Okay, so it took me a little bit, so what is short
I really wanted to share it when I'm important to get personal about this
just so that it's really important for me I
Felt a little cynical depression about seven years ago. I attended student suicide
And I remember going up and my mother was there and once I was able to process everything I had
Decided that I was never going to be documented again
So I've gotten better. I'm about 2 or 3 years ago. I started my business and
My mother's my wife my life is my life
and what I do is more than just about putting stuff on paper and creating suffering people that I
Meet all kinds of people and I want everyone to be successful and when ultimately I don't want them to be where I was
And I didn't like people like that, but my issue is is I've been in a relationship
where
Ultimately, I know it's bringing you down or than helping me be
Who and what?
My full potential is
What was four five years ago is not who I am now. I've changed but
My significant other has it so how did you?
Let go it's easy to people to say just let it off
But when you're that deeply invested in a relation. How do you go? How do you get them on the same page?
I'm fighting for my life
and ultimately that's what it is and I know that I have to live I
Do what I do because people gave me my wife
My mother doesn't my wife. I didn't give me my wife. I agreed that
When I get to my peace, I feel like I get not back down
But I don't
Wanna let go I know I need you
I just don't know how so this to you real quick all right
So I'm I'm you I find out in college like yo, I got this gift
I'm saying I got this way of like reaching people and taking people to that next level, right
But I thought what my life didn't look like my speech
Remember I talked about measuring, so I'll get up and speaking whoa when I go back home like whoa?
What's going on my bank account my credit right and what I realized what's your name?
Yeah, Alethea what I realized was like 'hey you building up, but you haven't built down
You feel me like you building up right and you've heard it before a bedrock right so when you build a structure
If you if you go like just a little bit down you own gravel and dirt
Right so what happens when life happens, and you want dirt. You know what happened. That is
Shaking so we got mudslides in cali beautiful homes
million-dollar billion dollar homes, but they're crashing why because they were built on a very weak foundation
Right so I was trying to build my life up by going to college by getting a GED
By getting married by starting a career
But I needed to go down and what happened was you know you never forget your father for not being in your life
So every time you every time you hit a storm you got a deal with that now
We're not just talking about your father not being in your life. That's cool
We ain't tripping that my man when they read on that
But we own the rejection now every time you do something and you hear no you get knocked down
Why cuz you didn't deal with the fact that yes the fact that he went in your life
Cuz you're walking around like so what I'm a grown man, so what do you want in my life who cared?
No, you care, Eric
You care and so does these feelings of rejection?
As these feelings are like you don't you not really deep enough cuz of you was that deep he would have been there for you
So apparently you must not been that deep come over here
I'm kidding about your speaker you were at the end of the day you not that deep
So then we go from not having my father in my life, and I never talked about this y'all
But do you know what it's like to be homeless for real for real like you understand being by yourself
You were in the back. Do you understand the emotional stuff?
Do you know the voices you hear when you by yourself at 16 years old?
Do you know what it's like to go without eating like for days?
You know it's like being in public and you stank like you don't like I had no shower
I had no water so when I'm around my boys and you know people like in the black community when they joke they trying to
strip you, so I'm talking about dudes ones coming at me and they
You know how that feels and gotta say like yo you trying to?
GD ain't gonna fix that like you got to go to your old, dude
You got to go bedrock, and you got to deal with your real?
And you got to go look my man in his face, and you gotta ask my man
Why weren't you here for me? You got to look my man in the face and you gotta ask my man like yo, what happened?
What who was I not what was I you got to get that stuff out?
And so you got to go bedrock like you can't have people being like your why ain't nobody that deeper?
They could be your wife
They're gonna always let you down and let me tell you something when you're not right you're gonna keep attracting that kind of stuff
You're gonna keep attracting. I'm just being real you're gonna track man
Who can peep out that you ain't you ain't there right now once you fix it and get it?
He'll I told you I walk in corporate now, and I know they don't want me there, but I'm still here
I'm hearing ain't nothing you can do about it
And you guys sit here listen to me for the next hour and even though you don't like my hat
I love me and even though you don't love my shoes. I love me and even though you don't like my shorts
I love me so much that you're gonna love me when I get about this joint and you gonna say
I'm the best motivational speaker that ever lived and so listen to me this one
We're gonna have to do right, and I'm committed to you. This is why I do what I do
I don't do this to speak you hear me. I don't do this to speed
I'd do this for this right here. That's why I do this
You deserve to be healed
Let out I don't want you to go another day with the pain that you got inside
I know how to do it because I did it I've been where you are and we know what we're gonna
Do we're gonna we're gonna go to the root, and we're never gonna have to ask me in questions
We're never gonna have to ask job questions. We never have to ask that because once you hit bedrock
You solid as a rock when you hit bedrock
And so you're gonna be alright. Are you a believer?
Let's pray father. We thank you in the name of Jesus Christ
That your daughter is here not for a conference
baby girl came to be made whole
So welcome home you home you you where?
We love you. We're where we're gonna pick you up pull you up and not tear you down
You are where you are not going to get manipulated, but you're gonna get help
You are where you're gonna shine and be amongst other egos
And it's gonna be the same language and the same communicate like you you are home
And so I'm just so grateful for your presence
I'm grateful that you ready to go to the next level
And I'm grateful that when you walk out of this room. You will never be this they not even gonna recognize you
Because the people who knew me prior to forgiving my biological father say yo E
We saw the moment you've always been able to speak, but we saw when you confronted your father
And you let go of all that anger and bitterness
We saw you fly like you have never flown before
And so I don't know what she needs to overcome. I don't know what she needs to deal with but today is the day
Today is the today is the new day for the rest of her life
Today she loves herself like she's never loved herself before today
She believes in herself like she never believed before today is her day to become a new creature
To become a new person and to live life, not as she dreams
But as she deserves it and so we just thank you
That she's gonna get to the bottom of it get to the root of it
And she'll never have a high high and another low low again
And she will only have high highs
And I know because I've been low and I've not seen one of those days in a very very years and years and years
So give it a freedom that she deserves
Give her the light that she can touch and taste
She could taste it. It's so close give her that life, and then allow us to be able to experience it
But they're more importantly when you give it to her like you gave it to me may. She teach it to others
Maybe free others and may she heal others through her ministry we thank you
We worship you we praise you and we thank you for having a beginning in your son's name Amen