that's very
difficult okay well come on now you know
I love collective you know I do I can't
actually look past the shop without
buying anything and that's difficult but
is bragging is not a big place over red
tape right now and I need you to my life
and and I have journals with Barrett
with but I need it I may have to get the
entire outfit next question you
mentioned favoring all the work but do
you have a favorite book hmm William
favorite book see I think my favorite
books probably Little Women because it
was the first was well you know I read
it when I was at politically dirty muddy
age and if you go read it when I was
about seven I
call it my ideas of limited and what it
meant to be a teenage girl party that
that means like how to not lean your
hair missing it
third your family don't starve you know
just the regular ideals yeah it looks
good but oh no no I just run a custom
called Virgie if you've not read custom
called birdie you need to read it I try
to source flower whoa another gold leaf
thank you I'm panda evening evening
anyway
yeah catchment for birdie it's excellent
it's about and she's a medieval lady and
she's like sofa minutes she's wonderful
and she refuses to marry this really
awful and how am I gonna run away it's
like a really good Bridget Jones's Diary
set in the medieval times I love that
book so much so much you should all go
and buy it immediately or rent it or
borrow it from your local nightly all of
these options right okay so um once you
move on after Philippa Gregory do you
have any historical fiction mind love oh
my god
once they moved on to the bedroom you'd
cry that's what's there - nothing
you know this whoa passing a normative
love in this Luna thank you very much um
do I have anything lined up I don't I
know a lovely dress from the accent
amazing suggestions that I should have
collected in one place but they're all
over the shop I'm gonna make an
Instagram post I think probably myself
crying on the day I finished my Philippa
Gregory no on the day that I finished my
annulment
the Gregory because obviously I'm you to
have something lined up when I finished
the last page policy
and I'll ask you and then I shall need
all of the recommendations and keys so
head to my Instagram that's the place
just like you say I love when you guys
use the emojis ah excited chili emoji oh
hey Merry Christmas film favorite
Christmas film it's actually I can't
show you because it's behind you but my
favorite Christmas poem is it's
wonderful nice and we have a ginormous
detergent
of the foam poster but it's behind you
oh I shall show you what is Jessica
making someone asks Jessica is
attempting to make and will Tom anoles
but wait oh she doesn't just has not
taken the medication that she's supposed
to have taken say gonna do both of these
things at once
yes it's a Wonderful Life is Beautiful
filled hazel you are correct right how
prepared for Christmas are you that's a
good question I am going to be more
prepared after the two weeks I'm taking
off that's that's my answer
next can you remind you to American
viewers to vote today can I remind yes I
can American viewers if you have not
already voted today I don't know your
entire diet is for you might get you a
but yes if you're not already voted
today get out there and vote what are
you doing come on exercise your rights
doesn't matter who you're voting for
I mean it does a little bit but you know
it's not the right thing to say is we're
just saying vote so yeah
vote
do that I'm not I think it's route
labert excellent next question this one
was left in the community oh thank you
so much just I don't know how to take it
but it's fun
why do British homes have the lock and
door knobs so high on the directly why
did he push his friends at the look and
door knob so high on the door thank you
I was doing you mean the front door do
it where do you put yours
where are the ones in other countries
where's your wife at work it is within
working hours I work from home
she writes from a dental surgery um I'll
be right where you're was insane
at this thing right now says they're at
the same place so there we go
okay yes someone just last time you see
the tanks and they can but it's moving
quite quickly also a motor for the first
time well done Leila I believe the main
losses that went very quickly up do you
say to celebrate physically memory
button yes we do if you don't know other
word name is bonfire night or Guy Fawkes
yes we had a wonderful array of
fireworks last night so don't cry lots
of bonfires when we celebrate that a man
tried to blow up the houses of
parliament and they didn't send any of
lumenok I mean they've all got a strange
celebration today right next okay a bit
mysterious one okay also in their Queens
it's have how do you cope with having to
rest
how do I care you're having to rest this
is a very apt question
hello if Tina Catholic a new member and
how do I cope with violent arrest
not as well as I should is from the
answer to that I am a very determined
person not always
to my own good sometimes I work against
myself I suppose yeah but I'm not here
to be resting as long as I'm doing
something but I can fool myself into
doing something can be very very minor
such as I've got attitude
Jenny damn it woman 2 these traps
my own product amazing I swear I will
never like promote something to you guys
that I do not enjoy and yes then I can
write an app it is because I've become
obsessed with it so I crave lots of
June's journey and then I just kind of
fall asleep and I think that's a text I
loved myself into the false sense of
doing something and then I just was it
it's good all right this is quite funny
but when I'm trying to go to sea I tend
to straight course head because then the
thing I'm doing is making her go to
sleep so then it feels like it to do it
there you go
if you don't have a good yet you can do
a stroke a puppy or a cat if you're a
cat person I shan't say anything on that
I have bad I have no reason cats right
you know it makes me very bad lesson if
you could leave in early Phil what if I
can live in a film
holiday not the holiday holiday with
parents from - ah I mean first of all I
would be rich enough to just go on
cruises whenever and also I'd be
incredibly clever because everyone is in
that them and incredibly funny and
charming as they both are
genuine any film with Cary Grant and
Katharine Hepburn is a winner for sure
yes that's where I'd like to live new
member hello Nick pictures how do you do
welcome next question is so fun man
this is really making me feel better
guys thank you very much just joining me
last like slowly crap Tori Oh more gold
Thank You Kate more girls also go faster
Jessica that's not from cake that's from
me
I'm just telling myself things now yes
someone's getting ultra soon and it's
the first time any tips culture oh sorry
rating fails ma'am we should make a
video about that
sorry Jesse any tips any time now is
that tips for choosing the wheelchair or
is it tips thing they already have that
I can't comment so if you have any how
cool thank you
um okay well not want to if you haven't
got you realtor yet is don't get it in
the bright color unless you like wearing
bright colors because for some obscure
reasons I decided to get one in electric
blue I've never worn I'm actually doing
my life
I don't like electric blue is a color I
don't like any kind of very bright
colors and yet bullish so you know get
one in a nice their comment you'll
actually get along with that's that's a
small news and okay but tips in terms of
I'm guessing this is like a confidence
thing like going out in public
oh yeah thank you going out in public
type of how do I feel in my wheelchair
type of stuff that's a toughy but um
always take a friend with you on the
first couple of times who is super chill
yeah you know who you're talking about
why don't you can be a best friend you
person might not be someone who is super
chill you might just have an
acquaintance who is one of those people
that's just like yeah go with the flow
whatevs
one of those types of people take them
out with you the type of person that you
know is just going to treat you like
normal is not gonna care in the
slightest bit you're in your wheelchair
and should someone else comment on it is
probably gonna night to get involved um
I remember the very first time I went to
school in my wheelchair
I'm genius my school had a colon room
that was down five steps great great
thinking so I can actually go into the
cone room and all my friends were in the
common room and none of my friends came
out at the common room so I just was at
the top of the steps popped in my little
wheelchair and I cried and then this
girl was in the envelope when Phaedra
knew because my parents were friends
with her parents came over and she was
like okay just guarantee you ages and
she seen me hug and she's like chatting
about her brother and mines brother I
started doing cricket together or
something like that and how her mother
was actually rude terrible at it but was
apparently quite good I'm just like
talking about oh hi
and we're just like talking about
cricket and the brothers and how awful
if two brothers are Palace head and she
was amazing and then cuz she was
Mitchell all of her friends came over
and so chatting with me and I was just
like and I'm still crying but they went
from few chances like absolute horror to
just being like Jesus you know what
there are actually many great people in
the world
um it's not even a health system the
main gist of it is the first couple of
times you need someone who's going to
break the ice and then you know how to
break the ice yourself from then on it's
that hopeful hope so I'm sure it was I
can make a video
that's better sorry it's like better
advice I suppose but you know it's all
about confidence isn't it and we're not
feeling that anyone else has any right
to make you feel lesser than you are no
doesn't matter just you do you don't
feel you've got to bow down to anyone
else says none of that rubbish normal
rate just the way awesome
thoughts on service animals thoughts on
service animals
how could anyone who made those accept
also I guess it's more language you get
Walter was I mean you wouldn't believe
it now he was actually trained to be a
little good various acts of service and
then Georgia came along and he was like
you've got a human what do you mean for
a month and and now he does nothing he's
just incredibly lazy he's like it's fine
chicken here to tell you stuff so the
doorbell rings he looks at Audia nope
you gonna tell if this I can't bother
son but maybe in the future I guess
that's something like going reach
laughing yeah a bird next question
alright so given that you spend a lot of
time in hospital do you suffer from a
hospital related anxiety at all and if
so how do you overcome that call my
friend yes to the extent that I often
don't go to 80 even when I shoot because
I'm just really scared and a knee not
scratch that not like
not like an irrational fear oh my god if
I go there something really bad is gonna
happen to me it's more of a rational fit
where are you going charger all right oh
she's oh yeah it's not an irrational
fear it's a highly irrational fear that
is very understandable and I think okay
I also have a fear of doctors of it kind
of I'm terribly afraid every time I go
and see a doctor don't let me leave
because occasionally I've gone to the
doctor in the make the night well you
were going straight to hospital and then
I haven't been able to go home but weeks
so there's that fear definitely and I
was not with fear of the hospital but I
stayed in for very long time and I
actually I should go over that fear by
getting married in the quick meeting
right next door
clicking drive past the hospital we can
drive past it I hated it so much and
then when you get married I was like
well getting over this fear John it yes
that's what I did uh it's just one of
those fears I think you just have to
grin and bear it
you know because doctors are there to do
good things
Amy is a helpful thing when you were
having a kind of mini stroke yay and who
knows what could have happened if I
hadn't gone there and they haven't
pumped me full of drugs I might be blind
to my other I say nice really I mean I
mean that was a downer
oh thanks Britney frame rails back up
next question you watch dr. hood do you
ever stop - yes I'm afraid releasing the
first one of the new series whoa out
there ya already seen the fascinating
new series I'm sorry so I can't really
comment on the whole thing
and I think this last one was very good
I'm assuming that this is about a good
doctor see no now tell me more
what's up I can see things with UConn
team Oh as we're on the live chat
Rebecca yeah you're what I'm like ahead
on the chat yes you can't see what I can
see right okay I'll keep you guys safe
princess in the Scrivener if you like
some analysis especially it just needs
fast go and watch that channel can't lie
this medication is only slightly hitting
the edges because 10 minutes 10 minutes
fine okay should I
I mean I'm using my words okay ask me
more questions I may have to continue
this roof later I'm gonna give much ya
know I like John um I'm gonna continue
this week later right now I'm gonna
answer questions apparently can't do two
things at once hit me next one what's
your favorite holiday celebration I
guess it's like Christmas Easter is
American holiday no liking huh sorry if
you didn't know in America you say
holidays but I think you mean Christmas
and the things around Christmas like
Hanukkah is inclusion what I think
social Allah days but in England we say
holiday and that's when you get a hot
place or a calm place
so my different you're on holiday
vacation
yeah that's what they call it I learned
all these wax to the sins by the way
that's the only reason I know
the sense is very educational not
powerpoints that I made my mother meant
such give me the sentence works like her
dream we also played it in Swedish for a
while because she was just to learn
Swedish so if you didn't guess from my
Swedish surname and clashing Swedish
next question oh did I not say my
favorite holiday I didn't I gave you a
little like free foam holder what's my
favorite holiday I'm gonna say Christmas
I mean unless you don't celebrate
Christmas it's going to be Christmas I
mean Christmas yes perfect Halloween
mm-hmm so you've mentioned you know
their Great British Bake Off but have
you seen them they're from other
countries the other versions if not you
should check out the Canadian one oh my
god I didn't even I mean in retrospect
that seems stupid I didn't know but I
didn't know that they were Great British
Bake Off versions from other countries
watch I must immediately check that out
and by the way just unplugging this yeah
we have again I mean the words today
escaped me any plans on publishing the
book yes yes I write books in the notes
function on my laptop on my phone so
that they're all connected and whenever
I'm struck with inspiration I can just
write and currently I have six books in
progress they're going quite well to be
fair it's probably better if I focused
on one but what
but then saying what cuz I can't find
words but no I think my game quite well
I I yes
if someone knows it publish that send
them my way I have many things to pitch
many you have a favorite piece of
jewellery I do okay I'm not wearing it
right now which may seem confusing to
you
but I do actually have four pearl
necklaces they're all slightly different
I don't know if you can tell you
probably see them on my Instagram and
maybe you do notice but I have one pearl
necklace that my grandfather gave my
grandmother when they were on honeymoon
and so that's my favorite
I left my grandparents relationship they
were basically like Jordan ID but a man
and woman version and the coconut water
they met and they got married three
weeks later three weeks I mean yeah I'm
pretty sure Jordan I would have done
that and then they were together for
over 60 years and I yes and I've
idolized them when I was child so much
especially my grandmother she is amazing
I'm gonna have lots lots of children and
be like an amazing nature happy my tree
life go be a matriarch next question
right this one may be a bit longer so
you might be the last one okay then you
might be the last question I think it's
very nice what is the best thing I could
do to help my disabled friend I want to
help but I don't want her to feel like
she's out of control like don't yes so
sure to hell without taking away
independence sure sure well originated
when it comes to hell I think we're
going on - oh it's my pair bucks to say
yes it is I forget it's in the
description this video brother okay
hoping so we're gonna go on to things
they've got the physical and the mental
honey it's emotional I'm gonna live I'm
with mental right now so in terms of
mental and emotional well-being the best
thing to do is to remind your friend
that you are bad for them but if they
need something it is okay to ask um I
find it really wonderful when my friends
do things without me asking if they
happen to under antigen earth to
suppress your friend but for me
because I talk about stuff on the
internet I sometimes get surprised by my
friends who will know something because
I mentioned it in the video but I
haven't mentioned it so maybe if your
friend posts on Facebook about like ah
such a shame that I can't eat sugar
anymore for example don't just like the
next time you turn up at their house
have some sugar-free chocolate and feel
like hey pal she could free chocolate
because believe me that's the kind of
thing that warms the soul definitely um
always include people in everything even
if you know that they can't do it just
invite them like sometimes I get invited
skiing yeah
no clearly not
skiing is not for me but I feel very hot
ones that you asked me so thank you very
kind thanks like when you clean your
friends are back and then when it comes
to those physical things like which you
like and getting stuff for your friend
opening doors for your friend do try and
do things without your friend asking I
get your say when I don't want to
together from these classes autonomy I
don't want to be upsetting them and I
think the trick with that is to not do
anything that they can physically touch
does this make sense so when it comes to
getting something for them before they
ask for it if you can see that your
friend is a wheelchair and they have
just rolled up in the shopping aisle and
you know that what they want is on that
top shelf
drive it down grab it down it's fine
however if there is the potential that
your friend is about to reach over and
pick up the glass and bring it to them
yeah so just let go oh look do it for
you no worries oh thanks what if what if
don't let myself okay yes is this
helpful this is the kind of stuff
there's so much
so I don't feel like this is something I
can fulfill in this tiny space
especially when I'm rambly and having a
medicated
that's the honest I'm going to complete
this wreath late today yes and then I'm
going to post it on Instagram
why don't you do a recap of what
happened at the beginning oh well you
know I was in hospital Jesus right I had
I had a hemiplegic migraine which is
essentially a stroke but where you don't
have any lasting side effects also I'm
currently being investigated for other
migraine things they think how much they
having tiny stroke all the time but boom
yeah and also vlogmas yes okay so this
you know start right now so I'm going to
take two weeks off to try and like get
myself feeling better because I'm just
like on the floor really and they
energy-wise kiss I can pause this up for
40 minutes or 45 minutes or whatever but
then I'm done so don't think that I'm
like this all the time for fun not
unlike this and that I know on the floor
this is just the personality I would
have if I didn't have energy problems um
well was i next video on the 23rd of the
answer the next video is on the 23rd of
November but I'm going to make five
videos that are about disability history
months that's what happens when I do
that it you see see all the gaps just
movie History Month and then in December
there will be three videos a week from
the normal vlogmas and then I'm going to
be doing Christmas hide from Christmas
Day to the fifth of January which would
be fabulous and early video every single
day
and I am really really punch for these
videos I swear me ideas
I really hope you're gonna love them and
well I'm also gonna be throwing in some
things like recipes and how to sign some
Christmas carols all this stuff and of
course on Instagram I mean again between
my Advent outfits challenge where I try
and wear a festive outfit every single
day in December also vote was that
summed up