after cleaning up his hoarder lifestyle Garret Watts made a commitment everybody
on YouTube as well as social media he was gonna be back making videos but not
only has he not really been making videos but he hasn't really been present
on social media either so I can actually really really relate to what Garrett's
going through so in this video we're gonna be talking about why I'm worried
about Garrett watts what is up everybody this is Chris fucking rewired so we're
we talked about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my
channel my channel is all about mental health and what I like to do is pull
different topics from the YouTube community try to teach you how to
improve your mental and emotional well-being so if the end of that stuff
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rewind so anyways it was oh this dude this dude I made videos about him and
Shane Dawson and Ryland and Adams and Morgan and Andrew Sawicki like going over and helping
them clean up this hoarder lifestyle and I was so proud of them I made like a
30-minute long video I was so happy so proud of Garrett to be doing this so he
basically said that one of the reasons that he wasn't filming as much was
because of his house is house being dirty and all
and I made a video I don't know around this time he post his last video about
eating his ears pierced now how I was proud of Garrett Watts because he talked
about his small success of you know keeping his house clean even if it was
for a month beautiful beautiful beautiful but we're talking like it's
been like three or four months and Garrett actually commented on my video
because I said I was setting a a calendar date to see if Garret actually
started making videos right and he actually commented and said hey
I'm setting my calendar too but what we've all seen is that Garrett is a
posting any new videos he is on social media either and what I want to do is
kind of explain my thoughts and my experience as to why that is so although
I don't know Garrett I feel like I can relate and what I'm always trying to
teach all of you is to try to relate to what you're watching on YouTube or
what's going on in the community and hopefully I can provide you with some
suggestions and some tips because I used to be a huge people pleaser I still kind
of am but there's a way to turn that into a benefit but we're alternately
talking about in this video the beautiful topic of avoidance and anxiety
and all that stuff so for those of you who don't know I'm a drug addict and
alcoholic and recovery I have about six-and-a-half years clean and alcohol
and drugs you know completely you know took over my life ruined my
relationships you know with friends with family members jobs career money all
that stuff right so the first time I got clean I was able to stay clean for about
three months I went through the 12-step program I thought it was some crazy
religious cult so I didn't pay attention I was like y'all brainwashing me right
and I relapsed a few months later and things got progressively worse so after
that last relapse you know for the next I don't even remember how long it was
for six months to a year things got worse you know I lost a job my kids
mother and I and my son we had to move back to Las Vegas I got a new job she
ended up leaving me because of my addiction my addiction got worse and I
was living with a roommate and my life was just spiraling out of
control and I remember I had a job for maybe a week or two and I got fired
right because I drink a ton the night before I showed up I was late for work
they I mean I remember calling my mom on the
way home just like sobbing just crying right I'm looks like mom I can't live
like this anymore I need help right and my mom you know she was silver as well
and she had been sober for years at this point and she dropped everything that
she was doing came down to Las Vegas just to drive me across town to a detox
center but it's not only was I abusing alcohol but I was also abusing pills so
when it comes to improving our mental health whether it's addiction or mental
health or anything like that a lot of us lack accountability right
and I had the self-awareness to know that I lacked accountability so what I
decided to do was before I went into that detox center like a lot of people
you know knew I like to drink and party and stuff like that but a lot of people
didn't know how bad it was so what I did was I went on Facebook and I posted it I
publicly posted it I say hey everybody I have a problem with drugs and alcohol
I'm going into a detox center right so what I did was I was outed myself
publicly as a way to keep myself accountable because I thought that if I
let the whole world know what I was struggling with and what my goals were
and my intentions were maybe that would help keep me on the right path after I
got out of that detox center so I can relate to Garrett watts and his very you
know public vulnerable videos about his you know hoarder lifestyle and the
reasons why he wasn't making videos and you know trying to get things back on
track you know part of that was for accountability you know what I mean so
everybody knew what his intentions were right so I went into that detox center I
think it was like a four or five day detox and that's a whole nother story
about what I experienced in there that's one of the reasons why I try to teach
you guys not to think you're so unique and stuff because that's actually what
led to my relapse but anyways I stayed sober for a few months against there was
something up with me where I could I can get three months clean and then I would
relapse three months realize three months relapse right but during that
three months life started getting better right
I started killing it at my job I got a raise I got a promotion you know things
were starting to get better between my son's mom and I even though we were
split up at this point things are getting better with my son if you had an
expensive drug habit like me like that's a instant pay raise I had a lot more
money in the bank things were going so so so well right and what ended up
happening was I injured my shoulder and I went to the emergency room and my drug
of choice was prescription painkillers right and I was in the hospital because
I was working out and stuff and I hurt my shoulder it's actually something I
still deal with actually went to the doctor last week but I don't let him
give me pain meds anymore but anyways they prescribed me a bottle of vicodin
and I remember going home and the pain was already gone but I remember going
home without bottle of pills and staring at it at what seemed like an eternity
right and I had you know you know those old cartoons where you had like the
devil and the angel right so like little angel dudes like saying like Chris these
pills you have a problem with them you have a major problem of these pills
don't take them you're not even in pain just throw them away just get rid of
them right I'm like yeah you know you're right but then my addiction my disease
in my head and for you that might be your depression might be your anxiety
might be your trauma whatever it is the other one was like Chris it's just one
pain pill it's only five milligrams what's that gonna do to you right and
this voice my addiction voice is a hell of a lot louder than the good voice
right so I ended up taking that one pain pill and I'm not even kidding you within
within seconds before a pill even has its chance to dissolve and do whatever
it needs to within you like I immediately thought this pill is not
gonna do anything for you and I ended up taking three or four more right next
thing you knew the next morning that entire bottle was gone and I was calling
my drug dealer again and that was my last relapse which lasted about a year
and a half but because I made this thing so public I felt so much guilt I felt so
much shame I felt stupid I felt like I let everybody down I let my son's mom
down I let my son down I like my friends my family down I let myself down how
could I do this again after I made it so public so what happened was was I just
sort of being more secretive about it right I didn't want to tell anybody I
didn't want anybody know because I was so embarrassed all right so when I look
at Garrett wass situation I see how he hasn't been active on
social media you know my concern is is that he made this very public
announcement that he was gonna start making videos again to be more active
and I know he's made appearances in like jeffree star videos Shane Dawson videos
he was just in awhile and Adams video and all of that but he hasn't really
been on Twitter or Instagram as much because when he does he gets a bunch of
comments saying hey when's the next video and all that so I would imagine
like obviously I'm not inside of Garrett's head but I would imagine
there's some guilt some shame some embarrassment the same type that I feel
and here's the thing like real quick sidenote I'm always trying to teach you
guys to look for the similarities rather than differences like Garrett his thing
is like making YouTube videos my thing was addiction but I can still relate to
him okay like so many of us are going through the same things but we think
like oh my situation is different I can't relate to you so I'm trying to
train all of you to learn how to find the similarities even if somebody's
problem seems completely different so what's the solution what's the solution
that I found alright so anyways you know that year-and-a-half one relapse that
almost killed me six and a half years ago I had a 10% chance of living i
congestive heart failure good news just went to the doctor to go over my
echocardiogram results she said she's like surprised she's like wow your heart
is doing amazing it's not perfect so she gave me some medications I just started
going back to the gym again I've been vegetarian for over a year so don't you
worry about me baby girl I'm doing good anyways after that relapse when I got
sober this time I knew something had to change so for me for me in the realm of
addiction recovery there was a couple foods that I did one of them was that I
got a service commitment right I got a commitment and a meeting where I had to
show up every single week and open up the meeting I had keys to a place which
is crazy like you're gonna give a drug addict alcoholic keys to this place like
I might be crazy right but I also like had to bring all the stuff to the
meeting and all this and I'd even have a car so every week I was taking like a
thirty minute bus ride with this crate full of stuff with like coffee and
literature and all that but I had to do it I think what helped me out with that
accountability was knowing that other relied on me but like people couldn't
attend that meeting if I didn't show up so that helped me even more with
accountability knowing that other people were relying on me so in the context of
like Garrett Watts and YouTube or even you watching this like with work right
like think about think about the days you wake up for work and you just don't
want to go right I'm gonna call and I'm so sick I can't make it in don't think
about the employer in that situation think about your coworkers think about
the other people who would have to take over your task and do those things like
do it for them alright like this is something that
helped train me and and quit thinking about myself so much those of you who
have been subscribed for a while you know how I talk about the default
Network the posterior cingulate cortex our default is to be selfish and
self-centred so what helps me with more
accountability is to think about other people's like why do I make so many
videos why do I make so many videos cuz it's not about me when I put out content
is for you so that was one of the things the other thing is I knew I was a people
pleaser and I hated letting people down so I turned that into a strength so I
started working with a sponsor for those of you who don't know what that is it's
kind of like a recovery mentor all right I suggest that you find a mentor whether
you're dealing with you know any form of mental illness whether it's borderline
personality disorder depression anxiety bipolar disorder PTSD whatever it is
find somebody who's been working on themselves for years now and have them
be a mentor for you talk to them about your struggles their your pitfalls like
the best thing we can ever do is find somebody who's overcome the obstacle
that we're working on right now and learn from them and walk in their
footsteps right but anyways this guy gave me homework and things like writing
assignments and you know I had to meet up with him and I had to call him once a
day and all these other things and on all the days when I didn't want to do
that like since I'm a people-pleaser I didn't want to let this guy down I
didn't want to let him down I let so many people down in my life I was like I
just don't want to let this one dude down and in reality like my sponsor was
dope and like you didn't care he was you know it was a good sponsor but in my
brain I didn't want to let this guy down well
and that helped push me forward right so again I was getting out of myself and
thinking about other people so you know in Garrett's situation a lot of it like
Garrett brings smiles and joy there's so many people if you're watching this
video you're probably a Garrett wants fan like I love that dude and like I
wish that Garrett Watts knew like if he just like started vlogging like once a
week and just recorded his silly life and just talked to the camera
people would absolutely love it absolutely love it
I know Garrett you know loves to edit and do all sorts of stuff with his
videos and this production value is great but if Garrett was my friend I'd
be talking to my dude baby steps just so with this I knew you liked the high
production value and all this but I just talked to the camera so if I were
Garrett's friend or if I was you know talking to him what I would say is like
think about the joy you bring to other people just by posting right and what it
does again is it helps us get out of here and it helps other people so how
does this relate to you so for example I sent an email out on my email list last
week I think and it was like just listen right if you if you're the face of a
group on the discord server or if you're afraid to go in there just sit back and
listen but what I want you to think about is to is to understand that
sharing your experience and sharing your story can help other people why like
look at Ely mation I look like what illy Mason did with her seriously
her sharing that story has helped so so many young women and young men out there
right so we have to stop thinking about ourselves so much of what we don't want
to do right we in order to get out of that we need to think about how it
benefits others okay but anyways I hope you know I hope Garrett Watts is doing
all right I hope he starts making content again and all of that and I hope
me sharing a little bit of my experience can help you understand what you might
be going through when it comes to avoidance when it comes to
procrastinating when it comes to accountability and all that stuff if you
need some accountability make sure you join the rewired soul you know Facebook
group and or the discord servers are always linked down in the description
below all right well let me know down in the comments can you relate to this can
you relate to you know making a public announcement
then you know the feeling of letting people down that you start avoiding it
altogether let's have the conversation down in the comments below alright
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