You know what I've realized death completely violates the laws of the universe
How do you mean?
I mean the universe is built on the law of conservation of energy meaning for every action there's an equal and opposite reaction
if say a car hits you the distance
You sail through the air is directly proportional to how fast the car was traveling for instance nice example
right?
But anyway, that's a constant. That's how everything works
Energy cannot be destroyed and so the destruction of one thing always results in the creation of something else
The one thing I've learned is death completely fucking gives up a finger
I guess I just never had the opportunity to confront that before but
Really changed how I think about things
so how does death violate the laws of nature
well think about it think about a human life
Think about the entire universe of thoughts and ideas and experiences and memories that are contained within just one person
Think about all the infinite potential of a single individual
think about all the social connections the family connections the interdependence in a society
think about the power of one person to affect others in the future in life in general
but then when you die It's like someone pulled the plug on a toaster, right?
yes, exactly
all that
And then a tiny bullet piece to some key location on your body
And it all just fucking vanishes instantaneously it's bullshit
Where did it all go?
You can't fuckin tell me that for every action
There's an equal and opposite reaction
Within the moment of death all of a person's decades of experience and love and abilities and interconnectedness just cease to exist
It doesn't even come close to making sense. It's bad writing
It's okay, right? To think about religion or whatever after going through something like that
Well, that's just it. I mean, I really started to see how the whole religion thing up started it's 10,000 BC
Life spans are brief some one mate dies from a fucking snake bite, and you're standing there
Watching someone's whole world vanish in an instant because of something so witless and random
Yeah, I'm guessing you're going to start thinking of some kind of way to make sense of it pretty damn quick
And then you'll probably get someone to write that shit down
New ideas in a foxhole is that how it goes
it's just did though
despite it all I'm still not religious
Religion is just what people used to explain things before we have the mechanical capability to explain it all properly
and now we can explain the tides and the seasons and the stars
and chicken soup
so if everything in religion has eventually had some equivalent in reality then
then what people thought of as the afterlife
Could also exist
It's just beyond our current scientific ability to determine it
So what would that look like I wonder
well having had weeks on my ass to think about it
I have an idea of what it would look like
Do you really?
So what differentiates us from other life on Earth?
Hats?
not hats
Other than hats
it's our ability to define nature, right? All other animals are locked into the natural balance of the ecosystem
But we're able to up doubt
What do we fear most?
death
What are we best at?
Breaking the rules
so we'll make heaven somehow
society exists to meet our needs
well we need most is to conquer death, so it logically follows that eventually we will
But not just death in the future
All death
Because all death throughout history has been just the bullshit
So what do you saying
I'm saying I pretty much now believe that to die is to find out if humanity ever conquer death
Because if we ever do conquer death we obviously use that power to save everyone who's ever died
If we can imagine it we can eventually build it
and I have to believe that in some distant future
We'll have invented a way to not only preserve consciousness
but to reach back in time
back to the moment of someone's death and rescue their consciousness as well
and transport it into the future to live on in infinity
everyone who's ever lived living still a thousand years from now
or 10,000 and man-made heaven analogous to what ancient people needed to invent for themselves to keep from going mad
to not lose hope and
so to die is to merely find out if humanity ever develops the technology
to define death and create a vast and infinite future that's the only possible proportionate reaction to millennia of people dying
the only possible equilibrium to thousands of pocket universes going silent every day of every year forever
That's what I'm saying. That's that i belive
Wow, you literally do believe all this?
I basically have to
How can I say death fucking makes you crazy
Near-Death anyway your time in hospital sure changed you huh?
Yeah it did
It's not my death that got me thinking about this though. It's my entire point
I don't think religion was born from a desperate desire to stay sane in the face of your own mortality
I wouldn't be sympathetic towards that if I thought it stemmed from love for yourself
I can accept my pointless random death
I don't get how your time in hospital change you then
It just did all right
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