On May 9th 1991, I was born as a breech baby.
That means I was born 'upsidedown' so my legs came out first instead of my head.
My mum told me that when I was still a baby, in the day time, an intruder came into our home
whilst we were asleep and tried to strangle my mum.
She passed out but apparently I began crying from the commotion and it gave her the power to wake up
and bite him so hard on his hand, blood poured out causing him to run.
Police followed the trail of blood and caught the motherfxcker.
I felt like a super baby!
We didn't have a very good life back then.
We were really poor and when my mum wanted to feed me, she would scoop every single bit of powder she could for baby milk coz she couldn't afford another tub.
I didn't have any toys to play with except for this one music box that I loved so much
As I grew up, the only toys I got were McDonalds toys(!)
When I started nursery, I loved it.
Even when I was really ill, i would beg my mum to take me.
There was one time where there was a dead pigeon in the play area and the teacher put a chair over it to cover it.
I felt sorry for it not knowing I wasn't allowed to touch it.
then the teacher came and screamed NOOO and dragged me really hard and sat me inside without saying anything.
I was like, "WTF HO?!"
In reception and the first year of Primary school, I didn't wear school uniform when everyone else did.
Surprisingly I wasn't told off until the end of year one.
Believe or not, I was an extremely shy kid.
I was so damn shy, whenever the teacher would call my name on the register, I wouldn't ever say "good morning."
Because I was afraid I would get laughed at for some reason.
The day I managed to utter a response to the register, all the kids cheered me for overcoming my 'fear'. Lol!
One time in the playground, I got hit so hard by someone kicking a ball at my head, it knocked me over. (I was by myself)
It was so fxcking painful I ended up crying and walking out the school gates because i wanted to go home to my mum
I was 5 by the way. A 5 year old going home by herself? Nah ah.
Two adults spotted me outside the school and took me back in where I got told off for doing something dangerous
and my mum got called in so she could watch them telling me off.
I used to love playing in the park outside my flat.
Unfortunately a lot of older kids came to the park every now and then and my younger brother and I would always get bullied.
We've been chased by a gang of 10
ordered around by this bxtch who thought she was queen of the park,
pushed to the ground for no god damn reason and bleeding really badly
picked on for our race, picked on for how we looked..
Bloody hell, it was so bad that one time my mum ran out the house with a kitchen knife and chased after the boys that bullied us and threatened them.
Yay supermum <3
I moved house in 2001 which isn't that far from my old house; it was about a 5 minute walk away
and life was so much better.
I went to an all girls secondary school. My confidence grew a lot because of drama classes.
Drama was my favorite subject alongside art and I've no idea why I didn't pick it for my GCSEs.
In 2004 my mum took a pregnancy test and it tested positive
She asked my brother and I if she should keep the baby and we said YES!
9 months later, Kim was born <3
When I was 15-16, I went through a visual kei phase when I found out about jrock.
I would panda-fy my eyes thinking I looked fxcking awesome.
It was at this age my friend introduced me to his friend through Maple Story who then became my first bf I felt strongly about.
2 years later after an on and off relationship we broke up during my 2nd year in college
I was so depressed about it I dropped out because I felt really lonely.
Every friend had their own group and if i joined a group, I felt left out, even with my friends from secondary school who went to the same college as me
I really hated being alone.
I started modeling to make some cash and pass time and also started making YouTube response videos
and videos of me singing but I ended up deleting them cuz they were just eww..
At the yearly anime convention,I bumped into a guy who wanted a photo of me and surprisingly I ended up giving him my phone number and we ended up together.
It was during this time i also started making youtube video properly doing vlogging and shxt.
He taught me how to make my videos more interesting and how to edit pro and stuff.
I earned a YouTube partnership but then half a year later it got taken away due to frickin' click bombers.
I worked full time in 2009 and part time in 2011, and also studied a diploma in fashion design.
F and I were together for nearly four years but we parted our ways in mid 2012 due to too many disagreements and other stupid things
and at this time, as a fresh start for everything I made two new YouTube channels.
Half a year later I started hanging out with my friend, Jon, more, who I met in early 2011.
I never realised how much connection we had and before I even knew it, I fell in love.
I asked him to be my bf on 12/12/12 coz I'm cool like that.
I decided to put more time and effort into my two new YouTube channels by making videos on a weekly basis
I have a fresh subscriber base and lots of people telling me how my videos cheer them up when they're feeling down
and how usually its difficult for videos to make them laugh but mine did. YAY!
These comments motivate me to make more videos and keep you guys happy.
I think like every other YouTuber, I enjoy making people laugh and smile because it makes me happy to know I can cheer someone up when I'm not there physically.
You guys keep me going and cheer me on and I don't feel so alone like how I used to feel.
You've all helped my confidence grow dramatically and I thank everyone who've supported me until this day
THANK YOU~