Since the narrator comprises almost our entire sense of who we are.
It's not just the painful narration seen through it
When you see through it you also see through the narrator and the narrator is guess who?
It's everything that you have ever known about yourself!
Who would you be without your narration?
Just give it a try!
Anybody can do it.
Who are you if you don't think about yourself at all?
Don't refer to a single thought!
Who are you then?
I've never seen anybody drop out of their chair when they got asked this question
Some day they might.
I've never seen anybody go up in a puff of smoke and disappear
But I have seen a lot of confused faces
for a few seconds
when they go 'Now, who am I ... let me not refer to a single thought'
something inside is like
'Damn, he has tied my hands.'
'Am I good, am I bad, am I someone's daughter, mother, sister, brother
am I worthy, am I awake, am I unawake, am I a man, am I a woman?
Let me not go to my mind. Now who am I?
Whatever you are is still here, isn't it?!
You didn't just die, your heart didn't stop beating.
So whoever you are, whatever you are,
whatever any of us are,
is still here even when it can't define itself!
Even without its little narration about who it imagines itself.
So clearly our minds can completely stop all this nonsense and we are still here.
Which if you really see through this it tells you
that you've never been anything you've ever thought about yourself anyway.
Because why? Because what you are survives you not thinking about it!
But everything you know about yourself disappears when you're not thinking about it!
It's not there!
That's the small print.
Do I really want to be what I am?
Do I really want to be something I can never define?
Do I really want to be something I can never grasp?
Even though that's true
do I really want that?
Am I really ready for that?
Have I gone through enough cycles of samsara, of dissatisfaction in life
Have I been tumbled around in the washing machine of life enough
to where I kind of go 'Yes, I am ready!'
'I am willing.'
I don't have to be anybody.
By God, if I am not a somebody I'll be that.
If I am something that I can never actually think about in my mind
if that's it, OK
I've had enough of this ridiculous dog and pony show
I'm ready!
But let me ask
'Can I at least be
consciousness?'
I mean, it sounds so good. It is written in all the books.
Can I at least be that?
Well
just check it out.
Anybody can answer that for themselves!
Do you disappear when you don't give rise to that definition?
And if say yourself 'I am consciousness;'
does it actually add anything?
And when you take away the definition?
Does it actually add or subtract anything?
You see.
Now
I am not even saying whether you are or aren't consciousness.
You are certainly not just an idea called 'consciousness'
That I can guarantee you.
But what that word points to
I'm not saying whether that's what you are or not
because that's not really important for the moment.
So you just watch.
Watch without any condemnation, without any guilt, without any judgement.
Just watch it those moments where the mind seems to choose
to be something else
it chooses its narrative rather than the reality of the moment
Just watch it!
Watch how it really believes what it tells itself!
Just watch it!