[audience cheering]
AUDIENCE (chanting): Billie! Billie! Billie!
♪ ♪
[hitting drum]
[indistinct chatter]
[laughter]
[drumming]
BILLIE: Like, the end of January
was kind of the beginning of a very long tour I did
that was like three months-ish all over Australia
and then all over Europe and the UK and stuff,
and we left again for a whole US tour for, like, a month.
Hello, my friends.
Okay, nobody's gonna respond.
Like, I don't wanna think of them as fans,
I don't wanna talk about them as fans.
Those are my siblings.
They're my ground.
[singing, vocalizing]
[singing]
- This door? - Yes.
I'm just gonna, like...
Hi!
[fans cheering]
BILLIE: It's really cool to, like,
pull up to a venue that I'm playing
and I see, like, a line of kids that just look so sick.
Like, they all look so cool.
And they're so openminded about stuff
and it's weird that I'm like,
"Oh, I know that's my group. That's them."
I do as much as I can to sort of be their safety
because they're my safety.
You know, I'll DM them and ask them if they're okay
just because, like, I really care.
I just try to interact with them and talk to them
and comment on their stuff and like their stuff.
And, like, those people out there,
they're just like- I could go-
all I want to do, to be honest right now,
is go out and just, like- I just wanna hang out with them.
Put your fuckin' phones away. Get that away from me.
Just talk to me, you know?
[chatter]
[fans scream and cheer]
[drumming]
[indistinct chatter]
Woo!
Cool.
Um, "Bitches", maybe?
Yeah, "Bitches".
I just want that bass, like...
I want it to blow you up.
[chuckles]
When I perform, it's just like--
I'm just thinking about, like...
nothing except exactly what I'm about to do.
If you think about anything else,
it'll really throw you off.
I've had shows where all I could think about was,
you know, something horrible, and it just ruins the show.
It ruins you, it ruins your mental state,
and it just is not good.
So you just gotta shut the fuck up in your brain
and just do shit.
I like people to go crazy
and, like, jump around and, like, mosh and stuff.
And I sort of take anything that I'm feeling
and I just channel it through.
Is that what the saying is? Channel it?
I just channel all my energy to the floor, basically.
Not even to me, to the floor because it's like
I'm jumping off the floor, I'm going back onto the floor.
Like, the floor is the only place that I trust anymore.
[laughs] You can't trust anybody
but the floor you're standing on.
And you can't even trust that sometimes.
Fuckin' fired!
Ah. Okay, cool.
G.
Thanks, guys.
This sounds tight.
[sighs] Okay.
♪ By the way ♪
I've just learned, like,
what places are fun to perform, what songs are fun to perform...
[smooch]
Um, that's my brother Finneas.
What--? Um.
What the fuck was I saying?
[phone chimes]
[laughs]
Another big thing I've learned is, like,
if you're around people that you don't like,
you are gonna be miserable.
And so if you-- you know, if you're gonna do a show
and you spend the whole day
with people you want to fucking stab in the ear,
it's just not going to be fun.
My brother's my best friend
and my mom is my other best friend
and my dad's my other best friend.
Um, so. It's pretty cool.
If you spend the whole day with people that, like,
just make you happy and, like, you just wanna go crazy,
then that's the best thing, I guess.
FINNEAS: Mom, enjoy the show.
MAGGIE: I will!
Worry about filming less than you usually do.
I will! [laughs]
I'm still gonna take my tour, though.
FINNEAS: We don't have the luxury
of a film crew most of the time,
so Mom is the form of documentation.
MAN: It'd be great
if all they captured was just her arm in the view.
[all laughs]
Action.
[laughs]
FINNEAS: Who's filming who?
[light drumming]
[drumming continues]
[grunts]
[indistinct chatter]
[drumming continues]
BILLIE: If I try to get in the zone,
I just get too in the zone
and then I can't get out of the zone
and it's just bad.
This is another thing that I've learned on tour.
I've learned so much. It's crazy.
But, um, like,
if you think ahead or you think back,
you will literally go insane.
Like if I think,
"What am I gonna be doing exactly 3 weeks from now?"
No, sir.
Zoo!
Zoboomafoo basketball.
Heavy door.
Hello.
Are we going down into the Suicide Squad?
Are we, like, about to go sing "Heathens"
with a roomful of inmates?
She's looking at me not laughing.
Nobody laughed.
I don't make jokes for the laughs.
I make them for me.
BILLIE: Just with me,
I don't know if this is with everybody,
but I just feel like if you think about
anything besides what you're doing right then,
it just messes you up and I feel like
everybody's life is just trying to finish this thing
so that you can do the next thing.
And then once you get to the next thing,
you're just trying to finish that.
AUDIENCE [chanting]: Billie! Billie! Billie!
[inaudible]
BILLIE: This is what I'm saying.
I'm just, like-
I'm just gonna do exactly what I'm doing right now.
I'm sitting in this chair right now,
I'm thinking about burritos.
That's what's happening.
I'd fuck with a burrito right now.
Burritos are so bomb.
AUDIENCE [chanting]: Billie! Billie! Billie!
♪ ♪
[audience cheers]
♪ ♪
♪ You should see me in a crown ♪
♪ Your silence is my favorite sound ♪
♪ ...six feet under ♪
♪ I can't help but wonder ♪
BILLIE: Put down your phones.
We are never, ever gonna be here again.
In this moment.
♪ ♪
BILLIE: I do not know, but here I am,
and I'm doing just whatever I'm doing.
Like, I don't care what my purpose is.
I'm just here.
♪ But I'll never let you back ♪
[audience cheering]
BILLIE: Everything is sorta too big for me to describe.
So.