Hello everybody it is me ChaseyPoo today I have like, like a really fun video
I feel like a lot of my videos lately have been like kind of serious
But I'm super excited to kind of talk to you about what happened this weekend
So this weekend was my 10-year high school reunion and
class of '08!!!
What we never did that,
I don't think we did that and I just kind of want to talk to you about my experience because I was super nervous
But I've also been looking forward to this since the day we graduated and shout out to Jackson Burt,
who literally made a video like talking about his ten year reunion that happened like two weeks ago or something
So we both have a video on this so make sure to check that out
also, I'll put the link in the description below
so I just kind of want to talk to you about my experience because
When I tell you that I've been looking forward to this since the day I graduated. I'm not even joking
I've been saying I can't wait till our 10-year high school reunion and the
Reason the reason, the reason the reason why is because I knew that I would be able to transition
Okay, when I was in high school, and I realized I was trans when I was 15
I didn't think you can transition
I didn't think that you would be able to I didn't I didn't have any role models that were teenagers that were
transitioning was either Jaz who was 4 years old or people who were like much older in their 20's,
which for me when I was like 15 was very old, ok. So I was in a spot where
I didn't even know it was like literally
possible to be able to transition. So what I ended up doing is kind of repress and you know
We all know this story, you know
you don't tell anybody and then you say I'm not trans and it just comes back and it just goes away and comes back because
It never actually went away. So that pattern happened forever
but I finally accepted it and I knew that I wouldn't be able to do anything in high school because
One I didn't know you could and two because I didn't want to deal with high school kids because high school kids suck!
You know what I'm saying? Like this is like 2006,
2007, 2008 like no thanks. So I kind of suppressed it as much as I could and the second we graduated
I knew that my life was about to start and I knew that in 10 years
I would finally be the person that I was supposed to be this entire time, and I know that sounds corny
it sounds like I'm joking, but I'm really not like I,
I knew that one day
I would be able to be happy and not that I wasn't happy in high school because high school wasn't that bad for me
I was the only out lesbian though and I will say that after we graduated like six people came out and I was like really
you left me alone for three years! Still not over it just saying. I didn't really get that much
hate honestly, but it was more hate towards myself from me
so it was really a lot of internalized stuff that I was dealing with
but I knew that eventually I would be happy and people would see that I was happy. Because before my graduating year like I
didn't even think I was gonna graduate a high school and I think that once I knew that it was a possibility that I would
Be able to transition one day that made me feel like I have a future and I can do things
So in the end I
got super excited because I was graduating high school and I got super excited because I knew that in ten years
I would see all of these people again and I would look completely different.
But I would also be super happy and I'm so glad that that happened honestly because it did it. That's what happened
I've been looking forward to this moment for 10 years and it happened. I was invited to the reunion
I was super excited. I was nervous and then the day came and to be honest
I like almost forgot about it the day before I was like, oh, yeah, I think my high school reunion is tomorrow and
I put my clothes on and you know what? I wanted to look good
so I put on a suit, you know
why? because I wanted to look good and I feel so good when I wear that suit I put that on and I went
And I was nervous and I felt like maybe I shouldn't go 'cuz I was going alone because some of my friends weren't able to
make it like the ones that I still hang out with and still talk to and stuff like that.
So I was really nervous going in there by myself
But the second I walked in it just felt so weird
It felt like no time had passed at all
But so much time had passed and the thing is that I'm trans, right? I changed my facebook when I
graduated high school. I was like, nope. I changed Facebooks but a bunch of people from high school had added me to that Facebook
I'm like, who knows? How do they know who told who you know who told who that I'm trans?
so I feel like a bunch of people already knew that I was transitioning but it was it was like, um
It was a moment for me that I was I was nervous and I'm gonna be completely
Honest with you cuz this is who I am
I was looking forward to any inappropriate
Comments because you just kind of have to expect them sometimes so it's not that like I'm gonna get inappropriate comments
I know it. No, it wasn't like that. It was I'm ready if I do.
Okay, because if I do guess what's gonna happen, I'm gonna make a video about it
But I'm very happy to say that nothing bad happened and I wanted to make this video because I had such a positive experience
and I talked about this on Twitter and someone said like this makes me want to graduate high school and makes me want to like
go to my reunion and I understand that some people they can't be in that position and they didn't you know, they
transitioned and they didn't have a good time in high school and they didn't want to do they don't want to deal with people and
That's fine
but for me as it was really important to kind of take that step and I know it I know it sounds corny and in
Those 10 years, of course, I doubted myself
Like maybe I shouldn't go to my high school reunion because I look so
Different and I don't want to get misgendered and mis named and I kind of decided that it's worth it,
It's worth it because I'm happy and I feel like I was a happy kid in high school, too
But it just like this is my life now
You know and I kind of like being the the trans person that people know because I'm okay being out. I'm not stealth
I'm okay to be like a trans 101 person
So it makes me feel good to know that a bunch of people from my high school
If they didn't know definitely now know and if ever they have a trans person in their life
At least they know that there is me that I could help them with something and I have videos. I don't know
anyways
it was amazing to kind of rekindle friendships with people that I went to elementary school with like that was so, it
was so fun and like talk about their lives and talk about my life and people were like oh, what do you do?
I'm like, I'm a full-time youtuber and they did not believe me
However, I will say that I was a trivia question .There was trivia on
like um the graduates so like,
who works on the Disney cruises? And like who does this? Who does that? And then I was question number three and it said who
Is a full-time youtuber? And I saw that and I almost cried
I was like, that is so fucking cool!!! My whole life
all I've ever wanted is someone to look up to and someone to be able to say oh my god
I want to be you when I'm older. I didn't have that
so I had to become that and
it just, I feel like I've come so far from the person who didn't want to go and
finish high school, like I wanted to drop out. To a person who now has their master's degree in sociology
which is up there by the way, and I am
Doing what I love I'm
I'm able to like
be that person that people need and I'm also able to just be myself and like make funny videos and talk about
wieners and whatever so all this to say that I had a really great time and I'm not
Urging you or telling you that you need to go to your highschool reunion at all
I just kind of wanted to talk to you about my experience
because
It was something I was looking forward to for ten years and I even told people that, like I got a message the night before
from one of the people that I've actually been friends with since elementary school like she was my best friend and
She emailed me and she said do you want your picture beside your name on the name tag?
And I said, yes because I knew that she was gonna change my name to Chase Ross obviously not gonna put my birth name
I wouldn't have gone
but she put my high school graduate photo which
Huntys! Look at that!
Look at that! High school was a weird time for a lot of people and I will tell you that a lot of
people said that. Okay, when I was at the reunion
They were like looking at their picture like "I don't even look the same"
Like "I was just going through some phases" and then I go down, and I look at my picture
I'm like "same" and everyone was laughing. It just felt so good
I felt like I repressed a lot of high school because I knew I was trans and I knew that I couldn't do anything about
it so a lot of the memories that I have are negative, but going to my high school reunion kind of
reminded me that there were some really cool people and
people are super accepting and
I feel very blessed and very privileged to be able to share that space with people and I just you know
Of course
I got some shit when I was in high school and that's what I feel like I've been focusing on for like ten years and
It's like no, I'm gonna go because I want to change that image
I want people to see me for who I am and I'm better and stuff like that.
Not, like I'm better than them
But I'm better than who I was before. But when I got there everything changed it wasn't like that at all.
It was more like oh my god
I actually had really great memories in high school and I can't wait till the 20-year reunion honestly
I can't wait to see everybody again and to know where their lives are going and sometimes it's just ridiculous to see these people
they're 27 years old. I'm looking at them and I'm like, I've known you since we were six like that's almost my entire life!
So it was just a really nice night and
something I looked forward to and honestly, I feel like I've
reconnected with some people from high school to the point where we might actually hang out outside of these reunions because our next
because our next reunion is like in 10 years. So
Everyone's gonna look a little bit different. Oh my god. So many people have kids and so many people are married
It's just like, you know
You don't realize you're getting old until the people in your friend group
and the people you went to high school with start having kids and and and are married and
buy houses. Like you bought a house!? You could afford a house?! You're 27 years old!?
That's amazing! Anyway,
so
not that I'm comparing my life to theirs and I was scared that I was gonna do that, if I'm completely honest, I was like
Oh, no, I feel like people are very successful and I'm gonna be comparing myself because like I'm not married, I don't have kids,
I don't own a house, I live in an apartment still downtown
You know, I just graduated. But talking to people
I feel like a lot of people were a bit hesitant to tell me what they were doing
with their life because some people were just doing like, tech support and that's what they would say
"I just do tech support." But you know if it's something that you love then that's amazing, you know what I'm saying?
and if it's not then I really hope that they do find the career that they,
that they're looking for but it was just like, it was just a very interesting position to be in. Honestly, a lot of people
are in university right now and that's interesting because we're like a lot older
So some people like didn't go before and then decided to go so
I don't know why I'm telling you this whole story
I think I'm just like really happy and it just felt really good to be around people and to kind of like, I
don't know embrace myself. I did hear my birth name like three times
I think it was like somebody was saying my name as a joke,
because of the trivia question. They didn't say it out loud, but like I heard it and was like,
"Oh
I imagine if they say, (that name)" or something like that. And then someone else, an old friend of mine said
my old name and I was like that's a little bit weird that she said it but
It was in a joke way cuz we used to work together also after high school
So it was just, it was a story. So I tell you I was not misgendered once
however, I was
Birthnamed like three times. But you know, it's, it's fine. I'm, I'm I
just think of the positives and I, not
thought that I felt like everyone was going to reject me because I'm trans, but I didn't feel like I was going to be so
accepted with open arms. And people were very, very excited, people
I went to elementary school with were very excited to see me and to hang out
were very happy that I went. And I'm really glad that I did and I'm really, really, really, really hoping that if you've ever
Gone to your high school reunion and you had a good experience
I'd love for you to share that because that would be so awesome
And if you had a negative experience, I'm so sorry. Not everyone has a great high school experience
I focus on the negative for 10 years and then I realized there was some positive out there. Whoops
Yeah, I'm gonna, I'm gonna go because I think Beauty is hungry, but I just wanted to tell you this story.
I hope you enjoyed it and I hope you have a great great week and
I'll see you later. And of course, I'll make a video when it's the 20 year reunion, hello! Bye!