I just realized sitting there that my
healing journey actually started when I
was 12 years old when I overheard my
father talking to my mother and telling
him her that they needed to take me to a
psychiatrist and I was stunned because I
thought I was terrific
you know I didn't think there's anything
wrong with me and I had no idea what
they thought was wrong with me but what
I later learned is that my father was
covering his butt because he had
molested me when I was five and he I was
getting to the age where you know I
might be remembering that stuff I might
be telling somebody so if I could be
crazy he could be innocent and I spent
my whole life trying to figure out what
was wrong with me and when I was in my
20s I started going to therapy I started
with a hypnotherapist and then I went to
primal therapy now that's some seriously
weird I mean I got to tell you and
then I had just years of conventional
talk therapy and I didn't remember what
had happened to me until I was in my
mid-30s and I worked with a fellow who
was a protege of Milton Erickson and he
gave me an ericksonian kind of process
to do that whatever was in my
unconscious it was safe for it to come
out and then I went to Hawaii and I
spent a week in Hawaii on my bed in the
fetal position
saying I feel unsafe somebody's trying
to hurt me when I came home he gave me
another process which was going to tie
it all together and out of that came I
don't know what happened but I think my
father either tried to kill me or rape
me well he did both and I was so happy
to learn this because now I knew what
was wrong with me and I spent the next
umpteen years
in 12-step programs and groups and
incest survivor groups and trying to
figure out how to get through that
because when I got through that then
there wouldn't be anything wrong with me
and I'd be okay and I could have a happy
life however it didn't work out that way
I just spent a lot of time and a really
lot of money and you know I still didn't
know what was wrong with me really and
then I found EFT
well I found Roger first I read his book
and phobia cure and I thought oh this
sounds cool and he was a neighbor of
mine so I I did some work with him for a
while and then I was in a fire and
that's a really not good experience and
I went to Roger and he worked on taking
the trauma out of that experience for me
and he did it with the Callahan
techniques which was the first tapping
technique there was and it's just three
points just I was free of that
experience I then went on and worked
with Gary I live in California
so I've been human potential eyes for
the last 25 years doing you know Tony
Robbins his attorney was a friend of
mine so he did all that and I've done
t-80 lots of EFT and the problem was I
still don't like there was something
wrong with me cuz you know here's my
little secret I'm a loser and and I'm
the guy that always fails
everybody else has great success but not
me because you know I'm a loser
I was the scapegoat in my family and
I've been really good at running that
program I'm smart I've been successful I
worked for the President of the United
States
but I'm a loser so and then one day I
opened my email and there was an email
from this guy Rob
Smith and I thought that's not even a
real name
you know who would call themself Robert
Smith really that's just an internet
name you know and I'd never heard of
faster eft i was pretty familiar with
everybody that was doing EFT and i was
on all their lists and they were selling
you know lots of and i was at the
point where it's just like no no more
i'm just gonna tap on myself i just
trying to sell me stuff really so i
wasn't real interested in this email
except for the fact i wanted to find out
how you make it go faster so i could
answer that question and i ended up
signing up for the newsletter because i
figured maybe the newsletter would
answer the question the first tape that
i watched was 69 i tapped along and I
went oh my god this sucker works cuz all
that other stuff I did you know it
really didn't work I had some fun I met
some nice people couple of cute guys
along the way but it didn't work but one
video with this dude Robert Smith and it
worked and I was just blown away and
then I started reading all the stuff and
I found out there's nothing wrong with
me and that blew my mind
I took me a long time to really accept
in fact it was only pretty much signing
up for this class that I said well I
better let go of that so you know you
just never know what it is in your life
that will change your life I mean for me
it was just an email the universe or God
or whatever you believe in would not let
me let go of faster eft Robert had a
webinar and he has these every once in a
while and if you haven't watched them
they're really good and in that webinar
he said something that was very profound
oh I know everything you say is profound
but what you said was make an investment
in yourself and I went
new concept I have done all these things
I've spent way over $100,000 but it
never ever occurred to me that I was
making an investment in myself probably
because I wasn't you know I was just
trying to find out what was wrong with
me and when I heard those words I had to
come I had to be here but wow I mean I
know my life is changing it's already
changed the fact that I could be in this
room fly on a plane I'm a multiple
chemical sensitivity person it's it's
phenomenal so I just want to say thank
you you never know you know those little
things create miracles in people's lives
so thank you and God bless
thank you all we've been part of my
experience
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