-(Rebecca chuckles) -We have to stop
meeting under such dramatic circumstances.
-Yes. Yes, we do. -(laughs)
Uh, this is Anne. This is my wife.
-Oh, hi. -Hi. -We just wanted to come pay our respects.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Nathan's told me all about your husband.
How he used to come by the hospital for advice
every so often those first few years
-when your kids were young. -What?
I kept trying to tell him, "I don't know how to raise 'em,
I just know how to deliver 'em," but he wouldn't stop coming.
He'd gotten it into his head I was wise.
I think it's your voice.
-Oh. Oh. -It's very soothing.
-And your... lemon metaphors. -(chuckles)
-The mustache helps, too. -(laughs)
Adds a certain gravitas.
Mm, it does.
ANNE: Well,
-I'm gonna give you two a moment. -Thank you, darlin'.
It was so good to meet you, Rebecca.
Nice to meet you. (sniffles)
I hate this thing.
She's the one makes me use it.
Says it's 'cause she loves me.
-(scoffs) -Hmm.
I like her. (sniffling)
Yeah, yeah. Me, too.
Me, too.
Yup.
So, what are you doing out here?
(Rebecca sighs)
(quietly): I wasn't there when he died.
I wasn't there.
I... have been following his urn around all day
because I wasn't there,
and I want to make up for it.
Rebecca...
I can't do this without him.
(sniffles) I just, I can't.
He knew how to do all of this.
He was... fearless.
I'm not fearless. I'm not.
(quietly): Uh, yeah.
Rebecca, um...
I would never presume
to know more about your husband than you, hmm?
But, um...
the man I knew, the one
that used to drop by my office unannounced from time to time--
now he had, uh, he had a whole lot of fears.
He did?
(laughs): Oh.
A new father is the most fearful creature alive,
and he was no exception. (chuckles)
No.
Fears about his wife and about his children.
About being able to keep them happy and healthy, safe.
But he did a pretty good job taking care of his family,
-now, didn't he? -Yeah.
Yeah.
-And so will you. -Oh.
I can't, not without him.
-Now, hold on. Hold on, now. -(sighs)
You are the same woman who lost a child
and rolled out of my hospital with three babies just the same.
You're as tough as they come, Rebecca Pearson.
-Not without him. -Bullcrap.
Not without him!
Bullcrap.
-Rebecca? -(sniffles)
-Rebecca. -I know.
I know. I know. (sniffles)
Take the sourest lemons
and make something resembling lemonade, right?
You didn't just make something resembling lemonade, dear.
You made one of the sweetest damn pitchers of lemonade
-I ever saw. -(sobs)
So don't you try and sell me
-on what you can't do, -(sniffles)
because I'm too old, I'm too smart,
and I'm not buying it.
Now, I would like to punctuate my inspiring speech
by standing up, winking at you, and then walking away.
But I'm old, and all that would take at least six minutes.
(laughs)
(sighing)
Can I just sit here with you for a little bit?
(groans softly)
(sniffles, sighs)
DR. K: Sitting is what I'm best at these days.