[Chase:] Hey! It's ten-thirty in the morning I'm
about to go for a run and I was like, "Oh!
I'm going to look for my sunglasses"
because, like I told you
last week I'm like, "they make me look
like a douchebag," but if it's sunny I
need them, and guess what...
It's sunny, for once, in the winter. So I'm
going to go outside and enjoy it because
the sun only last like three hours here
umm... so yeah, I'm going outside and I'm
gonna go for a run and I can't find my
sunglasses, which sucks because they were
kind of expensive.. I mean, I get a deal
because I work at the Running Room and they
actually have the same sunglasses that I
had before and it's really hard for me to
find sunglasses because I have a small face.. But I
can just.. if I really can't find them but..
I looked in the two places that
they would be and I'm like where the fuck
could they be? Like I feel like I just
recently cleaned my room, I don't
know where they would be.
Hey Beauty. Do you know where my glasses
went? Did you take them?
Do you want to be cool like Papito?
That's.. Oh my god, she looks alert~
Yeah, so anyways, I'm gonna go for a run. Today I'm
doing run/walk: two-minute run, one minute
walk, for 30 minutes. So.. 15 times I guess?
instead of 10 like yesterday. So I'm
gonna go do that, and then today is the
[ Laughing ] party I was talking about yesterday!
Also, do you want to see how I'm standing like, like,
[stuttering through laughter] - like, how I'm lying?
This is literally how I put my feet, like.. [ Trying to contain giggles ]
[Chase's Legs:] Hellooo~
[Chase:] But yeah, that party that I
was talking about yesterday, I was like, "Oh~ there's a party
at one-o-clock, whatever!~" Is actually today.
So, I really wanted to go see the ugly
Christmas tree today but I don't have
time because I want to run and I want to
be able to do my exercises and
stuff like that. So I'm gonna go for a run,
I'm gonna do my stretches and exercises
for my knee, and then I'm gonna make a good
lunch, and then I'm gonna head over to the party.
...And then maybe I'll go see the
Christmas tree another day, maybe tomorrow.
[ Inhales ] I really want to see that
fucking Christmas tree so badly, like..
It has to be in these vlogs. Like, all I've
been talking about is this ugly Christmas tree.
Aaron didn't even know about the
Christmas tree! I literally sent him the
link yesterday and he was Freaking Out.
...Anyways, gonna go for a run, I love you
guys so much, I will see you... I don't fucking
know. What the fuck is the point of these
vlogs? I know you like them, but like, what
am I doing? Ehh, Whatever.
So I just got back from
my run, I'm still wearing like half the
clothes that I was wearing running and
like it's everywhere. But I came to my
door and there's a package from Amazon
So, look, I don't have a P.O. box or
anything like that but I opened it, and
the first thing that I see is this~
And it says, "A gift for you," so I have no
idea what this is and there's
a little envelope here,
"Keep your gift a surprise, unwrap your
present before opening this envelope."
Ok so maybe this is from my amazon gift..
I don't know what it is, it's like...
[ Crinkling paper ]
[ soft rattling ]
Maybe, like, a card game?
I don't know. "A gift for you." There's a
little card in here, should I open it?
I don't know what this is.
"Chase,
Thank you for all that you do for our
community. Happy holidays, Alex." Thank you
Alex! I don't know who you are, but let's
open it!
Alright what is this?
Oh my God!
Oh..! [ Chase is at a loss for words ]
Oh my God, you don't even know..!
Oh my God! I'm so f- oh my God.
[ Chase pauses to collect himself ]
You're drying. Aren't you fucking dying right now?
Oh my God... I - before I even sh-
Thank you, SO much, you have no idea how
much I need this. I literally was
looking all day to buy this because-
[ muffled ] Oh my God. Okay, I'm going to show you. The
anticipation is fucking killing you isn't it?
Somebody bought me a portable external
hard drive that is two terabyte and, like,
you don't understand. I'm about to go to
Slovakia and I'm still gonna be filming
all of my vlogs and filming all these
things I'm doing in Slovakia, but my computer
can only hold so much space and I
already have so many things on there,
that I'm trying to get rid of, and
I do have a five terabyte
drive that is like literally... I have like
500 gigs left on that because I I record
so many videos all the time so I really
needed a portable one that's slim
to bring with me to Slovakia so that I
can put my things on here so that I
don't lose them, because my computer,
it's old, I'm scared that
it's gonna like go out on me, so I save
everything.. [ Chase takes another pause, overwhelmed by the gift ]
Oh my God. I don't know which Alex this
is because there are so many of you and
I talked to a couple of people.. There's
the envelope, let me read the fucking
envelope because this is this is crazy. Oh!
the envelope is not the envelope, it's just..
Okay! Ok, now I have the person's full name.
I'm not gonna tell you what it is~
I'm about to start crying, like, literally, I
can't I can't believe it.
Like, I'm gonna start crying like... [ Pauses to sniff tear back up ]
Amazing. When I put my Amazon wish list
link on my videos I'm
really not serious, as if ,like, "I
want you to buy me something," That's not
at all why I''m putting it there.
Like I said, I'm putting it there in case
anybody wanted to get me something for
Christmas, plus you can see what I'm into
because I put things on my Amazon wish list
all the time. I can't believe this.
This is literally, like, the best Christmas
gift that [ Stuttering with joy ] I've received at all like
I know it's Christmas isn't here yet but
I'm not expecting to get many things,
like, my dad is probably gonna
give me like a gift card to something..
And... that's about it. Those are
the only people that I usually get gifts
from is like my parents- my dad and
my step
mom, so it's usually a gift card so
this is... [ Pause ] You are amazing. And now when I
buy my extra batteries for
my camera for Slovakia I don't have to
worry about an external hard drive.
Oh my goodness.. I hope this isn't
product placement and I can monetize
this video, because that would be great,
but [ Sniffs up tears filled with love ] Thank you, SO much <3
Anyways, I can't believe that just happened. I'm
sorry I'm still talking about it, but if
you bought me this gift please message
me on any of my social media so that I
can personally thank you because [ Stuttering while trying to find the words to express his thanks ]
Thank you.
But the reason I wanted to get my camera
out when I got home with to talk about
running and therapy a little bit,
because I don't feel like therapy is
doing me a good service right now. I feel
like it's pushing me past a limit that
I know I can handle. There's a limit that
I know it's a lot, but I can handle it.
This is, kind of, tipping me over too
much, and maybe that's the point of this
but I know what I can handle this is too
much for me.
like obviously now that I've started to
run again, I'm feeling happier and I
feel like maybe it's a bad idea to
stop therapy... I mean I'm
just think I'm just gonna hold off
on therapy for a couple of weeks because
I'm going to Slovakia anyways, but I...
I don't know. I felt amazing running today.
Even if it's just: two minute run, one
minute walk, it just feels like I'm
alive again and no problems exist and I
feel very lonely lately and very not
sexy and very ugly and all that stuff,
And... [ Inhales ] I don't know I feel like since
getting this nipple piercing - Oh my God,
it looks again like I had top surgery!
But no, I had to hide it for running because I
want it to rub on my shirt and my sweat
and stuff. Since getting this piercing
and running and stuff, I feel better..
I'm still feeling like shit, and I'm like,
"why am I alone, why am I so lonely?" and
stuff like that, which is depressing, I'm
not going to go into that now. But yeah, I
don't know, I feel better when I run so
I'm just gonna keep doing that and kind
of escape all my problems~
Yeah!~ So I'm about to leave, I'm going to
the party.
I'm a little bit late actually
but I just wanted to show you my outfit [ Laughs ] Hellooo~
I'm kidding, but these are spooky underwear so I
really wanted to wear them. It's
skeletons with Santa hat on. Helloo~
[ Unintelligible meme ] [ Laughs ] [ Pause ] I'm going to the party so
I'm gonna bring the camera be annoying.
When the Sun is directly behind you
and you literally can't see if the
cameras in focus or not cuz like
whatever, I'm good. So I'm off the metro. I
really didn't feel like filming myself
in the Metro, honestly, there's a lot of
people, for some reason, on Sunday. But I'm
walking to my friends house that is
having the party and its coincidentally,
like, right beside my dad's house, but my
dad's not here, he's back in Florida and
he want's me to go fucking pick him up again
next Monday. Like, not not today Monday,
but like, next. And I'm like, "I work
Tuesday morning man, what are you..??" Ugh, whatever. So I
have to deal with that, but yeah, so I'm
walking there now it's really cold and I
don't know what temperature my
cameras allowed to go.. Let me just cross
the street so I don't die. So the
party that I'm going to it's, like, one to five
but I don't like being late. And
a lot of people show up at like two,
and they're an hour and a half late.
I ain't like that, I'm there at one
o'clock on the dot, but I was doing
my exercises and stuff so I couldn't.
Which is sad, but, yeah, it's a little late,
like 20 minutes late, for me late though.
For me, free on time is on time, you
know? So, like, five minutes late I texted
Terra, I was like, "I'm so sorry I'm
late," not realizing I'm only five
minutes, like fucking relax, Chase. Anyways,
my camera is getting cold, so I'm going
to put away for now and then maybe I'll
be able to film inside and I need everyone's
consent, and there's a lot of people.
So, I'll see!
oh no not you in it if you want to be in
it
yeah i just want you to be cute when
you're always cute mode zoomed in on
your face
look so goofy ahh yes
he looks so sad hes contemplating all of life's mysterys
place to do something entertaining for
my blog
look at you you look so cute
have you watched any of my vlogs never
wow just like to zoom on people
oh my
god yes
my love
oh my god
he loves attention as much as i do it is
its his first christmas ever pooch from coasta rica, coasta rica pooch
he loves me i don't i don't like dogs that
much but this dog has a place in my
heart I meet him like the first week he was here
right?
yeah I think he likes the camera big snow tube oh my god
oh you want this
oh well at least i get to open another one
paper oh i hope this is lingerie
what is this is this tea?
yeah I was like is this pads and i was like what
kind of gag gift is that
oh shit oh shit its mode
this is my christmas bitches
well now i know who this is from
ohh a mug, with things inside
ohh tea , tea for tea
everybody's happy
mode can you explain that that Camel thing
for me that saying that you learned
today you know the straw that broke the
camel's back
yeah but what did you think it was
the straw that killed the camel
no he is paying me back cause i have the
very soft blanket so it's like I'm gonna
zoom really close on your face
there you go i did it this game is called
anomia AKA anxiety there are multiple
symbols on the cards aw fuck
oh yeah there's one that looks like an anus
sounds like last night
for me anyways i try to find the answer for
everyone why would this be easy game
why would you give me a little bit of
anxiety when you can give me a lot
share
cant see your face though
that's ok
they know it's me that posture
oh shit
BREAD!! sorry
looking straight at them and arrie
is looking at me like this licking my face and i kept
being like no no so half his body
you can see hes wagging his tail like this so clearly theres
something and then knock twice they knew I
was home like all the lights were on who was knocking?
i dont know why didnt you want to answer the door?
because i didnt feel like it ya like why didn't I just
go and answer the door like I'm not
interested I'm just like did you have
anxiety? i probably did . i didnt even notice my baby was there
my baby he loves me baby come here. oh my god he
listens come here
im so scared he's gonna touch my nipple it's a sex thing
do you think he loves me ? yes he loves you alot
oh that's actually really good I look
really good thank you I look like I'm
wearing lipstick because just put chapstick
on it looks great that's great okay great
also my cap fell again I'm gonna have to
get that
it's okay anyways the party's over we're
done somebody's holding a light for me
so I don't want to continue this forever
but . im haveing fun. you are?
this is vlog number 12 of december is an
exciting all of y'all are in it if
that's okay
yeah okay good yeah