all those insights came from this one meditation, and that meditation itself
the technique and the method is sort of the accumulation of all the meditation
I've been doing the last five years into one singularity and when you're
marinating in that state it feels like the cosmic BBC is fucking the cosmic
vagina except the cosmic BBC is infinity and the cosmic vagina is the size
smaller than an "atom" you go in through the strange loop that is Reality
I'm collapsing my awareness my attention into this tiny little point that is that
doesn't even exist because it's literally smaller than an atom
but at the same time I'm expanding my mind and my awareness my peripheral
awareness in the opposite direction to fill all of Infinite Space so I'm doing
the two simultaneously contraction and expansion the two are actually the same
thing if you can sustain that for two hours you will reach Nirvana
Nirvana or Nibbana it means to blow out or turn the lights off all meditation
techniques are just tools to train the mind to reach its absolute limit and it
takes a quantum leap into the abyss and you "die before you die". If physicists are
right and inside the atom is just empty space that space is the same
space as the rest of the universe because infinity knows no size and through
that experience I sort of linked up all the questions that I have in the past
all the major insights all of all the religions
and if you wonder why should I care about this why should I do this "Enlightenment"
work? "Who and what Am I?" What is it this existence
What am I doing with life?
Everything that you've ever desired and want to attain in your
entire life: trying to get faster cars you know, bigger house more money like
more pussies bigger muscles but we're sort of just the the middle man...manifestation of our
natural inclination to merge with the Infinite. Here are some Contemplative Fitness
exercises that you can perform one of them is imagining
the whole universe infinite number of multi-verses be contained into a proton
without changing the size to either of them. The other one is to collapse the
entire timeframe of the universe from the Big Bang to the Big Crunch into the
nanosecond of the Now. The past and the future don't really exist. "Past" and the
"future" are only concepts of the mind that is experienced in the present moment is the
none moment where the past and the future collapse into each other
So the present moment doesn't actually exist while simultaneously and
paradoxically, it is the only thing that you experience. If you try to find a single
nanosecond slice of the Now you can't find it just like you can't find the
sense of self even though the Self is everywhere. You see those spiritual
kunts talk about "Infinite Awareness, consciousness is nowhere but
everywhere and that is the same thing as "The Power of Now", which is eternal
so the Power of Now and Infinite Awareness are describing the same
natty Reality which is Being which is you. One is you approach it from the spatial
side of the equation the other from the temporal side of the equation but they are
two sides of the same coin. Einstein said that are in General Theory of Relativity
space and time are two sides of the same coin, a unified fabric that he called
space-time. So I've been training a lot in the 360 degrees/non-dual awareness meditation or
Dzogchen, where you relax any part of your mind whatever your minds grasping
onto just relax it relax it relax it until It fills up the whole Infinite Space
Infinite Space. On the other side of the extreme is the practice of Vipassana
where you just sort of focus on a single sensation, you put your
awareness on a very tiny specific sensation and you just scan it until you
break it down further and further until all sensations go back to the Source of
emptiness and that (object of meditation) can be sight sound thoughts body sensations
emotions pretty much the entire field of sensate Reality
can be be Vipassanalized by breaking sensations down to its
microscopic component until everything dissolves into Nothingness and that Nothingness is
the same as 360 Awareness, the same Unified Field. One is you are drilling from
top to bottom the other one you are drilling from bottom to up to top. I've used
the analogy for physical fitness and how Dzogchen practice or pure awareness
practice the non-dual awareness practice that takes a kind of a acrobatic of
the mind and that process is a bit like plyometrics, speed training
reactivity training so the pure Vipassana practice concentration
practice that is sort of like max effort absolute strength training you combine the
two to get power, and power is awakening And this awake awareness is the Natural State
or Buddha Mind or Christ Consciousness. Let me give you
some examples from popular teachers that you might have read both Shinzen Young
and Culadasa the formal wrote the "Science of Enlightenment" and latter the "The Mind Illuminated"
First you are a person inside a meat suit and your sense of identity is this little person inside
the head.
You perceive yourself as this avatar that is separated from the rest of the world that you're
interacting with and then as you unfold you start to flip yourself inside out
and your sense of self and your identity becomes
like this bubble of awareness that's encapsulating
the character of the meatsuit but then as you awaken even more and you expend that
bubble the character become smaller and smaller and smaller and then your sense
of identification (with Awareness) becomes larger and larger as a circle, the bubble keeps on
expanding and as you continue to peel up your onions like a snake shedding its own
skin which the process hurts like hell it literally feels like you're burning
yourself alive and that's where the dark night of the soul comes from you're shredding
away every single layer that you thought to be you away and dissolving them and as
you continue this process on and on and on over and over again awareness expands
and extends infinitely towards all directions
but then there's still a little dot in the center sort of like a
nucleus of an atom and you get the electrons and everything else is
circling around that nucleus but you have to dissolve every single speck of
solidity that separates you from the rest of the universe eventually you go
through a threshold where when you reach singularity. if you had to put the Frank
Yang character from just a year ago into this meatsuit here and now
I'm gonna be like oh this your most Natural State bro and then you'll be
like what am i trippin on 5meo DMT? Am I having a breakthrough?