Translator: Habip Bahçecioğlu Reviewer: esra kurul
I will take out these.
It is really as Gazi teacher said it is not visible with glasses.
The other side is in very bad shape.
Firstly hello, to everyone I am so thankful to you for waiting for me.
Thanks for being here till the end.
Sometimes.
Staying to the end is a bit like a little soloist.
Looks like it’s actually the worst.
Because people gets tired, bored, have something else to do,
rush to that work, have some air too.
Even though you’re here very precious to me.
Thank you a lot.
Let me tell you five days a week down like the head talking up on the TVs
I’ll talk out.
But actually there is a person crowded having a speech problem, trauma
having a speech problem and trauma.
November 3 in the third grade in primary school.
Ours, the town where I grew up, Kars
It was the Independence day of Susuz district
and there, they wanted me to read a poem.
I was the one only who memorized it.
Actually, in front of a crowd. I didn’t worry about not being able to talk.
However, he memorize the poem anyway? so that he can read
they threw me in front of the lectern.
I knew the poem but in front of anyone
I couldn’t do it.
I couldn’t.
From the lectern I ran by crying.
That’s why when they asked me if I could be a TedX talker
I became a bit nervous.
Because this is not the same as talking in front off the camera.
Here people are together face to face
and it doesn’t seem as if our conference.
We go to conferences.
We criticize the government, we applaud, We criticize the opposition.
This time the pro-government applauds, we get applause and so on.
This is not something like that.
The people opposite you here an inspiration from you
waiting for a story.
Therefore, with the need to be able to give it,
You go on this stage with the desire.
I intend to do that too.
I get prepared, wanted to cheat.
I listened to the speeches of my colleagues.
Our colleagues have been constantly working for 3 4 days.
I listen to tedx talks but
as I listened I’m depressed.
Now Neşvin Mengü’s example she has done Tedx talk.
The woman has done both triathlons and Ironman.
participated in the race, both vegan.
I’m very carnivorous as you can see. I also have a sports background.
I’ve worked on the rowing team, but this
unfortunately, it’s a lot of things with sports and stuff.
I’m not a good person.
What will I tell you then I opened it sure What did I listen to Capa’s?
Emin Capa also mentioned Newton, Archimedes mentioned Archimedes and so on.
I studied engineering, it’s not interesting to me.
So it doesn’t come from Newton’s rules,
here are the foundations of modern physics he told how to throw it.
From there he connected to Turkey, and do strange things.
But it’s not strange for me.
’Cause all I see is drudgery Physics class all my life
buoyancy of water, gravity strength and so on
always a chore for me.
Such a thing cannot happen.
What then as a journalist? I can tell, what can I give
at least one person What hope can I add to their hopes?
i thought i moved and everyone said a lot to me
to answer the frequently asked question
I decided.
That’s it.
Me.
I’m the kind of person who goes over his nose like that.
Composition in the fifth grade of primary school
they wanted me to enter their contest.
I did go.
How happy is the one who says I am a Turk!
A related composition.
Write something.
I wrote a sentence and couldn’t continue,
Next to that class, there was a drawing competition.
It was a competition about rabies.
A poster about rabies they were given to do.
I became the first at that competition
So you’re tired of the essay contest escaped
and entered the painting contest and there
such a person who is the first.
I have a different rebel side and My life has been full of them.
State Free Boarding School I passed the exam.
Actually ı coud go to Kabataş High School.
But where is Kars, where is Istanbul?
This means a 9.5-year-old child whose Mom and Father will take till to Istanbul
who would not dare to attend boarding school
That is, when there is such a reality, I went to boarding school
and had many different interests.
I used to paint, but I knew weird chemistry.
I knew weird Physics.
Such teachers teach me here tell
without telling, with the lesson they arrived at
asks questions about what to do they would like.
Then we came to the university exam step
I wanted to draw.
I wanted to study fine arts.
And even last day on 19 May, I saw a post.
When we were last class in high school on 19 May huge opening in the ceremony.
There was Atatürks poster
Means, let me say it this way.
Three meters high, two-odd meters a huge poster.
I did that poster with my 2 friends.
I mean, I was so proud to see him, I felt so good.
When I did that poster I wanted to study drawing but my chemistry teacher
said something like this.
Ya Deniz said, what are you going to do?
Look while drawing you can’t learn chemistry.
But while studying chemistry you can continue drawing
That made sense to me.
Yes, it makes sense, I study chemistry I also learn paints and stuff, chemicals
I also learn, and I also paint and I’ll be a chemistry engineer too, and
an academic on top of that
I also could be a professor and so on.
I came to university.
There is the Atatürk Student Dormitory, in Cebeci.
Used to hear the name Steyr and this is right and left
the most intense nationalists in their conflicts
where he was.
I entered the dormitory.
A room for 6 people.
In one of the beds, a guy was sitting but he was an old guy.
Means, I was 16
He was 30.
Hi, he said.
Whats your name?
Are you scared?
You have arrived at the university dormitory.
With a mustache
30 year old man.
This means he will stay in the same room with us.
Deniz, I said
How old are you Deniz, he said?
I said that I was born in seventy-two years.
Aaaa, he said.
You Deniz Gezmiş, he said.
You are from the crew born after injustice.
Yes, I said.
I said, I guess I got my name from there.
Such a cold wind blew.
Now your nationalists are very strong a place where it is.
You I said Ahmet he said.
Studying in the Ziraat faculty
And he had just come out of prison.
If I don’t remember wrong 12 September has been arrested.
88 by the way I guess spent in prison.
Then we became very good friends.
I helped him in his studies.
He supported me.
If the beating came out without being beaten in that dormitory.
All he had was Ahmet.
He protected me, he took care of me.
So beating just because of the name It was a place where I could eat.
This psychology makes people inevitably political criticize and I
Middle East Technical University Consider an environment like.
Constant action, constant protest like this, permanency.
Myself with the name Deniz I found it there.
Yes, I was studying chemistry.
Weird hard courses we had.
For example, there was a lesson called mass transfer.
There was a class called heat transfer.
They were incredibly difficult subjects.
We saw in high school physics, chemistry, biology, but that was something else.
I like this politics among them I was starting to compress.
Then?
Suddenly, I found myself in the student association taken out.
I found it as the editor of the publication.
And I started making the covers.
I started drawing cover cartoons.
Then with a pseudonym I started writing a column.
Another name with that corner.
Here is the university administration, now Rectors are so close to students.
Here you reach it, photo you’re shooting or something.
Rectors in the years we studied He was like an emperor.
Let go of being interlocutor, to your face they don’t even look.
It was such an environment
There was a military coup of September 12, universities collapsed, rectors
directly YÖK established, appointed by YÖK.
They’re all so he sees himself so strong.
Such a university environment and the Middle East
Technical University after 1980
one more burst, one more movement it’s weird like that
a place under pressure.
And I wanted to be an assistant at that time.
I said I’d do a master’s and so on.
I also covered the biology section.
My goal was to become a biology professor.
This virus program viruses, corona in programs discussing the virus
Most of us from Twitter they were attacking.
The man is a journalist.
The virus is talking.
Do you know what mRNA is?
Like what are you talking about.
Things like this come from Twitter, criticism is coming.
Yes, I knew.
So I also knew MRNA, I also knew about DNA.
I also knew molecular biology while discussing all this.
Because I had their training.
About 4 years on chemistry I studied biology for 5 years.
And.
This was something wierd.
So it was a dream.
Now chase after frame tedx we say and it kind of fell off for me.
I mean, from a love like painting.
I gave up for this.
But one day.
I can’t explain this.
Bad things happened to me.
I found myself in a cell.
I was severely tortured for two weeks.
To do something I didn’t do. They asked me to accept.
And I didn’t accepted it.
I opened my eyes in hospital.
And again I didn’t accept it because I didn’t do it.
The truth is only 1 for me.
There I defended to the death what he saw.
And.
The marriage between me and the truth is there chopped.
You know the journalist job.
A little while ago, we always said fall.
My Gazi teacher talked about the metaverse universe,
He spoke of the virtual, he spoke of the shadows
in our job.
He owes everything to that truth.
Our main task is that truth find and reveal.
To make the public hear to serve the right to be informed.
And there I saw how important is reality.
I saw it for the sake of my life.
I saw it at the risk of dying.
When I came out from there I reached my freedom
I had hit rock bottom.
I lost my job.
I losted my grandfather.
3 days he delirious my name
But even my family didn’t know where I was.
My girlfriend left me.
Because he didn’t call for that long.
He did what he couldn’t do with me anymore,
has decided.
Then I went to ODTÜ
Here’s what I’m going to do to the episode,
now again I want to start work etc.
They handed me a piece of paper.
They said you have to give a statement.
A forensic investigation is over.
You were acquitted, we get it.
But there is also an administrative investigation.
You must also testify at the investigation.
I guess we are the teachers of our department.
saying that we are not prosecutors or something
they refused to accept.
I went to a professor from the psychology department.
I sat across from him but I’m that bad which hit the bottom, I’m just finished.
So it’s all over for me.
I lost my job, I lost everything.
The lady said Psychologist, psychologist, professor in psychology.
She said...
She said relax.
Look, she said in 1978, I was sitting there.
Another teacher was sitting here.
I was in the same situation as you.
They wanted to disperse me.
They wanted to take my statement too.
But it passed.
She said, “Look, I’m a teacher here today.”
Don’t worry about it, relax or something.
I started crying.
This.
Really.
A person’s character, dignity, possession for all values
is an attack.
It’s about torture.
When I start to cry ma’am understood
the situation understood the situation and
became interested.
She said never mind the investigation.
You come regularly Let’s meet once a week.
I found a free psychologist.
And
I regularly went.
I’m starting to like it now.
By the way, my time is running out, I’ll pack it right away.
She said you can make up for it bro.
You can make up for anything.
Just be alive.
I’m telling you all this.
Even when you’re stuck
You have a chance to make up for everything.
I said I’ll do it later.
Bir arkadaşımın annesi beni güya ters motivasyon yapacak.
He said, “Nothing will happen to you,” your life passes within four walls or a
They find her body at the foot of the wall.
Not so, I said to myself.
I am a small town in the Susuz district of Kars.
I studied at a village school.
State free boarding school
I came with the equality of opportunity it created.
I studied at ODTÜ in Ankara.
I’m going to be a professor and so on.
I accomplished these.
Do I ever leave?
I will make up for everything and from scratch
I said I’m going to start and journalism
That’s how I started.
I worked for that magazine, I drew the cover, I wrote a column.
With his help,
I started journalism.
Then I went to Bosnia, I worked in Bosnia, I went to Afghanistan, in Afghanistan
I worked, I worked in Iraq, I worked in Palestine.
I suddenly turned into a war correspondent but also at university
I lost my job.
But the training continued.
In 97, here it is now to the thesis stage
I’m here, I have to make a presentation and so on.
İsmet Berkan was our Ankara representative.
He Said Go To Netanyahu Israel
You will be interviewing the Prime Minister on this date.
I said I said mine I have an exam on that date.
He said make a decision bro.
Either you will be a journalist.
Either you will become a professor.
That day he decided to become a journalist. I gave and went.
I interviewed Netanyahu.
And to this day, I am a journalist.
Why did I tell you all this?
That’s why I told you.
Life.
Good encounters and good decisions.
It consists of results.
As a journalist here today
If I’m standing in front of you I’ve just done this
think of what i said, here’s chemistry I owe it to my teacher, at ODTÜ
I owe it to the psychologist.
I owe it to İsmet Berkan.
I mean the people who forced me to choose I owe and I give
I owe it to the right decisions.
With those people, with those good people I counted the encounter.
If those good encounters were not in my life maybe another adventure today
I would be in.
But my life is those good encounters, right decisions and ambition to work,
Your determination, that I can make up for everything It is a product of my faith.
I am here as its product.
Thank you for listening to me.