(Jesse) You know, I've stood up to him.
And it seems like everytime I do, I lose. Or I lose a part of myself. Or I lose something that I love to do.
(Jesse) You taught me how to play video games!
(Jeffrey Sr.) I taught you and your brother how to play, but that's a long time ago.
(Jesse) Like..
I could play a game... careless.
Enjoying my time with my friends, but nowadays...
You've gotta grow up, right?
I like to think I am.
(Jeffrey Sr.) You don't act right, you're not part of the family!
(Jesse) I think that's maybe still one of those things that I convince myself that I'm grown up, but I...
I don't feel it.
Because every grown up that I've ever seen isn't happy. Or they're married to someone they don't actually love...
-- or they're doing a job that they don't actually enjoy.
And then they think back. To their childhood.
(Dr. Nelson) Tell me of a time when you guys had a great relationship.
(Jesse) Back when we were real little.. when our dad...
Dad taught us both how to play the Super Nintendo.
(Jeffrey) Then actually regular Nintendo before that.
Mario, Donkey Kong, Allstar Baseball, Track Game...
(Jesse) My childhood, I don't want to let go of.
I don't want to give up these things that I love so much, just because I have somebody in my life that didn't get it.
(Jeffrey Sr.) -- but you've gotta come out of your room 'once in a while!
Life's passing you by!
It's camera, your room, playing games.
You've just gotta get out and get a job, Jess.
You stay in here all the time!
Life,-- Life passes us by when you sit there and play. You've gotta get out! You've gotta work! You've gotta make a living!
(Jesse) Things got.. a little dark...
(JESSE WAILING)
--a 'lotta dark...
I lost myself for a bit...
I've come to terms with who I am.
And I.. am not a good person.
less so my little brother jesse is
playing xbox on my dad's TV and this is
like one of those things like nobody's
allowed to touch TV is a scratch for a
little part i was made a fucking
laughing stock in front of all my
friends and carry on youtube you you
don't like that would be Gary I believe
that you believe you're gay it's an
online job
everything's going digital I'm gonna be
on YouTube and twitch and you're gonna
see that you do give me
thank you seriously though for once I'm
going down
welcome back up what you got I got this
is where we're at right now and I hope
you're watching Jesse uncle Larry owe me
you have never once been a big brother
error
I mean that fucking half the time it's
because I'm not it's always a fight of
some kind
it always turns is what no matter what
maybe we can work together and i would
like to i would like to move forward but
if you're not communicating you're not
helping us out here we're not doing
everything i just want to have a fucking
normal brother
don't you fucking now I swear to god I'm
gonna be the shit that if not fucking
done
Thompson fucking do it you fucking
psycho
no way to handle shit it's been what is
that I'm with you I'm going to destroy
the fucking room doing have all the subs
it wasn't for me it's me Jesse me back
at my face here but when you ever
actually trying to help me fucking make
it's not my life to live
it's my dad's I'm very much my father I
just need to listen everybody else in my
life do what they want and then things
will be good
I don't matter what I want I'm not a
person I don't matter opinions don't
matter i'm a little piece of shit just
those hey videos fuckin plays video
games and that's all that's all life is
for me such a bad life you have a great
life
yeah what mom and I used to LA what
happened miss my mom wha you know I felt
helpless
I felt hey we doing after white really
isolated I want you to get a job but
she's not fucking video games i want a
normal family I want things to go back
to how they were
I want to do videos i want to go back to
Game I want to go back to what my life
was before I decided to take this or
wait before it was decided for me
Eagles Landing we're going to take point
I think you're gonna be your fucking
father
a little nothing like you acting like
him more and more every day I am a site
go your dad and stuff it's really bad
your brother's know this shit that's
very good you're the only way to stop
like doing Adam if you remind them what
you're talking to your girl tell you to
do what you love to do
how many times you try to get away
why don't you learn why start now i'm 23
years old dude and then I i'm back his i
am back to be on his slave not that
great force me to do a job that I don't
want to do destroy something that I love
take my 30 grand this Oregon over again
they're you know like i don't i don't
know anymore i don't know what I
two things we just working out why
doesn't matter
he was in the Box signal
like around 1.2
apparently I'm sure
I don't feel like it
fucking Morgan
I just want things to go back to let you
work
and then everything will be happy
everything to be good to go back to the
way 143
right
machine universal nobody at my back
except from Larry
me
sounds great but there's some little
strength on my mother coming
you
we drink beer on the board
taken away every single shot at
happiness
so you said something
and they say it's your room where you
don't stop where you said something to a
teacher and they make you feel like crap
you have
and then everybody
no fucking way
then
thank you so much
come on get around
blog
sometimes it just feels like things
being down and you
they ever thought about going
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part order helping the road
that that that would be great and I'm
I'm not crazy i don't want to do this
anymore
do something like this
when you told me that your dad was out
by the pool
I hate that become this shit
it was simple and I was happy
and everybody else knows me better than
I don't me ability within father wish
you wouldn't matter should never shipped
to the video games
but what it made you I don't know what's
gonna have to add to this there's a good
chance I may never see you
this is like a lot that could go wrong
with this careful on the money and
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