Hi, sweetheart.
RANDALL: Hey, Mom.
Wow, it's late out there.
Is everything okay with Beth and the girls?
Yeah, yeah, they're fine.
Asleep.
Was just calling to talk.
Haven't really done that since New York.
Yeah.
I know. How are you?
I'm good.
I just, uh, have been thinking a lot about your decision.
Oh, Randall, come on, sweetheart,
I thought we had put that to bed.
I told you,
I have no interest in being away from the family.
Okay? I-I respect the fact that you're passionate about it,
but I really don't want to talk
about the clinical trial anymore.
RANDALL: Dr. Leigh,
everything you've said makes sense.
And I've probably known about it all for a while
but haven't been able to...
find it.
I'm grateful to you for your help today.
Mom,
I've been a good son.
And I never say stuff like that,
but I know that I have been.
After Dad died,
I stayed at home.
I took care of you.
I have been a good son.
I know you have.
You've-you've always been.
And I've let things go, Mom.
(exhales)
Things...
that were kept from me.
Things that I should have resented you for,
but I never did,
because I knew that it would be painful for you.
So I didn't.
I know.
RANDALL: I lost my father,
and I couldn't stop it.
I lost a second father,
and I couldn't fix that either.
And now my mother is sick,
and there are options.
I have never asked you for anything, Mom.
Not in my entire life.
I've never asked you for anything.
But I'm gonna ask you for something now.
Mom, you have to do this clinical trial.
And I know you don't want to,
but you have to.
(inhales sharply) 'Cause I don't want to be in a therapy session
20 years from now, playing out scenarios,
wishing that I had pushed harder,
wishing that I had done more,
'cause, maybe if I had,
you would still be alive.
I can't live with that,
even if you can.
I will come to therapy
to work this through.
I won't take it on alone.
But I will not...
relitigate what my mother did to me with William.
I won't reopen that wound for her.
I understand you think that hashing it out
will bring me some kind of peace.
Maybe you're right. I... (exhales)
I don't know.
But I've already lost three parents.
I know that losing my mother would break me.
I can't lose her.
(exhales)
I will do anything to keep that from happening.
I'll do whatever
it takes.
I've been a good son, Mom.
I've been a good son,
and I've never asked you for anything.
But I am
asking you for this now.
And I need you to say it.
You are going to St. Louis.
You are going to do this clinical trial.
♪
(shuddering)
(whispers): Okay.
(shudders)
I will go to St. Louis, and I will do the trial.
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