i wonder like i wonder if part of it looks like to a certain type of um like guy that wants a
transition do they think like life would be easier as a woman or do they or do you think part of it
is like an actual sexual fantasy of like because i forget what it's called but actually a name for
it's called agp and autogynophilia yeah where it's like i want to dress up as the thing that turns
me on which that's right that necessarily mean that you're trans it's a kink that's right it's
a it's a more different they sold cross-dressers okay that's what a cross-dresser is a processor
is somebody who wants to wear female clothing and have sex sexual experiences as a woman and there's
nothing wrong with that i i don't think there's anything wrong with that if you're doing it as an
adult in a consensual space whatever that's your space yes yeah right but to conflate it with trans
and all this is wrong because that's not the same thing as i didn't i don't sexualize myself i'm not
here to like think i'm like this hot person and i wanna like [ __ ] myself it's not gonna happen
you are the trampon though and then so i think this is what a lot of um
people have a concern with so you have this this like subsect of people with this particular kink
they're not trans they're not transitioning they just dress as women because that turns
them on and then now it's in a place where it's oh it's no big deal like go to women's
bathrooms go to women's locker rooms but it's like you're this type of person who's
dressing is the thing that's turning you on and now you're in a bathroom in a locker room
full of women that's right we can't see how that's problematic but the thing is it's like here's what
i think if these people want to be trans women which is fine i don't really care about that
that why aren't they not respecting women's faces right so i don't understand why would you
why would you want to be a woman and walk that world but have disrespect for women
because i want to be a man and i have a lot of respect for men when i transitioned and i started
kind of hanging out and being a little bit more sexually attracted to to men that's a whole other
story but i started frequenting men's faces and they were freaked out by me and i would leave
i would leave every time i would leave until eventually i would come back and come back and
they started to get used to me and they started to understand me until they welcomed me in that
space because i knew that i was a different kind of person and it wasn't comfortable for them so i
don't understand why these women and trans women are just not understanding that women are not are
upset about this but if you have meet them in the middle and talk about it they'll be so accepting
of you because you're accepting of them and you're not a woman you're a trans woman that's the
problem they keep saying trans women are women no they're not trans women are trans women different
yeah it's almost like it doesn't feel like they're trying to be part of this group like it feels like
you're trying to bully us out of our own group and and when you're like kicking our ass in all the
sports it's hard to it's hard to have sympathy and empathy right for the cause because it's
like oh [ __ ] because i was a college athlete and this leah thomas story with uh she's the
the trans uh woman who's a swimmer in u-pen and this is like a little bit of old news this was
like the hotter news like last month but i think back like man if i was still in college like
competing as a diver at this time like i was pretty close with the swimmers uh i would be
so angry it's uh because you know people qualify for certain um you know scholarships and you know
what you what you test as as a high schooler like those times determine what colleges you
could go to or could not go to and then eventually like if you're good enough the olympics and
you know all that that's right so uh yeah it doesn't seem like there's much respect for
bylaw there is not and you know so so the community also hates um caitlyn jenner they
hate her why do they hate her because she's a republican i don't give a [ __ ] if she's i don't
care that has nothing to do with any ev all of us are just like every you know i'm like whatever
my politics are has nothing to do with me being trans it has zero to do with me being trans but
as a transgender woman that woman has thrown so much money to this community it's insane they seem
to forget that part so now she speaks out as a as a former olympic athlete she's like wait a minute
here this is wrong and she said the most profound thing in an interview she said i don't know
what that leah thomas is thinking but what she's doing is wrong and she know and she said and she
knows it oh i was like bam that's what we need we need a trans woman to say that because it's true
you don't think leah thomas knows what she's doing of course she does she she 100 does but that's her
ego right there saying i'm a woman and i can do this and go [ __ ] yourself which is gross
and it's like is it this idea that like women can just get away with anything
you know like i hear i hear guys who hate women say stuff like that like oh it's so easy to be a
woman you just get away with whatever you can [ __ ] your way out of a situation you can other people
can just pay for your lifestyle like oh that sounds like a misogynistic man yeah type that's
right that's right that's right and that's why i don't understand trans women who are and not all
trans women have a lot of trans women friends who respect you and respect women and do not have the
same ideology so you have to remember that there's a lot of this community that don't agree with the
loud mouths those loudmouths are a different type of of the ones like me who are transsexual who
want to change like blair and i have most of my friends all look like females and make an effort
to look that way and walk the world as women and they don't have problems because they respect
women and so this is a part of the community that's very dangerous now that we have that's
like created this some kind of ideology and want because you know there's power in numbers so i
really believe on some level the more the more power they're getting is because more people are
transitioning which gives this community all this you know power to do these things but it's not
going to last long because people are catching on now you don't think so nope i do not i'm already
democratic the democratic party is not going to nominate a trans candidate well you know that i
don't know but that could happen with that being said look i don't care if they do not can the
person do the job don't hire a person just because they're trans that's gross i'm not cool with that
hire the person because they're a badass and i don't care if they're black green blue
man woman [ __ ] i don't give a [ __ ] can i do the job better that's right so it's like now
we're hiring trans people because they're trans people that's why i've never agreed with that
type of being never never yeah interesting i'm gonna and it's good for caitlyn jenner because
it's like that kind of means a lot coming from an olympic athlete that's right also trans like
that's right kind of hard because she respects women she does she respects women she's like look
i'm a transsexual i'm a dude who became a lady and now you know what and she understands that respect
respect and that's why they don't like her because she doesn't tell the party line like me you know
she believes what she doesn't she also i think says jk rowling's isn't transphobic like i do
and like that just gets your balls kicked in 24 7. they people love to obsess on the on this jk here
is um a letter that you wrote to the la times um and this is very recently thank you ellie when did
this come out oh yeah just on the 11th uh thank you la times for publishing my letter and showing
the world that trans people don't all share the same views about jk rowling and dave chappelle
another take on rallying regarding magic in the pot of reunion by christy karis on january 22nd
the outcry over rowling's tweets is well known but what is almost never covered is that she is
not at all universally believed to be transphobic by members of the trans community those of us in
the trans community who agree with her defense of biological sex find ourselves in a place of
being silenced bullied and worse sadly this was made evident by dave chappelle who highlighted
the story of his friend a trans woman who took her life after being cyber bullied from her own
community i for one was grateful he highlighted this tragedy but my voice was never heard
the media only seems to print the outcry rather than the support that rowling and chappelle have
received from those of us in this community who have large platforms and who don't go along with
the consensus view and this is often because we are uh often silenced that's right right on
thanks for reading that oh yeah this is great it i couldn't believe i like cried i'm not kidding
i cried when it got into the paper oh really because i have sent 10 15 20 of these things
to papers and nobody would print them and i couldn't believe it because it goes against
everything the trans community is trying to say and so to have an opposing opinion on something so
very very very delicate on some level is huge that the ls so i actually regain i have more respect
for the la times now i didn't like them for a while but i thought okay now they're literally
having that you've got to let other people speak you can't just have a you know monolithic voice
out there that's not the way the real world works it's it's gross what do you think is like you know
it was comforting to hear you say like i i think it's not going to work i think it's crumbling
what do you think is or was the goal of this sort of like typical like trans group thing yeah so
kind i do believe that they wanted to indoctrinate a bunch of people because i believe it's more
powerful when you get more people involved in it and i also believe it's money uh there's money
behind a lot of this you know we have a very we have a lot of elder tran older trans women
who are like billionaires like billionaires who are funneling you know money into a lot of these
spaces that being said the medical space has grown tremendously top surgery bottom surgery you know
all kinds of things that's money karma's loving it yeah hormones that's right that's right so
i as a older person and how hard it was for me to get my hormones you can literally go into planned
parenthood or you can go on the internet you can actually go on the internet do a evaluation with a
doctor like me and you right here like saying they ask you ten questions and then they immediately
stamp your paper and say okay you're trans oh here's a script for your testosterone i'm like
this is out of here yeah you don't think they're getting a kickback just like every other drug
they prescribed yeah that's right so i i see i i think i told you in the last interview
that i saw on market watch was the stock market website telling people to invest in trans surgery
and it'll be a 5 billion dollar business and the next five is lit it's actually written right there
i'm like wow where did you see this on like market watch i'll send you that i have look on
market watch and then kind of just search around for trans surgery you're going to see it it says
it's actually going to be a 5 billion industry in the next five years i'm like wow this is sick
sick and it's like is that is that going to make people happier i guess we'll see what the effort
is that's what d transitioners are my point why do we have so many d transitioners we should never
have d transitioners or maybe a small amount but the amount that kids are literally detransitioning
is out of control and so that's what the community doesn't want to see and that's why i talk about
it because i believe they can help us they can help us figure out why are we making mistakes i
don't never want to see a youngster with no boobs having to live or a hysterectomy at 16 and then
going why did i ever do that and looking like me i can never go back to looking like you ever
i'm going to be the ugliest woman in the world so it's like you know it's not a joke this is
actually who i look like for the rest of my life hey it's not too bad though
because i like it but imagine if i didn't like it i would be totally suicidal oh yeah
it's really sad so you think this is this toxic group think is is about funding it's about money
it's about yep government dollars because i don't see the care and the compassion that many of us
it's not just me there's many of us who are trying to say wait a minute slow down this is not a rush
i mean this is a lifelong thing that you're doing i have to shoot testosterone for the rest of my
life you know i have to do these things in order to be this person i have to still live in this
body that isn't really male i mean there's many psychological aspects of it that you have to
really get your head around it's not just changing yourself overnight and then you know everything is
great you have to i go to therapy i go to all i continue to do that after 29 years of transition
i still work on my mind yeah it's good it's and it shows like you're you're full of light and you're
like a loving you're a very alive person you're very self-aware and it's why people love you and
it's also i think why it's like people have like a love hate feeling about you because they're like
oh they wish they could have your confidence in your self-awareness and be like owning yourself
and comfortable in your skin they can't yeah if they would literally calm down just calm down no
one's telling you you can't transition they're telling you to calm down i'm telling you calm
down like stop it i i'm here for a reason you know if i if i didn't give a [ __ ] about my community
i would leave i have way too many amazing things in my life trust me i'm just great business stuff
all kinds of stuff happening i don't need to be here and i don't need to be doing this but i
believe that i have to give back because i have everything and so for me to just walk away and
watch these kids get hurt i i would be a jerk to do that instead i put myself in the line of fire
because i believe what happened to me is a life-saving and the kids out there getting sucked
into this is gross and so i have to really stand there and say wait a minute what are we all doing
and then people like you hear me and you put me on your podcast and then i get more visibility
and then more people see me and they start saying hey wait a minute buck can say things
that resonate with me and maybe we need to slow down a little bit and that's why the community
part of the community doesn't like me because i'm saying slow down and you're not saying anything
all that crazy you're not telling anybody not to transition you're just basically saying like don't
confuse your life issues with your trans issues you know like don't get like if you need if you
have life issues and you need therapy for that don't confuse that with the transitioning process
that's right because that's when things get messy and that's when you're like oh [ __ ] i have to
de-transition and that's when or you get to the end of the transition process and you're not any
happier for it oh it's heartbreaking really these kids i i talked to a lot of them you know i really
give them my phone number and have them call me and i talk to them and we're both crying and i'm
just like okay but now you have opportunity to get yourself back up and you know it's like really s
it saddens me because it worked out so well for me and here i am and then i see this kid who just
not that it's just like mind-blowing to me that they even started this stuff and went through it
you know they went through surgery you can't get your boobs back now you have to do fake boobs and
it's just you know they're you know the other really insane thing is they're not putting nipples
so they're doing surgery no nipples are those extra are those
i know i'm like wait i know i'm laughing but i'm actually crying i'm like they're literally
not putting the nipples on the kids are like it's okay buck you don't understand it's a new
generation i go [ __ ] it is not a new generation of humans you need your nipples they're actually a
real thing that your body needs so why is the surgeon not putting where do the nipples go
i mean they just throw them out but they're like flat chested with like no nipples so
you're telling me outside of any hospital there's a bag of nipples sitting there
but shame on the surgeon because the surgeon's probably too lazy to put them
on because it's not easy you have to like you know put it this you have to like make it all
yeah perfect and it's hard and it's also a whole other part of the surgery so i'm like
[ __ ] the surgeon's just doing that because they're lazy and they don't want to do it
it's gross wow it's like almost like are you trying to make people look like
cyborgs like you know there you go transhumanist right that's a whole other
level of whole other thing transhumanist i'm like uh no i'm just a human like relax