I just don't want to.
It's so hard to leave any marriage
and everything that happened between Matt
and I was like a bad dream.
With Matt not like we had moved here,
and I was like, four months old and he had an affair.
The other day, I found out that he's,
like, still seeing this woman.
Your ex was arrested in Orange County on suspicion
of domestic violence.
He just was like a different person.
That's a testament to who Travis is, that he can tolerate
all of these things that go on between me
and my ex and my kids.
That's part of why I love him so much.
But I need you to, like, take a moment
and realize that because.
This is so much for you.
And you really haven't dealt with it.
I understand that.
I know.
I don't want to have to acknowledge the fact that I'm.
Still struggling with this.
It's like I like to pretend like I did because that feels,
you know, safe.
Yeah, there still are definitely days or circumstances
where things will come up.
Recently, I attended a wedding and a church which was like, I
got married in a church. was like things
like that even remind you of like what
it was supposed to be.
It just like, it really sucks.
It's something that when something really that bad
happens to you, it's just never going to go away.
It's just not.
You're allowed to have your feelings about it.
I know.
I don't know why.
I just stuff them down.
Well, you're.
Stop stuffing.
Can I have a hug?
Of course.
There's no such.
You know what we have to chew on, too?
Let's go in there and put up your pajamas on.
Am I your tent, buddy?
Yeah let's go get your bag.
These are getting really close.
The fish are done.
This is going to be too small.
No, they're mad at me.
So How'd it go?
It went well.
Did you say that he had a reputation for.
Yes I mean, I'm really open and honest with her.
I expose something that's been bothering me for a while.
The fact that I heard he walked into my gym and pointed at me
and said, I'm going to her and he knew I was married.
That to me, that's hard for me.
That's hard for me.
By the way, she's not the only married woman in my gym.
Did you.
Does she know that?
I don't know.
I didn't care about her.
I wouldn't even say anything.
But I do care about her.
And I care about her family.
No stand guy goes after married women.
I might look like the bad guy, but in the end,
she's the one that's going to suffer.
Oh, my God.
All right, come on.
Let's go, girls.
Everybody have their hammies on.
Let's smoke a joint.
Is it going to hurt me?
What's with your lungs?
You're hurt because I don't eat anything.
Did you just say girl?
Meaning you have a lung issue.
I'm not a huge smoker, but I do.
Every once in a while.
That gets fun to pull out a joint
and have a little puff wrap 46592.
I should have brought more of a stack.
No, nothing.
Oh, here.
Now, that didn't work.
Take another hit.
OK you guys want to get some grub?
I'm going to try the bison.
It's good.
It is amazing.
I'll try it. You went to eyeball Shannon.
She doesn't want the eyeball right there.
I'm not having it.
Oh, did you have the cob?
That's not enough food for you.
It's not bad.
Actually, the bison is not bad.
Although the peach cobbler is quite good.
Why do you call my.
My jelly?
You're wearing high heels barefoot.
Where's your good?
I have these on.
Oh, Gina, I hope I didn't upset you.
What?
I said I sometimes don't understand your perspective,
but it's not that I was upset by it,
or I think that's a problem.
You know, you were not a reason that I got upset.
OK, it's really hard to get yourself to a place
where you truly can 100% just let it go,
especially when that person is still
a major part of your life.
Who like my joint, by the way, it was good.
You like it?
Oh, you like it?
Cracked it suddenly.
I'm very stoned.
Oh, boy, I am fun.
Stoned I need a brownie.
I might sleep in one of these two guys.
Good sleeping in these tents.
No, no, no.
Four seasons pictures in them.
Yeah, that's not happening.
Now, that is not a thing.
I'm never going to see in the woods.
Listen, we used to sleep in a tent.
We don't get to sleep in a tent instead
of a 9,500 square foot Villa.
Now we're back in luxury.
Let's smoke a joint better.
I don't have.
Now it's a blow.
My brother got me stung.
Dick what are you going to do next?
Like a real animal.
Animal?
the same morning I had lunch at receiver.
It was working.
Hey, Michael.
Hey, babe.
Good morning.
What's happening?
We're getting ready to go have breakfast.
And we have a big day today.
We're going to go Whitewater rafting and some of them
are going to go fly fishing.
So we have a big day tomorrow.
So we can either go fly fishing or Whitewater rafting.
I want to go Whitewater wrap.
I'm going to go fly fishing.
I just want to have a day where we're not digging up bones.
I'm really tired of it.
I was a lot of nice guys with all the girls.
Last night was a hard night.
Last night was a lot.
Honestly, I feel like I'm sitting in this spot that feels
super confusing with Tamara.
There's so many things that are so below the belt like I.