hello hello welcome to 500 pound girl
after i ended my vlog last night and i said that i was feeling better it wasn't
even 20 minutes later and i started feeling horrific horrible pain i drank more tea i was
trying to like drink more water i had a heating pad on i was laying on my side because they said
that helps with gastrointestinal going to bed like drastically earlier than usual because i wanted to
force myself to sleep so i didn't have to feel the pain my body was literally trying to protect me
from the pain and if you know me you know it's impossible for me to fall asleep any earlier
than what my body wants to go to sleep and usually that's pretty late normally i go to bed about 11
a.m so pretty much noon and i'll sleep for 10 to 12 hours i woke up feeling drastically better so
i'm gonna keep my fingers crossed so i just really quickly wanted to show you what i'm
having for my first meal it is a stir fry that i made i actually made it in yesterday's episode
um just all fresh from the earth no um so i'm having that uh also my weigh-in so after i binged
two nights ago i know i gained a few pounds but i weighed in today and i'm back to where i was
a couple days ago i was 485.8 so that means i've lost all of the binge water weight and
the water retention etc etc so that's a good thing again keeping my fingers crossed that
i keep feeling fine because i'm gonna be honest i'm a little nervous to even eat because i'm
afraid that i'm gonna start hurting again so i need to think of the positives and the positive
is i am feeling better so um i'm about to have my next meal i'm just having a cup of noodle which
is currently in the microwave and then i think i'm gonna have like i don't know a few of these
they're lemon shortbread bites one two three four five six seven why not seven is my second favorite
number today hasn't been the greatest like mental health day for me it sucks that i couldn't see my
psychologist yesterday i wish i could have i know you're not supposed to put it in the microwave but
i grew up doing it why am i gonna change now what would be the point where's the pepper
wait what i like to add tons of peppa
i know it's already salty but i do like to have a little garlic salt moment i really want that like
delicious broth i like to make it like to where it's only in the microwave for like two minutes
so the noodles aren't like fully cooked just still a little hard
what how to get the food
yeah for the next meal i order food it looks like i've been crying i have been it's been a day
twinkie girl it's just me
she thinks she's a she thinks she's a guard dog and if someone bar marching to your house
the most they're going to do is want to be pet on that's a lie twinkie would kick your [ __ ]
people bark she's gonna bite we got from this place called bj's that's what she said
so good has like the best salmon ever nine times out of ten that is what i
get from there my girlfriend got ribs oh my god their ribs are so good they're root beer ribs
that smells amazing i really like their mashed potatoes
so i also get some of their mashed they're mashed titers
i'm gonna go get my girlfriend her food i'll go back baby do you need a fork or anything
and then i get their salmon it comes with rice it's just salmon and rice
but i remember i was at texas roadhouse one day and i ordered their salmon and it came back raw
i said no i'm not a karen i never sent back my food but i was like so grossed out that i didn't
even want it like in front of me and it's like i just paid for it so i decided to say something and
so they took it back they're like okay we'll cook it longer and i was like okay thank you
like i was so appreciative and i felt bad they brought it back and it was still raw
i got scarred from salmon for years like when it came to like ordering it from restaurants
thankfully it's no longer like that so good and i always eat the middle of my salmon first
and then the out part just so quirky and then they're mashed potatoes
unmatched so i'm gonna go with this twinkie is staring at me
so pitiful come here baby girl you want a taco you want a taco
yeah she's already ate but it's just a dog it's just a little dog who loves foods so
there's a few carrots look at this one now ready twinkies that too healthy for you
she usually eats them but i think she smells the salmon she's like damn this is what they got me
mother nature's poo poo's in the kitchen look at rarity
you can't eat carrots so i think we're gonna have a movie night we're not like movie people
but what makes it worse is our attention span do you want to try to find a movie on netflix or hulu
oh i don't even think about hulu okay so i'm just gonna write the word alien because we
want to watch a horror movie but she's afraid of ghosts am i about to tell them that i can't even
say the word i'm sorry uh she's like terrified in real life because she believes in ghosts oh my god
sorry i'm like wait we should have i should okay we're gonna have a code word we're gonna call it
oogie boogies i'm more scared of that word like can you imagine oogie boogie watching you while
you're sleeping excuse me why why why would you say that okay so i'm gonna put in aliens
she said the options were aliens or like slasher killer type of stuff
i mean i'd rather watch the oogie boogies but there's a literal movie called alien because
it'll only show movies with the title alien but on netflix if you type in alien it'll show you movies
that have aliens i think who's woman is that your mom oh is it a minor place yeah it says alex woman
yeah what is the surprise me button it just play something wait i'm gonna press surprise
wait what oh it's playing stranger things which i've never seen we gotta go back to
the beginning we can't start it oh i'm gonna i'm gonna watch that by myself are you serious baby
you work all the time when am i gonna have time baby i'm trying to can we can we watch shit's
crazy like from the beginning oh yeah we could do that i'm typing aliens oh my god i'm so blind
dark skies have you seen that i've seen like 10 times started watching it
oh let's see if we start watching stuff and then never finish it some of my top favorite movies
forest gum 10 things i hate about you riding in cars with boys okay those are top three is that
hitler what is this i'm trying to just look for a scary movie with no oogie boogers in it
what does that say a family man faces his worst nightmare when an extraterrestrial
oh wait have you seen um cloverhou cloverfield of course i have it with john goodman ninth
grade no but john goodman the new one oh the new one the nuffer it's not cool the new one
it's not like new anymore but like the most recent one who is john good or the one that
looks like my dad from roseanne my dad and john goodman twins redflinstone yes so you have seen it
wait okay we're gonna watch that then so the whole time you're trying to decide is john
goodman just crazy with these people trap like he has these people trapped down in this area oh yeah
no i didn't see that or is there really aliens i'm not telling you the truth i know the answer
because i've seen it like ten times okay so we're gonna try to find cloverfield we're gonna watch
that and then i'll let you know what she thinks of it okay bye i'm about to create a little
snack bag i do get snacky at night nine times out of ten and today is one of those nights quite a
few snacks in my pantry they're all quote-unquote healthier snacks so i'm just gonna take a couple
things i'm gonna take two of these dark chocolate blueberries two of those and then i'm gonna take a
couple of these milk chocolate vanilla sea salt caramels there's like six there six or seven
which is a less than a serving so i'm gonna have a couple more of these lemon shortbread bites how i
ate mine earlier is i just like sucked on them it was so good so i'm just gonna have four of those
i also binged on plantain chips the other night but it's like it sounds so good and
i feel like i'm gonna want something salty but i think instead i'm just gonna take some
uh cashews not even a handful so that is my it's kind of like a trail mix in a way i almost wish i
had some like dried mango or something so this is dried apple oh i don't like how it smells
no i'm okay baby this is what my girlfriend likes it's like dried apple stuff is that good for the
night yeah i think that's good that's me being reasonable with myself oh and by the way we didn't
even watch the movie um i rented it on what's called on the youtube so we will watch it tomorrow
we're bad with movies but we have a good movie to watch and by the way it's called
10 cloverfield lane i completely recommend it coming from someone who's pretty picky with movies
definitely listen to me on that regard baby what do you plan on doing with your little snack bag
do you want me to put in the pantry this is her cute little snack bag
where'd i put my snacks oh love that this cat and wasabi obsessed with boxes oh my god and i feel
like the smaller the box the more they like it so she was laying in it but she also loves this spot
so i put the box up here so it's like the best of both worlds and she's also a little high on catnip
yeah this is the catnip we use
she loves catnip so she gets a little love it a couple times a month we'll put it out for her um
smarty cat catnip you crazy he's so crazy you guys so it's the end of the night you know i'm never
ashamed of having some fur baby fur on me because that just means they're loved and i'm loved
that's all it is it's been a couple hours since i saw you guys i still have not ate any of these
i have thoroughly been enjoying these episodes the video that i just scheduled to go up is 30 minutes
long ma'am did i make a mistake did i import like triple videos that i didn't mean to like i was so
confused i was like how is this so long um it's just because vulnerability transparency opened you
guys up a little bit to my life um i'm no longer giving an actual [ __ ] what people think of me
and if no one watches fine i'll go find another job so i'm getting to talk about serious issues
while also talking about you know willy-nilly things like movies you know it's just it's nice
to be able to to do that again and i think a big part of it is i am not reading comments at all
none and if people watch it i'm grateful 100 grateful more than 100 can you be more than 100
of something if you can then i am that for you guys i'm just grateful and i'm thankful you know
it's bittersweet not reading comments because it leaves me with a clear head because the comments
it's torture the comments are torture for me i want to be honest i don't know if you guys
are enjoying this content i have no idea what you guys are thinking of this i don't i have no idea
um i don't even get messages on instagram or snapchat anymore i have my messages turned off so
if you guys ever try to talk to me on there um i don't get the messages because it's just the hate
online has been so bad that i really really think that it's messing with me um i hope that one day
the community surrounding my channel won't be as bad i expect hate always
that's just how it is everyone gets hate but i just think to scroll through
my comments and not see a single positive thing it's just it's hard for me and by me just kind
of ignoring the [ __ ] if you will has helped me a lot with this and i want to continue down this
path you know it's hard because like there are certain things that i talk about and share like
how hardcore i binge the other night or like how sick i was yesterday because my gallstones
you know you know and i've been showing you guys literally everything that i'm eating
is it boring to you guys i hope not because i wake up every day and i'm excited to film
i'm excited to film and that feels really good to be excited to not only film but also be excited to
edit and to upload and just like the whole nine yards i thoroughly have been enjoying that and
hope you guys have been as well but i'm gonna end this video i hope that you guys enjoyed
and i guess the best way you guys can tell me if you are enjoying it is maybe thumbs up the video i
never asked that because it's cringe ugh there's some youtubers who ask every single video
even before the video starts it's a little cringe but maybe this could be a way for you guys to tell
me without me having to read the comments right now anyways i'm gonna go i'm rambling and i'll
see you guys in the next episode bye emotions cause i know that you got so much more to give
you made a real mess but i miss you though cause i can go to sleep when i'm alone again