Beauty standards now compared to when I was younger, it’s so different.
We didn’t have social media when I was in high school.
There’s so much pressure, and I’m so glad I didn’t go through that
because I didn’t wear makeup back then.
I go out without makeup in public almost every day that I don’t get my makeup done.
When I’m not filming or when I’m not doing stuff like this, you will see me out in my gym
clothes with zero makeup on.
But my eyebrows will be done.
Never leave your house without your brows done.
So now we’re going to start
with my makeup removal routine.
I appreciate all of you complimenting my hair, but I do pay for it.
So the first things first is taking these extensions out.
Getting the hair out of the way.
Ahh.
Here’s the fun part, and I’ll warn you, I am not cute when I take off my makeup.
Here comes the wipes.
I started wearing makeup more consistently when I was eighteen-years-old.
I didn’t know what I was doing.
My looks were really harsh because I was big on black eyeliner, and people were like,
“Oh, she just looks like a bitch all the time.”
So when I usually wash my face, I use a sink with water and stuff like that.
But sometimes I don’t have that luxury because I’m on set, and I know I’m going to be
way too tired when I come home.
So a friend of mine introduced me to a cleansing water, makeup remover thing.
And this is on my very, very lazy days.
There you go.
So next, I’m going to use witch hazel.
I’m just gonna say it.
Listen, oldest trick in the book.
It works.
I tend to feel the most insecure once a month, around that time, and girls know.
And I just get really down about myself about everything.
And I cry, I journal, I call my therapist, and I ask my boyfriend, “Do you love me?
Do you think I’m pretty?
Tell me I’m pretty.”
I take my moment, and then get up and go back out there and try again.
I use vitamin C as my first little moisturizing serum.
When I turned twenty eight, my skin changed, and I had to find a whole new routine.
Little did I know that your hormones change every seven years.
Age is great.
After the vitamin C, I actually do have a different moisturizer that I use.
So I have huge eyeballs,
and I love mascara, and eyeliner, and eyeshadow, and smoking them out.
And what happens?
They get in your eye.
And so now, I have to start using eye drops because I can even feel it right now.
I hate it.
So this is embarrassing, and wish me luck.
Oh my god.
Ah!
And next, I realized I still have residue.
So I have to get my makeup wipe that I’m still using,
and wipe a little bit before I use my eye cream.
The person that taught me to do makeup was actually my sister.
She was always obsessed with makeup, so she learned early on.
And then eventually, I was about twenty-years-old, and she was tired of the way I was doing it.
So she sat me down in her bathroom, and that’s where I learned how to do makeup: my sister.
My little sister, of all people.
I’m supposed to be teaching her.
And finally, eye cream.
I have not found what eye cream I like yet, so I have been using samples.
And I just want to say something.
Do not buy anything unless you know it works.
And then you just tap it, tap it, tap it.
So you look pretty.
We don’t want wrinkles.
I learned how to take care of my skin when I was about twelve.
I was coming home crying a lot because of my acne, so my mom actually took me to the
mall one day and introduced me to Clinique.
It was the first brand that I ever used, and it really helped clean up my face, which is when
I learned about soap that you actually use for your face, and toner,
and lotion, and all that stuff.
And that’s that.
It’s not someone’s makeup look or how much they contour or the lip that they use that matters.
It’s really the heart of someone.
I’m glad that my mom didn’t allow me to wear makeup when I was younger because it
really taught me to appreciate who I was as a person and not the face that I put on.
To me, I feel like my most beautiful when I feel like myself.
For example, I’m here and I’m wearing sweats at Refinery29,
and I feel more myself than ever.
That’s why I go out without makeup a lot, because if you can’t accept me at my natural,
then you can’t accept me at my glam.
Or, you can’t have me at my glam.
You know what I mean.
And now I want a glass of wine because I feel like I’m going to bed.
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