from my personal experiences that it's it's I need to find a way to correct
that destructive behavior that I've been on that downward spiral my mental health
is following my channels of health and I need to correct that so I can continue
to do what I wanted to originally do the gaming youtuber chilled chaos just made
a video it's called let's chat he has over 1.4 million subscribers but you
just made this video talking about how he's depressed
what is everybody this is Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the
problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is
all about mental health so what I like to do is to teach you how to improve
your mental and emotional well-being so first to see what's going on a lot of
good points to touch on it so anyways now that this channel is growing a
little bit you guys are getting to know me I want to talk a little bit about
myself what I'm trying to do I'm probably going to get comments down
below like I did on my Marzia video that's a Marzia right let's say Marzia
right you don't even know I'm like I know my videos are not for all of these
youtubers my videos are for you okay I'm a tiny tiny tiny tiny drop in the ocean
that is YouTube but for all of you I hope you know you can learn from these
because why do we watch YouTube why do we watch our favorite youtubers we watch
our favorite youtubers because we can relate to them on
level you know maybe if it's chill chaos you love the games he plays in his
personality and all of that but other like vloggers and you might be able to
relate to them help them help you as well this is a it's it's interesting is
you know what they're going through some suggestions that's what I do so I don't
know until chaos I'll ever see this video but more importantly this video is
for you so yeah and those are you don't know me I give some tough love there are
going to be some tough love moments in this video so that is your warning
alright so anyways chill chaos I don't know much about him so that's the first
thing I'll say I do not know much about him so disclaimer I do not know much
about chill chaos I just watched his first video because it was recommended
to me he referenced back to a different video which I checked out so that is all
I know of him right but I see a lot of similarities between him and other
youtubers who are dealing with these mental health issues right so anyways
chill chaos has been on the platform for about 10 years and basically in this
video the let's chat video he talks about you know happy since like January
we're sitting in October a very long time like according to the DSM like that
long not being happy if you have specific symptoms of depression disorder
so that's a long time so what I want to do is I want to break
down some parts from his video and just kind of share a little bit of my
experience my tips my advice because if you can relate to what he is then maybe
this video will help you out but I really need to talk to a therapist I
need I need someone who's got the education and and the know-how to kind
of put me on the right corrective course and destructive course
so what here he talks about how you should see a therapist and he references
exposed video where he talked about it so I went to his exposed video from two
months ago I don't know if that's when he was referencing because I didn't see
him talk about therapy but he talked about two different questions he talked
about depression we also talked about his relationship with his mother too so
two counts is like a lot of us we've had a lot of stuff go on in our lives and
until we process those things in a healthy way like I'm letting you all
know right now the stuff from your childhood is still with you until I
understood how the brain works I understood neuroscience like if we
don't deal with that stuff we don't deal with our abandonment issues we don't
deal with our trust issues if we don't deal with our our fear of like failing
and all these things from our childhood we are going to be a victim of those
same problems as an adult so one of the things that I just want to talk about
first and foremost and there's gonna be a theme throughout the video it's like I
don't understand why we joke about like getting therapy like it's just as like
passing like fleeting thing that we say like oh yeah I should want to go to
therapy right like to ks actually talked about how he needs somebody who's
educated in mental health to help guide him on the right path like he knows he
needs it like something that's been coming up and one of you was Ben we're
binge watching my channel have a really old video called common sense verse
common action and a lot of us have common sense but we don't have common
action for example common sense is that I should quit smoking that's common
sense but am I taking action no I'm not like
that's something I'm dealing with right now but I see that a lot with mental
health help right common sense is actually common sense
support-group common sense is I should do a B and C all these other things but
what action are you gonna take and I say this because you know for me when I was
really down and struggling with my mental health we're talking about
alcohol and drug addiction we're talking about be suicidal we're talking just
about terrible relationships all sorts of stuff I remember like joking with my
friends while getting messed up and saying like oh we should go you know to
like therapy or go to a 12-step program
six years ago I almost died like we need to take these actionable steps and do
something to go get help alright and this is something like I
love about so many of you watching my channel like I've done some videos like
in the past few days so I've got a little bit tougher on all of you and so
many of you said like Chris and go do something makes me so happy
so if you haven't done something yet today like do something do something
even if it's just researching getting help do something take one small step
towards getting help I think I think really YouTube needs to come with a free
slice ins to to a therapist a hashtag what's that website that everyone was
upset about anyway just because there's so much volatility with this job oh my
god this is interesting because I actually heard other youtubers say this
I'll keep this short winded but people say like YouTube should come with a
therapist right therapist so many people are struggling with mental health it's
like no YouTube shouldn't come with a therapist like that's all year like
here's the problem and here's one of the reasons why I teach my son the
importance of his mental health is because the schools aren't doing this
this is a school problem this is an educational problem right like no matter
how many math equations you know or how many rings on Saturn there are that you
memorize or if you memorize a president or no physics like this doesn't help our
mental and emotional well-being I schools that have implemented meditation
way more success rates than like anybody else and it's because their students
have more regulation over their emotions right so like this isn't a YouTube
problem it's because we've been trained from a young age stuff is going to make
us happy and this is something that chilcats might be dealing with notice
how I said might for all of you who are gonna freak out I mean anyways he might
be struggling with this because we always think that something is going to
make us happy for a lot of youtubers is the views or
the subscribers or the dollars whatever it is so chill can tell us about how he
was going crazy and over analyzing his analytics and yes yes like I'm obsessive
- I can do that I consider my analytics all day long
I'm telling you all right now if any of yours planning on starting a youtube
channel or any kind of social media thing my channel did not start growing
until I stopped caring right until I stopped caring but here's my other tip
for chill chaos as well as all of you gratitude gratitude gratitude gratitude
gratitude gratitude gratitude right like as somebody who just hit 20,000
subscribers I'm like yes this is amazing and then I see something like chill
chaos like throughout the video he's talking about how you know like this
channels not growing he's not getting into many fields the dude has over 1
million subscribers is the size of like a decent sized city you know what I mean
we have to be grateful for what we have and my girlfriend reminds me of this all
the time all the time right keep comparing myself to others and all this
like you see other channels go firewall and everything right and I keep looking
at back and she's like Chris you have 20,000 subscribers and you know what
helps me out to like some of you out there look created YouTube channels like
I subscribe and I check them out and like some of you like have like 20 or 30
subscribers and you are as static I'm like man like that helps bring me back
helps bring me back down and be grateful for what I have
I see how grateful you are we're just one
new person subscribing like yes so like I think what happens without water
youtubers is that the what you know what saving youtubers our bar for contentment
is constantly changing right like think about when you were a kid think about
when you were a kid you remember when you were a kid with like $10 felt like a
million dollars right then you were like a teenager and then like a hundred
dollars felt like a million dollars but now like we're in this place where we
need like tens of thousands or millions of dollars in order to be happy right so
as we change as we get older like we keep moving our own goal line right and
that's one of the issues that we're all struggling with and we need to be
mindful of that and I'm telling you gratitude helps bring that back looking
at others helps keep you humble and be even more grateful for what you have
again this isn't supposed to be like Oh pity me party because I swear to god it
wasn't a pity fuckin comments in the in the channel I can't say that because
that will be monetized a YouTube video if there's a pity comment in the channel
no I am NOT looking for pity or I'm not looking for pity or a cry or chill
that's you can be so good so fun no I'm not looking for that I am just telling
you how I feel and I want you to understand the same way it's funny
because I've talked about some youtubers and manipulation works and stuff but I
don't know from what I've seen from chill chaos he seems like he's
legitimately struggling right now he's not trying to get a pity party or
anything like that but like I tried to tell you all like a million times quit
caring so much what people think like yeah open up to people talk to people
like I'm glad that someone like chill chaos as well as many other youtubers
are opening up about their mental health right anybody says you're trying to just
get a pity party like screw them forget about them and I'm gonna create
something whether by myself with other people and I'm gonna do that because
I've wanted to that for the longest freakin time I'm also gonna learn how to
cook so what he it's about these new things that he
wants to do these new things here's the disclaimer for this okay this stuff
might work it might right but here's my concern and here's my concern with a lot
of you too because it's something that I used to do when we hit this depression
right when we hit this fuck we just start thinking and I might starts going
crazy and it's almost like this format like mania right and we're just like you
know what you know what exercise more I need to cook I need to clean do
something find these new hobbies right and it's like here's my fear with that I
see people who think those things are gonna fix them they just want to try
everything like don't get me wrong but you have to find new passage you have to
find what you love doing like to count some exits in this video
his hobby became his job right and it's a tricky balance because my hobby is
learning about mental health and helping people with their mental health and
that's two but I love it I love it every single day right but my fear is that
he's gonna go out and try to like just chase these things that aren't going to
make them happy but again this is why you speak to a mental health
professional you speak to a mental health professional because here's what
I've seen happening to a lot of people a lot of people like you know what I'm
just started doing yoga five times a week I'm gonna cook I'm gonna go like
read all these self-help books I'm gonna do it like the juice cleanse they do all
this stuff then they're still miserable and then what it does is it increases
our hopelessness and we don't want to try to get better again and I hope that
makes sense so this is why you should work with somebody who has an objective
point of view right so till chaos has a fiance she might not be the best person
outside person and that's what therapists are so great so chill you
talked my ear off what is what is actually changing well one I'm gonna try
and better myself that's the first thing I'm gonna change I'm gonna trying
mentally better myself physically better myself
and that's just me telling you from a content creator to an audience that
doesn't change anything that I'm doing but I'm letting you know that there are
things that are wrong with me that I'm going to try and fix so this is
it reminds me of h3h3 like ethan klein when he was he's talked about this for
months months all year but people are even like accusing him I'm just trying
to get pity but like there's so many people who who just say they say it but
we can say this all day long like one of my favorite sayings is like this old
like I don't know thing that people used to say there's three birds there's three
birds sitting on a wire right one makes a decision to fly the way how many birds
a lot there's still three cuz make a decision doesn't mean jack right so what
is trying to better yourself mean what does that mean for you and this is
different for everybody what does it mean to try to better yourself because
we you think about all this stuff again it's common sense for us combination but
I would recommend speaking with some kind of mental health professional even
if you just tried therapy for a month for a buck I don't care
like check with your insurance company see if there's and boom but see a lot of
youtubers struggle with is their powerlessness over YouTube right you got
no control over what the audience wants what the algorithm is gonna do if
YouTube's gonna you know do monetize you and all these other things and this is
why I love you know people who work on an internal locus of control right so
people the external locus of control think that they have no control over
anything that happens people with an internal locus of control they know that
they have control over things that happen way so like with chill chaos I
would say this through my brief research of them he's not doing he's not doing
everything he can to bring in an income
and like you cannot just depend on YouTube you know like people out there
who are like doing well right they don't depend on YouTube there are people with
far less subscribers than people I killed chaos making a million times more
money because they're diversifying right they're doing speaking engagements
they're writing books you know they're doing all sorts of things that patron
like there's so many things and this is how you take control of what you're
doing but I see so many people on YouTube just you know relying on
you tube for everything like that's just the worst thing you can do when trying
to do YouTube do not rely on YouTube I've only been on the platform for like
a little over a year you know what I mean so I can only imagine these people
who have been trying to rely on it and all these things have been changed I
killed cast over the last 10 years you know what I mean
but anyways I'd love to know your thoughts if any of you have experience
in these things if you can relate to anything chill calluses going through
like let me know in the coments below alright anyways thanks again jasmine for
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