Jareth Nebula: Being an alien is more than just my gender.
Jareth Nebula: It's how I am, who I am, how my body reacts.
Jareth Nebula: It just feels alien.
Jareth Nebula: It's not about the attention.
Jareth Nebula: It's about self-expression.
Jareth Nebula: Hi, I'm Jareth. Welcome to Seattle!
Jareth Nebula: My name is Jareth Nebula and I am an agender alien.
Jareth Nebula: I am 33 years old.
Jareth Nebula: I have a significant amount of body modifications, 78 stars all over my body.
Jareth Nebula: I am going to stop at 333 stars.
Jareth Nebula: And I also have doll joints.
Jareth Nebula: I also have this upside down triangle here.
Jareth Nebula: Silver, from the periodic table, on my right arm.
Jareth Nebula: This is one of my favorite tattoos;
Jareth Nebula: It is representative of the inhuman or non-human identified part of me.
Jareth Nebula: I’ve never really felt right in my life as female identified.
Jareth Nebula: I was a tomboy growing up.
Jareth Nebula: I have never been comfortable with 'she' or 'lady' or 'girl' or anything.
Jareth Nebula: They always bothered me.
Jareth Nebula: Basically for me, I had a lot of gender expression.
Jareth Nebula: I played with it a lot, but I never really felt right and it never felt good.
Jareth Nebula: So I was taking it to the extreme because I was miserable.
Jareth Nebula: My game of pretending fell apart.
Jareth Nebula: I started realizing I didn't want to be a gender, I didn't want to be put in a box.
Jareth Nebula: I am going to get the chest piece done to cover up my top surgery scars.
Jareth Nebula: Nipples were always uncomfortable on my body.
Jareth Nebula: I had both my breasts removed and my nipples, so I have a complete flat chest.
Jareth Nebula: The pain is worth it.
Jareth Nebula: My family was not happy about it.
Jareth Nebula: Most people I knew weren't happy about it and they all were like
Jareth Nebula: “You’re going to regret this,” and, you know, “Are you sure about this?”
Jareth Nebula: I definitely do not regret it.
Jareth Nebula: I do get phantom nipple feeling every now and again, that’s weird.
Jareth Nebula: It's tolerable.
Jareth Nebula: It's just kind of silly.
Jareth Nebula: So I was diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, a connective tissue disorder.
Jareth Nebula: I have to walk with a cane most of the time.
Jareth Nebula: It affects the soft tissue of the body.
Jareth Nebula: So basically it makes all of the tendons and ligaments too loose and stretchy.
Jareth Nebula: One of the issues that I have a lot is my hip dislocating probably twice a week.
Jareth Nebula: My disability makes me feel like I shouldn't have been born in a human body.
Jareth Nebula: The hardest thing about looking the way I do is being able to
Jareth Nebula: I guess, tone it down, to kind of hide.
Jareth Nebula: Because I really don't like the attention all the time.
Jareth Nebula: I don't want to be like paid attention to when I go to the grocery store.
Lady: You look amazing!
Jareth Nebula: Thank you.
Jareth Nebula: Sometimes I do like being paid attention to.
Jareth Nebula: When you go to conventions, you dress up in these elaborate cosplays.
Jareth Nebula: And, you know, Japanese fashion and crazy outfits and you want people to look at you.
Lady: This whole look is fabulous.
Lady: I love your earrings so much.
Jareth Nebula: Thank you.
Jareth Nebula: I got them on Etsy.
Jareth Nebula: Sometimes it can get a little overwhelming.
Lady: I love your everything.
Lady: Yeah everything about you is amazing. I saw you from a distance.
Lady: I am like trying really hard to get more stuff like that.
Lady: I got this shirt too. I should have worn it.
Jareth Nebula: This is my favorite pastel pixie shirt, like period.
Lady: I can’t get over how cool you look.
Jareth Nebula: I definitely get bullied a lot more than I would like.
Jareth Nebula: I’ll get harassed, pretty much like, often.
Jareth Nebula: A lot of people that just randomly hate on you.
Jareth Nebula: You’ll never be anything but a little girl, or, you know, your parents must really hate you.
Jareth Nebula: A lot of people don't realize that, you know, that can really harm someone.
Jareth Nebula: They don't ask your side of things. They don't take your perspective into consideration.
Jareth Nebula: It feels better to, dress up in a place like this.
Jareth Nebula: Because it gets recognized I guess, and people appreciate it more.
Jareth Nebula: And being in a group full of people dressing up is comfortable.
Jareth Nebula: It's nice because then I don't feel so alone.
Jareth Nebula: It feels good that people are positive here.
Jareth Nebula: Like this honestly, Sakura-Con is probably my favourite convention on the West Coast.
Jareth Nebula: I do put a lot of thought into my makeup.
Jareth Nebula: And how I want it to be, for each outfit.
Jareth Nebula: I am a professional model and I am a professional makeup artist.
Jareth Nebula: Modeling has been my life since I was 15 years old.
Jareth Nebula: I, absolutely love modeling more than most things in the world.
Jareth Nebula: I do get called a freak a lot.
Jareth Nebula: Honestly, I don't care because I am a freak and I know that, so I'm proud of that.
Jareth Nebula: I wouldn't change anything about how I identify.
Jareth Nebula: I wouldn't change anything about how I’ve chosen to live.
Jareth Nebula: I want people to understand that it's okay to be who you are.
Jareth Nebula: To always be true to yourself, and to how you feel and how you want to look.
Jareth Nebula: Don't ever let anybody tell you that you are wrong for being who you are.