I attached your name to this place,
bringing up my own picture of “you”.
Outpacing affection
and elevating oneself…That is the best
I can do right now.
This place allows me to be who I am.
I won’t let anyone annihilate it.
I would be content by just having you smile at me
in my imaginary world. I don’t need any words.
I protected you and you protected me.
You and me were both right there.
I longed to share your pain
and yet…
I can’t remember how you talked
during our last conversation, because
too suddenly I confronted a place without you.
What kind of face have you made in the end…?
I know that you would have never
wished for me to be like this.
Losing any backlash
is shameful, but yet
I’m not torn to pieces, and I’m not going to be.
Your voice lingering in my room
always makes me want to cry.
Devoting my body to grief, I want to lock myself
inside the capital of you in my imagination…
There was no need for us to falsify anything.
We were supposed to be choosing modesty.
I recite our memories over again
until they amaze me.
I can’t remember how you talked
during our last conversation, because
too suddenly I confronted a place without you.
What kind of face have you made in the end…?