my name is Vicky and I was conceived by rape
I was born in Birmingham in the 70s and adopted when I was 7 months old growing
up I always wanted to find my birth mother it's almost like she'd been a
ghost in my life knowing there was somebody who given birth to you he was
alive walking around when I hit my 18th birthday I was determined to get the
files and that's when I was told by a social worker and I saw in black and
white in my files that my conception was a result of rape
my birth mom had been 13 a school girl and my birth dad a family friend he was
35 the record said that she'd gone to babysit his house and he raped her to
find out that you've been born through a horrendous act of violence against a
child and that people knew it says in seven different places in the files that
it was rape the fact that she was 13 means it was statutory rape because he
had sex with a minor it states his name and address
that social services police and health workers knew but nothing was done about
it my birth mom was from a black working-class family and I can't help
thinking attitudes at the time had something to do with that it made me
feel angry devastated for my birth mum for me and then I remember thinking will
my birth mother ever want to meet me
I traced my birth mother with support from my adoptive father and I found her
seeing the photo of her for the first time was incredible
it was like looking into a mirror I
remember us meeting when I was about 20 I walked off the train and she was there
I can only imagine how she must have felt seeing me there as an adult she
said that she'd always hoped I find her but it wasn't some soft focused moment
or loving embrace it was just was just really surreal
it wasn't until decades later when the Jimmy Savile case and other historic
cases were in the news that I really thought about trying to do anything
about it I'd always thought it was so wrong that my birth father was never
prosecuted it was then though I thought I've got
DNA evidence because I am DNA evidence
I'm a walking crime scene and it's all written in the files I mean surely
people are going to take me seriously I wanted him to be held accountable I
wanted justice for my mom I wanted justice for me the ramifications of what
he chose to do have shaped my entire life
you think I'd get sick of Crying and he's being able to get away with it and just
live his life
my birth mother made it very clear that she reported that it was a rape at the
time and people hadn't listened to her then so why would they listen now more
than 40 years have passed and she well she doesn't want to go through all again
but she supports me pursuing it I've contacted so many people police social
workers solicitors MPs they just say you're not the victim because of that
crime I am Alive my whole life's been dictated by it but no one will see me as
the victim I am living breathing proof of a child rapist and nobody is
interested how is that okay
my birth father's name was in my files so I traced him I was getting nowhere of
the police eventually I decided to go to his address I just remember the nerves
my heart was pounding I was sweating I mean this man like a ghost he's done the
most heinous act and this is who I'm going to meet he came to the front door
and I just said hello I believe I'm your daughter he just said oh come in and
that's it it was the most surreal 40 minutes of my
life I remember saying to him well did you have sex with her because if you
didn't then we don't need to be having this conversation and he just said that
just because you have sex with somebody doesn't mean you make a baby and so to
me that was well he just confirmed it why would you not deny it on the way out
I noticed his photo on the wall of a girl maybe about 12 years old I just
sort of said oh no who's that it was his great-granddaughter or
someone and that made me feel absolutely sick I mean who's protecting her
I found out that there have been victimless prosecutions for rape when
people don't feel able to report it because of the nature of the crime but
there's evidence I want the police to look at the files and at least consider
a victimless prosecution in my case and I want the definition of victim to be
reviewed this has nearly beaten me down being adopted comes of so many
difficulties and the trauma of this has affected every part of my life but I
will persevere because I know this is so wrong and I want justice so I'm not
going to go away