It's not necessary to be strong but to feel strong
It's probably one of the things that's made this project so hard mentally
is started off in such a bad note you know
it was it was always destined to be quite difficult
you always remember the things that you did
the things that stand out to you the most
but the ones that the ones that got away the ones you always remember
there comes a point where you're trying to do these things over and over again
and when it comes to the reality of it and you're physically unable to do it
it takes a big dent to your confidence
like it takes a lot out of you physically and mentally
you can't move on from that point because you feel like you're stuck
in your in your mind and in your body you're stuck in that moment where its like
I need to get this one trick done
before I can move on because otherwise you find it impossible
you can't express it. It's so much it's so many heavy emotions at once
because you've had to you had to set yourself out to come back already
Told you to leave once. Twice. This is the third time
but you have to be in the right frame of mind to ride your bike every day
that everyone has off days everyone's are hard don't even feel like riding today
but where as when you're filming you're gonna put on that pressure like
Yo, we have to go out filming tonight I have to get this done
there's outside pressures from that this it's not just you and yourself trying to
overcome something there's I'm a pressure than you've got to come up against
you're giving myself a deadline you have a certain amount of time with your film
or you have a certain amount of time to do this trick like you know it might be
outside a building that's open in a certain hour in the day
you know you're not in a controlled environment when you're riding street because there's so
many aspects that can put you off it could be people it could be cars that could
be whether anything permitting to what you're at that spot and something could
completely change that because it's not on a controlled environment you're not in control of that
You're in control of you and your riding and that is all
you're in control of and you have to be in the right mindset to be able to go
there and accomplish what you want to achieve
When you know you mind you set yourself something like why I'm going there
you've already you've really picture yourself doing it so your body starts to
feel what your mind is telling it
there's a continuous rush of adrenaline
the entire time when you're on the way to something because you already know
what you're going there to do
Once you're there like that's when that's
when it really starts.
When in reality it's not going to make a difference if
you go on the third time where you go on the 20th
Every time you run up to a spot
nothing changes the spot stays the same the more times you run up to something
the more like you're battling yourself in your mind over it
There's an element of switching on and switching off
you have to just at that point just have to
switch off in that moment and just say go.
It's crazy what you can do to your mind from over analyzing and overthinking something
especially with bike riding there's something you're potentially
afraid of and you're over analyzing it thinking why isn't this working or
Why am i afraid? You end up creating this dark space in your mind you can't get away from
Facing the unknown as a scary thing.
Every project I've worked on up to now has been the natural environment
My friends like people I ride with
you know, there's it's not just me where as with this project it's been, you know
it's kind of been like a really personal battle for myself to go back to these
things and overcome them it's it's been a wild journey going to do something
like that on your own and it's difficult with this it makes it much harder
like if you're in a natural environment you don't ever fit like the vibes good
other people are riding, everyone is vibing off each other I didn't have that
There is a completely different mentality or something you're trying to say to yourself
right I'm going there on my own I'm gonna go get this done
However long it takes you to get it like that process you don't enjoy it
but then when you've got something to show for it and you feel like everything was worth it.
You know when you think of a new trick that you want to do
it's not just a new trick for you like say something that hasn't been done yet
Like you're trying to create something that doesn't exist and make it reality
when you've got an idea for a trick or something in mind you've got for a spot
and you go there and you film it you're essentially bringing that to life
that's a feeling you can't you can't replicate that feeling
if you like pushed your boundaries
you pushed your limits you feel like you've achieved something
if you're not happy that means you've got so much more to do you
because you know in your head that you're capable of more and that's the drive that makes you
want to do the next projects like I've still got stuff I want to do
it gets that level where you just film the best video part you could like you thought
you know you felt like you put as much into making a video part you possibly can
but then wait you can't you can't drop off after that so then your next
one you have to do, right this is it I need to go further than I've been before
You know when you're filming a video part you put your heart and your soul in
it absolutely everything into it not to be the best or be better than anyone else
it's for you
there's an element of an artistic mindset in that respect like
when an artist is making an album and directors are making a video part
it's a representation of them and how they feel
everything they have their emotions
everything I put into that and you can you hear it
and you see it like you see it in someone's writing you can hear some music
that moment in time that is exactly who i was and your riding expresses that
the feelings you get from pushing your boundaries are what life's all about
you can't just sit there and you know be comfortable and do nothing
you need to push yourself and the feeling you get is absolutely euphoric
you have to believe in it you have to pursue it and find your own path
and make it a reality