And I know there's going to be somebody who says,
"You don't need make-up!
"You're so pretty without it!
You don't need it - why are you wearing it?"
I know - I'm not gonna die if I don't wear it but, um...
just let me.
[pencil writing]
[Pokemon game sound]
Hello and welcome back to the channel
and Vlogmas.
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I just ran over one or two of my toes,
trying to move this chair to here.
I'm in pain. So today I wanted to just sit down,
get ready, do my make-up,
before I film other videos for Vlogmas.
And just want to talk to you about my life, some updates,
things in general - why not?
So, I did this for Vlogmas last year.
That was the only time in a while that I did a make-up video
and I thought I'd do it again this year
because things have changed.
So, for my foundation,
I'm going to use the Too Faced Born This Way,
in the colour porcelain.
And I know there's going to be somebody who says,
"You don't need make-up!
"You're so pretty without it!
You don't need it - why are you wearing it?"
I know - I'm not gonna die if I don't wear it but, um...
just let me.
Normally when I'm doing my make-up,
I watch Samantha Ravndahl videos,
because she's, like,
my favourite make-up person on YouTube
but I'm not now, so this is weird.
By the way, you should go follow her if you don't.
Uh, she does not caption,
so if that's, like, 100% deal-breaker for you,
that's just something to consider.
But Sam, if you're watching this,
please consider captioning.
I have a $10...
Well, this is for everyone but
if you are considering captioning your videos,
and are willing to pay someone,
I do have an affiliate code down below.
It's a link and you can click on that
and get up to $10 off your first order with Rev.
So, if that's something you're interested in, there you go.
Concealer is Too Faced Born This Way
multi-use sculpting concealer, in porcelain
but I also, as, like, a highlighting thing on top,
I use the Born This Way Naturally Radiant.
Actually, I think I just bought these two at the same time,
because I wasn't sure about colour
and now I just kind of use them both together.
I have no idea how this is gonna look.
I don't know what this is gonna look like on camera.
I imagine that the lighting is gonna change up
the way my face looks. Anyways.
I've broken my YouTube curse.
If you follow me on social media,
I was whining for a while...
because I was going through a really bad YouTube curse
and I don't know if it was me or if it was the YouTube outage.
The aftermath of the YouTube outage, in case you're like,
"What the hell?"
Um, YouTube was down a couple of weeks ago.
YouTube was down for a couple of hours
and ever since then,
views and subs plummeted.
It was so bad and every time I would upload
and even a day or two after I'd upload,
I would be in the negative, in the red.
In terms of subscribers.
For so long, for, like, a month.
And I mean, that's normal, when I would upload.
Like, every once in a while, I would get that when I upload
but it was so consistent, so frequent that I was like,
"What the heck is going on?"
And my views were awful.
I mean, yeah, like, videos would go up to 1,000
but it would take, like, days to get there.
It was so bad.
And I didn't know if it was me -
I mean, for a while, I'd think it was me
and I was so down about it
and I was talking about it on social media
and I obviously talked about it in my 'Grateful' video.
So, that was a bummer
but I don't know - ever since the 'Grateful' video,
things have been, like, really good,
so I've been very happy about that.
I know I've been getting
a little bit of comments in that video...
where... yeah, people are kind of...
Or at least one person was getting down about me,
like, being down about that
and what-not.
But I think, what I hope people understand
is that it can be a real bummer
when you work so hard to do something
and then, like, it starts to fail for a while
and you don't know what's going on
and you try to ask people what they want.
You give them what they want but then it's still failing.
It's like, I don't know what it is, so...
I took a week off. I watched a lot of Roberto Blake.
I love Roberto.
So I was watching him and I was taking notes
and I was, once again, asking people what they wanted
and then I was thinking to myself,
"What do I want to do?
"What can I do to not only make viewers happy
but make me happy?"
Because, yeah, like, when you're a business,
when you're trying to do content to make others happy,
you also want to make yourself happy,
because if you can't make yourself happy, then...
you're gonna create content
that you could not be bothered to deal with, right?
So, yeah, I took about a week off
and tried to fix things, or whatever,
so I got a new set-up.
It's not really a new set-up - if you followed me years ago,
I was filming on this bed,
with a different camera and crappy lighting.
But now I've got a different camera
and I'm using natural light
and hopefully, it looks a little more personal.
Trying to move away from so much educational content,
or whatever,
and trying to do more personal, I guess, content,
or, like, less... "I am very stiff
and I'm giving you facts "videos,
which is basically the point of Vlogmas for me,
like, I can just chill.
Maybe I'll give you some educational videos
but at the same time, I want to chill
and, like, let go a little bit.
OK. That's, um...
Let's be honest - I have more eyeshadow than I actually need.
I have more make-up than I actually need.
I went through this bad thing where I was buying a bunch of...
I blame ColourPop, because they're so damn affordable.
So I got... I have a lot of eyeshadows now.
And somebody from my Twitch audience
bought me a new eyeshadow palette
so I'm gonna use that today.
But let me show you.
So, this is the Masquerade by Juvia's -
I don't know if I'm pronouncing that right.
The good thing about this, at least
when Micah gifted it to me,
is that it has a couple of neutrals
but also has a lot of colour.
When's the last time you saw me wear any colour on my eyeball?
So, to prime my eyes, I have the NYX Proof It!
This is waterproof eyeshadow primer.
So, yeah, I went through this whole,
"I'm gonna buy a bunch of make-up again now,"
like, I don't know - like, I suddenly started craving
make-up again
and then I realise now that I need to stop,
because I have too many.
I have too many eyeshadows and way more lip products
than I actually need.
So, I think on last year's Vlogmas
I showed my little quad that I got
from the Anastasia Black Friday sale.
I still have this. I haven't even hit pan on anything.
I'm almost to the pan on the gold shade but anyways...
So, when I've primed my eye, I take...
I take that, like, really light shade
and use that to... as the base for colour.
Once I'm done with Vlogmas, I want to take another week off
and then really think about what I want to do for 2019.
Try to... to try to spruce things up a bit
and change content,
'cause I've been watching some commentaries channels.
Angelika Oles? I'm not sure.
But there's been, like, the 'Road to Irrelevancy' videos.
You know, I see people make comments
about, like, people aren't changing their content
and they get bored and...
I mean, I'm not gonna lie -
I've been bored with my own content sometimes as well,
because, like, how much content can you make about deafness?
But remember, hi - also bisexual,
I could do more chronic pain videos,
more mental health videos.
Well, a lot of people said that they kind of shy away
from mental health videos sometimes,
because it's a little bit triggering,
which I also understand.
I know for April I want to dedicate
at least, like, two videos
to Child Awareness Month... Child Abuse Awareness Month,
because if you don't know, I dealt with that.
That's something that I want to make videos and eventually...
I don't want to completely stop,
like, educational, awareness type of content
but I do think that people also just want a mix.
Alright. So, it's Christmas.
It's almost Christmas - should I do green?
I'm scared, people. I'm scared. I have not...
So, what are you all doing for Christmas?
I'm not... I'm honestly not a holiday person.
I'm gonna make a video about that.
But I'm going to be going to Jersey.
And I'm gonna be there from the 23rd through January 3rd,
so I'm gonna spend New Year's
and Christmas with my boyfriend in Jersey.
I'm not sure exactly what all we're gonna do.
I know he wants to go to a concert,
uh, for someone that he really likes,
in Philadelphia, for New Year's,
so I guess we're gonna do that
but other than that, I'm not sure.
So, I'm gonna use this... This is called Mali.
It's green.
So, I'm excited about that. Uh, I'm leaving on the 23rd.
So I'm scared but I got a...
I'm leaving at, like... in the afternoon.
I'm gonna get there in the morning, so hopefully...
I figure the lines are gonna be long
but hopefully, because I'm gonna be there
a couple of hours early,
they won't be too bad.
Um, I still have not gotten TSA pre-check,
because I have to find my passport,
'cause they need, like, multiple documentation
and I can't find my brand-new
American citizenship papers, so...
I look like the Grinch right now.
I actually really only used this palette and,
like, my little quad.
Uh, so, I used Mali, which is the green
and then I used a little bit of...
Oh, yeah, so, I used the transition colour
that I had in here
and then I took a little bit of Burkina to darken things up
and then, in the inner corner,
I used the gold that I have in here.
And then on top, I used Giza.
"Guy-za"? I'm not sure how you pronounce that
but it's just a little highlight.
Who am I? Do you remember?
You know what? Comment down below if you are an O.G.,
if you were here for my make-up days.
I know there are a few people
but if you are specifically one of them watching right now,
leave a comment down below.
But you will remember, I think
even when I stopped doing make-up on YouTube
and I was still occasionally uploading,
like, really colourful looks to Instagram.
Now I'm just, "Uh, I don't wanna."
To be fair, I was barely wearing eyeshadow for a while
and I was just wearing, like, eyeliner and mascara.
So, OK. This is the NYX Epic Ink liner in black.
We're gonna do the wing that I'm known for
and people ask, "Rikki, how do you get your lines
to look like that?"
I atheist-pray and hope for the best
and sometimes it doesn't work.
So, I think I forgot to mention this but you know,
I do want to apologise
for any times when I've been consistently, like...
boo-hoo,
'cause I know not everybody likes to hear
or read that all the time.
I don't - I mean, if I wanted to do that,
I'd go watch a horror movie.
Or something.
But again, you know, it's the whole
trying to be authentic type of thing.
A perfect example I can think of
is Samantha Ravndahl, again, and Stephanie Lange...
Lange... I don't know.
She's another make-up person on YouTube.
And they both recently uploaded videos
about how viewers will want authenticity,
honesty and whatever
because viewers are getting tired of people, like,
always being sponsored
or lying about like this, or whatever,
or, like, faking happiness, or whatever,
so, you know, eventually they change,
or maybe they never change -
like, with Stephanie, she's always been like, "This is me."
So then, when, like, somebody would make
a change in personality
and be more honest and authentic -
which doesn't always come with positivity -
but then people got upset about that.
So it's kind of like, well, I don't know what...
or we don't know what to do,
because sometimes it's even the same people who are, you know,
going back and forth about that type of thing
and I think Nicola Foti also made a video
about fake positivity and what-not
and how people are wanting that for the cameras
but then people get mad when fake positivity happens
but then, when people show vulnerability,
people don't like that either
and it's just a struggle - it's like,
we don't know what you want.
So it sucks, 'cause you want to make people happy, right?
But here's the thing - you can't make everyone happy
and the more of a following you have,
the harder it's going to be.
Double shot on ice,
with two pumps of classic and coconut milk,
in case you're wondering.
So, now my next question is what is one thing
that you would want for Christmas?
Now I'm gonna take a little bit of Urban Decay 24/7 Glide-On
in 'perversion'.
Sexy face!
That's always a sexy face, isn't it?
Sexy mascara and eyeliner face.
Going for mascara. I have a sample-size or,
just a trial, whatever, size
of the Too Faced Better Than Sex mascara.
I've never wanted to pay full price
for such an expensive mascara until now.
I actually really like this. This is, like, $20
but I love the way that this makes my eyelashes look -
even if I don't wear eyeshadow and eyeliner,
this makes them look phenomenal.
So I'm gonna use a shade from the Kat Von D palette.
A mixture of these two,
for, like, the outside
and then I use something else for the rest.
In the comments, leave a weird little fun fact about you.
For me, I cannot drive with straight posture.
I cannot sit up straight and drive.
I've been noticing this about myself.
Instead of driving like this, I kind of drive like this,
like, slanted a little bit.
Then, like, I would notice it
and I would shift back straight
but then, somehow, I just ended up going back like this.
I don't understand what it is.
Alright. And then, for the rest of my brows,
hopefully I can clean this up a little bit.
This is the ColourPop Brow Boss Gel in dark brown.
Now we move on to the rest of the face,
'cause I'm looking a little pale.
I should shut up and drink this.
It's gonna get watered down so fast.
I have a couple of face products.
I only actually have one blush now.
Milani powder blush in blossom time rose.
This is pretty much the only one that I have and use.
OK. Well, I have... There's one that came in this
Oh Honey palette from Sugarpill.
I bought this as, like, an everyday travel palette.
So if I go anywhere, I could just have this,
because it has eyeshadows and blush and that's it.
For bronzer, I have Milani Baked Bronzer in Dulce.
I have the Anastasia So Hollywood.
I got this during, like, two years ago, Black Friday.
I have another one that I use, by Milani as well,
and I have a whole palette from Tarte,
because of Playlist gifting us stuff from Tarte.
But, um, so... yeah.
But I'm gonna use this, 'cause I have it with me.
So, first I like to start off with bronzer.
And I'm gonna use a different brush,
because that one's dirty.
So, work. What do you do as a job?
So, as you know, I do YouTube.
I write. I've been slacking on the writing.
I'm gonna try to...
That's one of the things I want to do for 2019,
is do better with that,
but because, like, Vlogmas videos take up so much time...
I do Twitch.
Basically, it's just a lot of, like,
self-employment, freelance,
tip-based stuff, you know?
But I also do public speaking.
VidCon, Playlist, -VidCon - please invite me next year. I missed...
I'm so sad that I didn't get to go this year
but hopefully next year.
And I go to colleges.
Colleges is where, like, it's paid work, so...
I finished up a presentation in Windsor,
University of Windsor, Ontario,
in Ontario, Canada,
and a presentation at the University of Iowa
and I'm pretty much not booked for anything now.
So if you would like to hire me for anything,
go to rikkipoynter.com
and I have a whole list of, like, topics I can talk about.
I'd really love to be able to do presentations on...
not deaf stuff -
that's pretty much all that I've been hired for
but on my list of things I can talk about,
I have, like, child abuse awareness,
mental health, chronic pain, like, disability in general.
So I have a list of stuff on my website -
child abuse awareness...
I can do sexuality, I can do mental health, what-not,
so I'd really like to be able to branch out in terms of that.
So I should probably reach out to people
but yeah, if you are interested in hiring me,
I could use the work
and it's something that I love to do.
Rikkipoynter.com. I have a contact form.
Now I'm gonna do highlighter.
Pretty much done, so let's take this down real quick, right.
I'm not sure what my hair is... OK. That's not too bad.
I bought Too Faced... Not Too Faced -
uh, Sugarpill products not long ago.
Here we go. Dainty. That's what I was thinking of.
I had Dainty and Truffle - those were the two that I bought
from, like, Sugarpill's High Tea collection,
or Tea collection, whatever.
So, this is just an everyday colour.
That's actually a really pretty colour. I really like that.
And they smell like creamsicle,
which is one of my favourite smells, so...
Alright. That's it.
I'm officially ready to go film other videos and...
Yeah. So, there's some updates on things going on
and just talking about stuff in general.
I hope you enjoyed this video.
Make-up might not be everybody's thing
but you know, which is why
I tried to incorporate just, you know,
talking about general stuff as well,
so that way, at least if you don't care about this part,
you might care about whatever's coming out of my mouth.
Again, thank you for watching.
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