Hi everyone, Agnes here. Now I've been having quite a few conversations this week
around having intense fear of things and whether it's in relationships, whether it's at work,
whether it's with a health condition or whether it's with financial fear, it is a
really paralysing state to be in no matter how long you're there.
So I've been giving it some thought and I wanted to share with you something that I wrote at a
point in my life around fear and how this helped me considerably to deal with it, and especially
intense fear. Now I've discussed this technique before about automatic writing - for those of you
that have read the series 'Conversations With God' with Neale Donald Walsh - the process of him
writing that trilogy was about automatic writing. So sitting down with a paper and a pen and just
writing down something that you're really fearful about, heavy-hearted about and really struggling
with and it might even be affecting your eating and your sleeping. Now what I'm going to do is I'm
going to read you through a conversation that I had written in this process to give you an example
and it basically is just two parts - I write 'ME' and then I write source, god or infinite
intelligence - I'm going to call it 'I.F' for this exercise - infinite intelligence.
Now, this is how the conversation went and this is how at the time of this conversation
I was able to go from about a 2 out of 10 and being quite paralysed with fear to about an
8 out of 10 in about 20 minutes. So it is a great process to practice, it is a wonderful way to
connect with whatever word you prefer to use - God, Infinite Intelligence, Source, Allah, Buddha,
Nature, Universe, and to have a dialogue with this amazing presence
that is all knowing, all seeing and can really help and assist you when asked and called upon.
So the conversation that I had went like this.. ME:
I am really gripped with fear, I am really scared. I.F:
It's just your thoughts, it's not real. I know you're scared but I've got this, trust me.
ME: I wish it was that easy. I.F: It's going to be okay.
ME: I can't focus, I feel too disturbed mentally, emotionally.
I feel like a wreck. I have such an intense fear in my gut.
I'm scared to the core, I haven't felt fear like this for a long, long time,
as long as I can remember. I.F: Fear passes but when we love we fear, it's inevitable.
I understand this but you have to practice relaxing, breathing and letting go.
ME: I'm so tired and weary. Infinite Intelligence:
I know, you slept badly but it will pass. Rest today, don't give out energy. Recharge, walk,
watch a series and just be still. ME:
Okay I will surrender and trust the best I can but I do feel really helpless.
I.F: You're not helpless. You being focused, strong, secure, positive, helps this situation.
This is about letting go of the illusion of external control and that is a worse fear for many
but it will be a distant memory soon. Relax, be happy, be free and rejoice in this wonderful
outcome. That's the way through you know, doing that now. ME: Yeah thanks for the
reminder I needed it. Infinite Intelligence: It's okay I'm here, always. ME: Oh thank god.
Infinite Intelligence: Hahaha, go out get some sun, some air and nature, it helps you. ME:
Okay I feel better letting that out. Infinite Intelligence: That's good.
ME: I do trust you more than I used to you know. Infinite Intelligence: I know but don't torture
yourself and suffer unnecessarily. ME: Okay, one day at a time. Infinite Intelligence: Yeah,
so eat good food, be free, enjoy, love, laugh, focus, hold your mind in position. ME:
How and on what exactly? I.F: Faith all is going to be fine with life,
so no need to worry. ME: Phew, I feel relief, weight off my shoulders. Infinite Intelligence:
Be relaxed, rest, exercise, eat, be alone, don't talk as that then creates
worry in others and then plants bad seeds in your head just be alone,
be love, be still. I'm gonna say that again - just be alone, be love, be still, this helps.
ME: Okay, okay, I will. I feel so much better doing this, talking to you
I.F: That's good. ME: This is a cool thing to do, it's helpful. I.F: It can be yes, but rest now,
I'm here later if you want. ME: Okie dokie. - So that was part one of our conversation.
Now moving into the second part again, sitting down with paper and pen, setting my intention
to get some clarity and some relief on what was going on at the time. ME:
I had a nightmare, I woke up feeling really sick in the guts.
I.F: There are three darker fears of human beings..
1) Being left and abandoned.
2) Infidelity. 3) Death.
Most people have these dark fears. ME: Yeah, horrible.
I.F: I know but trust, trust, trust, and be secure in this.
ME: I want to believe you, struggling to. I.F: That's okay, I'll just keep repeating it.
ME: I have not felt this level of suffocating fear for a long time.
I.F: I know..
and that's good. ME: How to dispel fear, how is the best way?
I.F: Breathing deeply. 2) Remind yourself of what I said.
3) Ho'oponopono. 4) Rest, watch good movies. 5) Sleep when you can. 6) Walk in nature.
7) Have a really nice cup of tea or anything else that you enjoy. 8) Meditate on I am love.
ME: That's a lot of good stuff. Infinite Intelligence: Always the basics - rinse,
repeat. As in just allow, don't be over emotional and unstable, hold yourself.
ME: Yeah understandable, phew I feel a bit better. I.F: Good that's the way, let go of fear.
ME: It's restricting in my body, it weakens me mentally, physically, emotionally.
I.F: It does, cells, muscles, energy, ability to focus, concentration and being effective - it
steals all of that from you. So trust what I tell you, trust me, all will be fine. ME: Okay..
trust in god is a big invisible key.
I.F: It's a choice. Do it. ME: It is a choice, why is it so hard to believe what you're saying?
I.F: Because it's loss of control, it's loss of power which you never
really have but you sometimes think you do. Times like this show you, you don't. ME:
What about radiating love to a situation? I.F: Yes, that's good but let go and surrender is
where the true power is. That's the release and the freedom, it comes from that. ME:
I say I'll surrender, I let go. I.F: Yeah I know, I hear you. ME: Yeah good.
I.F: Keep doing it, surrender to me, let go to me, be free. I will carry that burden. ME:
What a relief. I.F: It is - no need for you to carry it, it's too heavy for you.
ME: Really it is, I can't breathe.
ME: Okay I'll try to trust to let go but I know I will be back here again. I.F:
I'm here. ME: Thank god. I.F: Hahahaha funny. ME: Just need to get through the next few days.
IF: You will and it will pass on to days after this and weeks and months so no need to worry
okay, no need - unnecessary self-torture, let go, breathe, relax, surrender, rest.
ME: Thank you for your help I truly needed it. I.F: It's totally okay.
So that's it, that was the conversation about intense deep fear. Now there have been bits and
pieces that have been omitted which was specifics about what was going on and that's a private
matter but I thought I'd share with you the bones of this automatic writing, connecting with source,
infinite intelligence, god, whatever word you prefer to use. So today, your fear, your not being
able to breathe, feeling suffocated, feeling weakened mentally, physically, emotionally..
..can be dissipated. Try and take some time to do this. I was able to get relief in 20 minutes
and that is 20 minutes well spent. So if you decide to do this let me know
how it goes for you. Let me know what was revealed to you that gave you relief and what
kind of conversation you had in terms of connecting with that presence.
The bigger presence that is within us all and that runs this amazingly beautiful planet,
nature and the animal kingdom of ours.
Lots of love everyone and I hope that that was useful to you, lots of love.