(dramatic music) (inmates chattering)
- For anybody who watching this, get you a job, man.
You feel me?
That's one of the most best ways
to stay out the way to keep you out of trouble.
And don't allow, don't just go for anything, you feel me?
Stand on your decision.
Make your own decisions.
(door clanging)
So it's interview time, huh?
- [Guard] Mm-hmm.
- Y'all gotta have some good questions for me.
♪ Mi, mi, mi, mi, mi, mi, mi ♪ (laughs)
I'm Jason (bleep), inmate at PCDC.
(tense music)
I'm 28.
The first time I came here, I was 17.
I've been here maybe 30 times, or 31.
All honesty.
You know, we got the grocery, little farmer's market.
We got hot sauce, chips, soups, pickles, Jolly Ranchers.
I have been in the system all my life.
I was in foster care
for a lot of years before I got adopted.
And my mother was in the system for a long time.
She was on drugs and if she could've been there,
maybe it would've been different, but it's like,
damn, I'm following the same cycle
and if I don't do something now,
I'm gonna be stuck in this,
in this place forever if I don't change myself.
And I'm a father of a little girl.
So that's what haunts me the most.
Trying to make sure, like,
I don't fall in the same category as my mother,
not taking care of my kids.
But it's like, when you in a city where
you try a hundred times to get a job, man,
out of them hundred, only three give you a call back,
and only one might let you work there.
And then once you get there,
it's so much that's against you
'cause you always get looked down upon
or you always get judged.
It's really frustrating.
I think everyone should deserve a second chance.
But there's a lot of people who don't feel that way
and they just shoot you down.
And it's like, I get angry,
and my anger is what caused me to
be in certain situations that lead me here.
I should just focus on what's good for my child,
the betterment of her, you feel me?
And not trying to say forget it
or giving up, letting depression win.
I'm very loving, I'm very caring,
but I don't take (bleep) I don't like.
I don't like to be played with.
I'm just not one to stand down
or lay down for anything, you feel me?
But when I first got here,
I was in an incident with the police.
Y'all telling me I'm going to the hole.
I haven't done anything to go to the hole.
And I'm trying to explain that to you.
What protocol did I not follow that I'm going to the hole?
But they didn't wanna listen to me.
They weren't listening to me.
I was pleading my case, pleading my case, pleading my case.
Basically, like a child pleading to his father.
Like, "Dad, I didn't do it.
It was my sister. I didn't do it."
And they still wasn't listening
and they just started grabbing me up and fighting with me.
So I'm fighting back.
But it's like, I'm not fighting to hurt anybody.
I'm just trying to not be handled any type of way.
And they brought me in here, in this pod.
It wasn't nothing but mentally challenged people
and they had the bag over my head.
They threw me in the room.
They told me I needed to get up under the bunk
for them to take my restraints off.
I'm scared to get up under this bed.
What the (bleep) are y'all gonna do to me?
Why do I have to get up under this bed?
And it's like, they're not trying to listen.
If you anger them to a certain extent,
you will get a cell with no mat, no covers,
and you will be in there for a while
until they decide to give it to you.
They shouldn't do it like that, but it will happen.
Even though we're here, all of us are not bad people.
And a lot of people only act out
and are perceived a certain type of way
because they're treated a certain type of way.
So I think everyone should be, like, even people who are not
having issues with mental health,
everybody should have some type of mental health help.
I'm gonna just say that.
- Word up, alright, wild child. (rolls tongue)
- I don't want to call somebody a dummy.
But after so much of listening to a person,
you'll realize how incompetent they are.
And it's not even on the intellectual level.
It's just like,
what they prize in life that don't mean nothing.
A lot of people in there don't have no type of moral,
no type of self respect or respect for others.
And it's like,
you really gotta take a step back and reflect, like,
these people are not right in their heads,
so just don't even feed into that, you feel me?
- [Producer] Do you trust anyone in there?
- Outta everybody in there,
if I could say I trust someone, I'll say Smiles.
I'll say Smiles.
It's like, Smiles has good characteristics
and he moves based off principles.
A lot of people don't move off principles.
They just doing things without a proper reason why.
And he's not one of those people.
And I'll say I trust Smiles.