Hey everyone!
How's it going?
I hope your all doing well on this lovely day.
As you've no doubt surmised by the title of the video:
I have to go away for a few days.
Ehm, there's lots of different reasons.
Ehm, I'm heading to L.A.
I said a while ago that I was going to be heading to L.A.
for an extended period of time, sometime this year.
And that's happening...
..actually by the time you're watching this video, I'll already be in the air, flying there.
Umm...actually I'll be there by the time your watching this video.
Umm...and I'm going there to do a lot of different things,
I've been wanting to go there for a long time.
I've been trying to go to L.A for a while.
Ehm...because every time I go there; I go for like a week,
and a bunch of people who are there, want to do different things together
and I just never had the time.
So I wanted to go for an extended period of time, so I'm going for two months.
Umm, I will be uploading videos while I'm there, don't worry.
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That's not the amount of time that I'm gonna be gone from the channel.
I'm not gonna stop making videos for two months.
But I do need some time off, to prep to go there.
I could've gotten videos done...
..ready for when I'm going,
but there's just a lot of stuff going on in the background right now.
There's a lot of stuff in my life that's changing,
There's a lot of stuff in my life that's kinda...
..getting to me, and weighing me down.
And in the last couple of weeks, I just...
..haven't been happy...
..in general.
I haven't been in my top, best form,
and I...
There's a lot of things going on, that are kind of stressing me out.
and there's a lot of changes happening.
and there's a lot of things I want to just get done, and I want to focus on, and...
In the middle of all this: making my videos...
I... I just haven't been making the best content,
I haven't been making videos that I'm happy with.
There's some games that I just...
Sometimes I sit down and have no idea what to play,
I end up finding games that are just...
..they're fine, they're decent, they're not bad videos,
but they're just not, they're not at the top...
..tier of what I want them to be.
They're not at the max energy that I want them to be, I'm not as happy doing them.
I'm just kinda doing them for the sake of doing them.
And I thought: you know what, I can get a bunch of videos done and ready.
I do have a set up, being prepared for me, when I go to L.A.
And I'll still be able to record videos, and everything there.
But, that's not going to be ready for a few days, until after I get there.
I thought that I could record videos, and pad them out and everything but:
What's the point of recording videos that I'm not happy with?
I'm not just going to pump out videos for the sake of pumping them out, really.
Ehm... I don't want to run my channel that way.
You're not getting content that's decent,
and I hate having to do this;
This year alone I've had to take more time off
than I have in the entirety of doing YouTube.
And I've always been someone who's prided myself on...not missing a day.
And I've always said that: 'I upload every single day',
and I haven't I haven't missed an upload, in all the time I've been doing YouTube, and until...
... like the end of last year; that was true.
I had never ever missed a day's upload, in five years.
Four... well four years.
It was five years at the start of this year.
Like, my upload schedule has been pretty damn spot on,
and pretty frickin' consistent,
far beyond many other channels on Youtube.
And I'm very, very happy with that, but at the same time...
..so much stuff going on this year,
I said I was gonna...make this the year of PMA,
and trying to make myself get into a better mindset,
after having a crappy last year.
Hasn't always been smooth sailing, hasn't always been the easiest thing to do,
coming back from tours, and trying to get back into the swing of things,
has been really hard to do.
And until you actually go out, and do those types of things,
coming back; everything feels a lot different.
Cause you're so busy on tour; you're doing something every single day.
And you're doing shows in front of all these people, who come out to see you.
And then when you come home, everything feels a lot different, you're doing...
videos, just sitting in your room again,
while it does feel like a lot of people are out there watching,
even now, recording this vlog,
it's just... it's not really the same thing.
Umm...
So trying to overcome those hurdles and trying to get my mind back in order, and everything,
It's... It's just hard to do and...
Just kinda...when I'm here in this house, each and every day,
There's times when I don't even leave my house.
I've like, for the last two weeks: I don't think I've left my house...
..at all, to go do anything.
maybe to like go to the movies once, or something like that...
but I just don't go outside day-to-day, I'm inside all the time.
And I don't really like doing that.
It gets to you after a while,
doing the same videos over, and over, again,
kinda weighs you down so:
My mental health has not been in the best place recently.
So the reason I've been taking more time off, is because I need to.
I need to take the time off to get my brain back in order,
to just get that energy and that motivation back, to record the videos.
And as I said:
I could've...forced myself through it,
to try to make videos for when I'm gone.
But...its not worth it.
Its dishonest to me, its dishonest to you.
I'm not uploading stuff I'm happy with,
therefore its not something that i feel like: is worth your time.
And... as I said:
I don't really want to upload something for the sake of uploading it.
So I'm gonna have to take a few days off; it's not that long.
I'm making it sound like a bigger deal then it is.
I'm just trying to explain where my brain is at, and what's going on, but:
This is something that I've wanted to do for a long time,
and because its not something...
I'm not going for like, a week, and figuring out all of that, then and there,
I'm going for like, two months. So I'm basically going to live there, for a little bit,
and testing that out, seeing what its like.
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The main reason I want to go there, is to just... ..do stuff with other people:
There's so many times where I wanna do projects with other people.
Do cooler projects for THIS channel.
Umm...but I need more people involved, to be able to do it, but I can't do that from here.
And: so many of my friends live in L.A.
So many of the people who I want to record stuff with,
so many, like, cool people that I highly respect,
and really want to meet in person, are all there.
And you'll likely see that as I... ..do things while I'm there.
Uhh...I don't want to say anything now, in case they don't come to fruition,
and I'm just... ..putting out false promises.
But, there's a lot of people out there in L.A. that I want to meet up with,
there's a lot of stuff, that I wanna do for myself:
Like: acting lessons, voice acting lessons, voice lessons in general,
those kinds of things, that I could do here, but...
..I don't know, I've always kind of wanted to go to L.A, to try it out, and see what it's like over there.
And as I said; just so many of my friends are over there, and I want to hang out with them, day-to-day.
and do stuff with them, outside of Youtube: just in general.
I wanna go out and hang out, and go to a movie with people,
go to the beach and hang out, and just chat...
..go to dinner, go...
play bowling or something.
Anything like that, I just miss my friends a lot,
and a lot of them are over there. So I wanna do that,
I wanna record some stuff with them in person,
rather than having to do it over Discord all the time, so...
a lot of factors in it
I kinda need a boost in myself, to get back on that horse, to...get that motivation back.
and that's kind why I said in that refunked video...yesterday;
I was talking about the PMA stuff:
I was saying that Positive Mental Attitude (PMA) isn't just about;
forcing yourself to be happy,
and trying your best, to try and be happy all the time.
Because that's ridiculous, no one is ever that happy, all the time
not even me;
the person who's, like, super energetic,
and I'm positive... 99% of the time.
Most of the time, when I'm going around my life:
I'm happy, I'm bubbly, I'm energetic, and I'm just trying to see the best in everything.
Umm, but sometimes:
not even I can do that 100% of the time so...
..things get to you, things bring you down
and some stuff has to change, to kinda perk you back up.
so...
I'm trying to find that, I'm trying to go out there, and find stuff to motivate myself again
cause also, doing YouTube after this long
and doing letsplays this long, it can get very...
mundane, and it can kinda
rest on my laurels
or my yannys
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and just sit back and do it day to day and kinda just let it all...
Just get complacent with it, and I don't wanna do that, I wanna challenge myself again.
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I wanna get back get back to a state where I find that passion, that fire to really
try my best to do other things and I've seen other YouTubers having like renaissance on their channels recently
I wanna find that... I wanna find that energy again.
so I'm excited for that, its gonna be a good thing for the channel, I think, but I just need to take...
a few days off when I get there and while I get settled in and before, like, a PC is set up cause Origin PC has been nice enough to...
get a PC for me, and I talk about that in a video where I see the set up and everything but...
That won't be ready for a few days.
I wanna take the time to make sure I'm going into this in the right mental space instead of going into it super stressed out
and theres a bunch of other stuff in the background that Im trying to deal with as well
but sadly I can't talk about because of legalities and everything
(Jack, what did you do this time?)
but, just stuff that I'm trying to overcome thats just been kinda weighing on me as well and I...
just not being able to talk about these things is a hard thing to go through as well, cause you know how honest and transparent I try to be
but sometimes theres stuff that you can't talk about
So thats been kind of weighing on me as well
so I just need a little bit of time, a little bit of time to find that energy and motivation again and I'll be back...
stronger then ever
I'm not quitting YouTube..
I dont hate YouTube, I love doing YouTube, and thats the reason, because..
if you do it often enough and you force yourself through it
thats when you'll end up resenting it. Thats when you'll burn yourself out and I don't want to burn myself out
I love doing YouTube, I love this community, i love what we've created here, and I want to go through in the future stronger than ever rather then resenting it and taking it out on different things in my life cause thats not healthy.
But anyway, thats all I wanted to say In this video
go take a break for yourselves, anytime you spend watching my videos in the day..
go watch somebody else that day, go outside, go take some time for yourself
breathe, relax, take care of your own mental health.
every now and then, go watch some of the older series if you want to
also we still have stuff coming up
at the end of this month, i still have to do the just for laughs festival
any of you who don't know about it this is good chance to talk about that as well,
Ill be doing the JFL comedy festival in Montreal on July 26.
theres tickets on Jacksepticeyetour.com, you can go and get for that.
I think thats its gonna be an outrageously fun show to do
cause thats such a... such a cool experience to do
and we're also doing the shows in L.A starting July 23..
The next leg of the tour is starting there in the west coast of America
so all the details will be on JSE tour and that was anoth reason to go to L.A
cause, you know... I'm like... I'm gonna be there at the end of the year anyway to do the show so why not go there.
meet a bunch of people, do a bunch of projects, do a bunch of fun collabs with people..
and... I'm really excited for a lot of them btw... theres one that I have to do...
I don't HAVE to do, I GET to do with Bryan Dechart, the guy who plays Connor in Detroit, I talked to him a little while ago.
We're planning that, I kinda want to do a bigger charity livestream.
either this month or next month when I'm there to try to do it with people in person since they'll all be there this time
So, a bunch of stuff like that I wanna do, Its really really exciting times and I think its worth...
I think anybody who does anything creative, its worth taking some of the time off to get yourself in the right order, to tackle these big projects
in a much more positive manner.
and not to burn yourself out on it so you halfass these projects. so i really wan to do these projects really really well and I'm super excited for them and I can't wait for you guys to see what...
I have planned, so...
all of that stuff will come to fruition in the next two months
but its gonna be fun
Anyway... Thank you guys for watching this video, I will see you.
whenever I see you
I'll probably still be on social media and stuff and updating as I
go around and travel an that kind of stuff cause travelling is boring
I don't like it, anyway, see ya later! (Thanks for watching BYE!)