This is not, a video that...
I thought, I would be making as soon as we are.
This is not a video, that I... Ever wanted to have to make.
But, I knew I would. I will tell you now.
I will cry in this video.
I'm sure, you already know was going on...
By the title...
I hate, to tell you guys...
Oakley passed away...
On August 18, 2018...
Around like 1:00 AM in the morning.
I'm sorry... I don't want, to make you guys cry...
I don't like sharing sad things... Come here Memphis.
Memphis is like, "I'm done, watching mom cry!"
We've been crying for two (2) days...
Is not an easy thing to talk about. Is not an easy thing to tell you guys.
I mean...
We've been doing this for a long time.
Five (5) years ago, when Shiloh passed away,
I think everybody knew and understood what was happening.
I think, with Oakley...
Jamie and I, are still in shock.
I don't think, we we're expecting this to happen as fast as it did.
I don't think, we... I mean...
I literally had a vlog of Oakley...
When was it?
Thursday...
I vlogged all day on Thursday, so I had a vlog of her from Thursday.
She was okay. Oakley was having a day.
But, she was okay.
What happened was...
I'm sure, you guys want to know what happened?
I'll start with the backstory, for those of you that may haven't been here for a while.
Oakley had 'Soft Tissue Sarcoma' on her back leg.
She actually had two (2) on the same leg.
She had one (1) on the other leg.
The one on the bad leg...
We had it debulked a couple of months ago. You may had seen those videos.
When Oakley came out of her anesthesia, she had problems walking.
We knew, she won't have surgery again, but at the same time, we knew that...
The tumor...
Would come back.
It had been over the past couple of months. It had definitively been coming back.
We had tried many natural things and Oakley was on 'Canaa Pet' (Hemp Oil)
She was taking Tumeric and we were doing all these things.
None, seems to matter. The tumor would still coming back.
Oakley was 14 years old.
The tumor had been starting to give her, little bit of issues like walking and falling.
We did a lot of things around the house. We changed a lot of things.
We put more rugs in. We put soft landing floor at the landing.
If Oakley fell, she wouldn't fall hard, cause she fell like two (2) weeks ago, down the steps.
Like, we made all these changes for her.
I mean...
In the end, she was fourteen (14) years old. No matter what we did...
She wasn't kind of getting better...
Anyway...
What happened with Oakley... She fell...
Again...
This time... When she fell, it was like something in her back just...
Let go...
And...
I don't think, it was the fall that did it... I think it was the overtime...
The degenerative issues she had... I don't know...
Anyway... She fell... And...
Jamie was out in the garage. I was yelling for him, to come in...
We got Oakley up... When I got her up...
By myself, she went down inmediately...
That really scared me. She was panting a lot, so...
Anyway...
We got her up and...
She couldn't really use her back legs anymore...
Like, she could stand for a little bit, but Oakley was putting all her weight forward...
You could tell, that it really hurts for her, trying to stay on her back legs...
I called the emergency vet. We took her outside.
Jamie got her, to walk a little bit. She was very...
All her weight forward, if she leaned back at all... Her back end went out...
Jamie was like, walking Oakley around and holding her, so she could at least try to move.
We took her to the vet... And...
Dr. Ryan, who is amazing...
If you live in Alpena MI, Switzer Veterinary Clinic.
Everybody there, is amazing...
Dr. Ryan, check her over...
We kind of knew...
I think, we knew...
When we left the house...
That we, would not come home with her...
He checked her over and he confirmed what we thought it was.
We're pretty sure, she had damaged her sciatic nerve...
Something in her back...
Was causing paralysis on her back legs...
I don't know how much you guys, knows about dogs.
There's a thing you can do, to see how the dog's backs are working.
Take their feet, when they are standing and you can flip their feet over.
If they can't flip it back over, it means something from their brain that is sending signals
down to their feet, is not working.
The leg that Oakley had, the tumor on... She couldn't flip it over.
The other leg, she tried...
But, couldn't actually flip it over...
So, Oakley had...
Quite a bit of a paralysis... In her back end...
You guys... She was so tiered...
She was...
She just kept looking at us, like...
You could just tell... She was in so much pain...
We asked about options and they said, "We can sedate Oakley and you can take her home."
"But, you will end back here, tomorrow." "There's not a whole, we could do..."
So... We had to let her go...
Didn't we?
We had to let her go...
She passed away...
Like at 1:30 AM in the morning... On August 18, 2018.
We spent the whole weekend with friends...
They brought, their dogs over...
I didn't posted anything on the internet...
That even broke us all like, I wanted to tell everybody, but I...
I wanted, to take the time to process...
Before I just... I don't know...
I just needed a couple days... Before I told you, guys.
I just feel, like is a good reason to be in shock because, that video I uploaded Friday.
Oakley was fine and I felt that on Thursday, the vlog I had...
I filmed on Thursday and she looked okay. I just feel like... I don't know...
Like, is gonna be really hard for everybody to understand but...
Just know... IS REALLY HARD FOR US TO UNDERSTAND TOO...
Because, we we're not ready and you never gonna be ready
and I'm sorry that you guys, get to watch me cry...
But, I wanted to make a video...
To let you guys know...
I'll probably be doing...
A memorial video, but I'm not doing it on this video.
I'll probably just do that, on Friday, if I upload a video, Friday.
I know, a lot of you guys will say, "Take your time, don't worry about the videos, or us."
But, you guys also had to also understand that we really do see you, as our extended family.
We see you guys, as our friends and we come to know, so many of you over the years.
It would had been really hard not to immediately let everybody know.
But I knew, I had to take the time for us...
I'm sorry, that...
This is the news that, I had to give today and I'm sorry...
I'm sorry, we couldn't...
Fix her...
I would give anything and I know, this sounds crazy...
I don't know, how much of this will actually make it into video...
I really don't...
I don't even know, what to say to you guys... She's gone...
She's gone...
My big 'Fluffy Butt' is gone...
My rescued dog...
I learned a lot, about rescued, from her...
And now, she's not here...
But, I do have to say...
Again, I'll probably make a memorial video for Oakley, because I want to...
I do have to say that, Jamie and I talked about this a lot.
Oakley taught us so much...
She really did... We changed so much in our lives, for her.
You know, moving and changing the way the staircase is and changing the landing.
Making sure she had, her kennel here and the rugs we had down.
There were so many things... What are you doing?
...That we did for her.
We're gonna miss her... A lot...
I know, you guys are gonna miss her...
I understand it will be hard, for you to watch videos from now on
because she's not on them...
I know, a lot of you guys are gonna say, "Take your break and don't worry about us."
But, making these videos is kind of... even making this and talking to you guys...
What are you doing?
As much, as I'm crying...
And looking like a fool...
It does makes me, feel better...
I know, you guys leave comments and I'll be able to read what you say.
It will help us... Is such a weird life...
What are you doing?
But... Yeah.
For those of you, that are worried at how the other dogs are doing...
They are actually seem to be doing okay. Memphis seems oblivious!
She doesn't seems to know what's going on. She doesn't seem to understand, why we're all sad.
She seems fine.
Shelby, on the other hand...
Shelby, was Oakley's protector for the past few weeks.
She helped her, make it outside and wouldn't come in, if Oakley was out there.
Shelby definitively looked forward, but I think, when we came back after everything was over
I think, Shelby knew... Shelby is definitively mourning.
She is having a much harder time with it, than 'Snuggle Bug' here...
Memphis is like, "Pet me, love me, okay?" Which is great! We totally need this!
We need the dog, who's like "Pay attention to me!"
"Hey! I'm still here! You still love me!"
But... Yeah...
Anyway...
I think, I'm done rambling... You may noticed, this video is identical.
Was uploaded to both, "GoneToTheSnowDogs" and "SnowDogsVlogs."
Because, there's no way, I would do this twice...
I knew, I could do it once...
I made Jamie, leave like... "I can't record this video, while you're here..."
"Go and hang out with friends."
"When I'm done, I'll call you..."
"We will go out to dinner, or something..."
I do have to say, to any of our friends and family,
that I knew before this video went up,
because I did messaged all of our really close friends and family...
To any of you, that knew before this, if you are watching this... Thank you!
Thank you for coming over and hanging out with us...
The messages, for being worried about us...
Bringing us, food...
It's appreciated, more than you'll known...
I know, that life goes on.
Over time...
The pain, will never go away... But we will learn to deal with it, in a different way.
Because, that's what we do. Five (5) years ago, we loss Shiloh.
Now, we loss Oakley...
That's gonna happen when you have dogs...
Life is a series of dogs...
You have dogs coming into your life. There's always a point in life
when you can think back, to what you were doing and what dogs you had at that time.
As long as we keep bringing them, into our lives...
There's still gonna more than likely, pass away before we do... So...
We're gonna, have to go through this many times...
That's the reality of owning pets! Sometimes, it just sucks!
Bad!
It hurts!
You just want, to give anything to make it better...
And bring them back... But...
We did, everything we could for her. She had a good life...
She really did... Specially, compared to where she was...
And all the things, she had been through...
I think... I'm done talking...
I'm sure, I'm gonna make another video... Please feel free to... Comment.
Jamie and I, will be reading them all...
We always do... I know, I don't comment back to you guys all the time.
But, we read all of them...
I'm sorry to everybody, that was looking forward to meet Oakley
at the 'Novi (MI) Pet Expo' and 'New York City PetCon.'
But...
We're still going... We'll be there...
I'll accept many hugs, from you guys, for this!
It'll be good, to see you guys!
I really like those... Opportunities to be able to meet you guys... Face to face...
It means a lot, to us... More than you'll...
MORE, THAN I'LL COULD EVER EXPLAIN!
But...
Thank you for listening/reading and watching me cry...
We loved Miss Oakley so much...
Even thought, she was a 'pain in the butt' and shed all over...
And she was loud! My little announcement dog...
She had to announce, when anybody was walking by...
We'll probably do something, eventually where we talk about our favorite memories of her...
Which, will probably make us cry...
I'm sorry, if we ever had to do a day in the life of Oakley, routine video...
We want it, to do one for each of the dogs...
I just wanted, to show you guys how much she slept, all the time.
Like it was her favorite thing. Oakley's two (2) favorite things.
Were napping and eating. That was her favorite things.
Oh, I did wanted to say and don't know how many of you are still watching this.
I should had put this, sooner...
The apples from the apple tree had just started coming in.
The morning of... Friday morning...
We we're out in the backyard. I was walking around with her.
I pulled an apple of the tree and gave it to Oakley.
I didn't vlogged on Friday. I was taking the day off.
I did not vlogged on Friday...
Anyway, I gave Oakley the apple and it was kind of bitter and kind of hard when she bit into it.
It got stuck in her tooth... I had...
She put her paw in her face and I had to pull the apple, out of her mouth.
I gave it, to her again and she was able to bite it.
She ate it, even thought it was bitter.
So...
For those of you that had been around for a long time...
Oakley's favorite thing were those apples.
She would bury them or find them frozen in winter...
She got, to have an apple...
She did got to have an apple...
There are a lot of things, I can say I wish would had done...
But... We can't... Do that... In situations like this...
There's always, something more you had wish to be done...
But, you had to remember the good times...
Keep moving forward... Stay positive and dream big...
I know, I say it all the time, even when I'm sad... I try to live by that.
You'll get through this too...
We will heal, together...
I'm sorry...
[soft whisper] I don't know, what else to say...
We'll miss her... A lot.
Everything, in the house reminds her... of us...
Remind us of her... I think, I said it wrong...
But, we'll miss her...
Things won't ever be the same, but...
We'll still here...
We still have Miss Memphis... Shelby is laying behind the camera.
[sneezes] Bless you!
Oh!
Still having those moments... But...
We love you guys! Thank you for listening/reading.
I'm sorry, that I had to be the bearer of bad news...
We love you...
Thanks for watching...
Stay positive and dream big...
We will see you again soon.
We're not going anywhere...
We've been through this before...
We still love, to share our lives with you guys...
The ups and the downs... This is... One of those really 'crappy downs...'
But, we will still be here...
We might disappear for a few days, but... We'll still be here...
Love you guys. Thanks for...
Thanks for being a part of everything we do.
[Shelby cries]
Shelby, they are not gonna make anybody feel better!
We'll miss you, Oakley...
I hope, your life with us was everything you ever wanted.
Even, if you we're not a big fan of pets
and not a big fan of everything all the other dogs loved.
We tried, to make your life the best we could...
I hope, we did a good job. I think we did.
I think, we did!
Good bye guys.