(playful music)
- Hey, YouTube world.
It's me, Evelyn.
This footage is from June.
The cycle continues.
I stay in bed for three weeks,
randomly get the urge to film a vlog,
and then never edit it until now.
So let's make breakfast I guess.
I'll let June Evelyn take it from here.
(spring mix rustling)
(water running)
I be cutting stuff on my bare counter
and it's an apartment counter, you know what I mean?
Like I don't care.
(knife chopping)
And now we season the greens.
(bottles rattling)
Some vinegar, a little bit of olive oil.
This is sun-dried tomato, garlic, Parmesan olive oil.
I feel like it goes good with the chive and onion spread.
(bottle clanging) (top twisting)
Y'all can see my trash over there?
Damn, damn, we're keeping it too real.
Just a little splishy splash.
Just that.
Black pepper, garlic salt.
(pepper grinding)
(hands mixing)
Tasty.
Do I want that on top? No.
First, I want some tomato.
Then I want the greens.
Breakfast.
It is 12. (Evelyn chuckling)
And now for the beverage,
this is just some chai that I made in a batch.
Really strong.
I'm not a coffee drinker, so I'm also not a creamer user.
This is my first time buying creamer, like for myself.
And I figured maybe I need a little bit more flavor
in my iced chai.
When in doubt, if something doesn't taste store bought
like the store bought, it's 'cause there's not enough sugar.
Question, should I buy,
should I buy the little ice tray that makes the tiny ices?
Should I buy that?
Let me know.
(chai pouring)
(lid clattering)
(bottle shaking)
(creamer pouring) (ice cubes clinking)
Oh my God.
Breakfast is served.
♪ Yeah ♪
Have a bite.
Cheers.
(Evelyn slurping)
Oh God, that's disgusting.
I got cinnamon vanilla cream thinking like, oh, chai.
Cinnamon. Spice.
It tastes like if Little Debbie® cakes made churros.
It's giving low quality.
Low quality horchata.
(Evelyn slurping)
So I'm reading, skimming,
skimming this book called "The 12 Week Year."
I found a PDF, shout out,
so I don't have to buy it or check it out or nothing.
And basically, it's like a year is too long.
And so instead of doing that thing we all do
where we kind of rush at the end of the year,
the end of the end of the year is completely arbitrary.
Just make your year 12 weeks.
And like, if you follow what he say,
and try to apply it to your life,
you can not necessarily get more done, but weed out all
like the BS that you like put on your own plate.
It forces you to like decide what's actually important
because you don't have until December,
you have until whenever 12 weeks out is.
Anyway, I'm over halfway through.
I'm on like chapter, what is it? 16.
And I'm like taking notes.
It's cool, it's going.
It's, you know, it's going, but I don't know, man.
Like I'm at a crossroads.
Like I'm legit at a crossroads.
I've been at a crossroads for a while.
And
(Evelyn chuckling)
how many years can you be at a crossroads?
You know what I mean?
How many years can you be at a crossroads?
That's not a rhetorical question.
Go ahead. Go ahead, answer.
Go ahead. Gimme an answer if you've got one.
This summer, I celebrate four years
of being in business for myself.
It's really the four-year anniversary of having my LLC.
(Evelyn chuckling)
And just like these four years have not really been giving.
(Evelyn chuckling)
And wow, that's kind of like, it's disappointing.
So I'm basically trying
to combine multiple schools of thought
and make something that works for me personally.
The thing about like reading books and watching videos,
and listening to podcasts is you still have
to process the information and make it make sense for you.
This, seeing if it's helpful,
combining it with ADHD TikTok, seeing if that's helpful,
combining it with like The Nap Ministry, understanding rest.
And so like what if I incorporate,
like what if I listened to my body?
You know what I mean?
Do you know mean?
(Evelyn chuckling)
Editing Evelyn here.
Let me help her out.
Basically, I struggle to understand what I am doing ever.
The little things like when am I supposed to edit this vlog?
And the big things, like what is my career?
(Evelyn chuckling)
And I kind of touched on it
in a previous vlog, the super sad depressed one.
And I'll link it for your re-watching purposes.
But remember, in the timeline
of this footage that I've been going back and editing,
that super sad, depressed vlog hasn't happened yet.
That happens two months after the Evelyn you're watching
in this vlog right now.
So you've already kind of seen my rock bottom per se.
That's what I started with.
And then I've been going back
to like show you and me kind of what happened.
So you're watching me in this vlog try to self-help my way
out of the impending doom that I feel.
Does that clear things up?
(Evelyn chuckling)
I used to say that I'm inflexible.
Another way I would phrase it is like when it comes to work,
I don't know how to bounce back
but the more I was reading stuff and on social media,
the word that people seem to be using
is like struggling with transitions.
Like, I don't know in my brain,
don't know how to put one thing down
and begin another thing.
I also don't know how to start something on its own,
like to begin with.
And that's why I've been struggling.
I know sometimes in these vlogs it looks
like I'm here, there, like pow, pow, pow,
hitting it, hitting it, hitting it.
Between hitting it, hitting it, hitting it,
it could be hours of just like aimlessly
not really understanding how to go to the next task.
You know what I'm saying?
But that's not cute to vlog.
(Evelyn chuckling)
But there have been some really
like valuable tips and like reframes,
like just reframing the way you think or trying to anyway,
seeing if it works for me, rather. Yeah.
(Evelyn chuckling)
(pages turning) (hand slapping)
(pages turning)
(Evelyn sighing) (Evelyn drinking)
Hello, it is now Wednesday and I have a pitch presentation.
I'm making a pitch here in about 45 minutes.
So I'm showered.
That was a struggle in and of itself.
I have my water, I have a cup that makes me happy.
I'm feeling pretty, you know what I'm saying?
My pants are pink and now I'm looking through my slides,
practicing what I say, da da da da da da da.
Anyway, so this pitch is actually the second round.
The first round I had to send in my initial pitch.
Then the agency, the advertising agency gave me feedback
and then technical difficulties, had to change platforms.
Now I'm on Google Slides.
I made my presentation in Canva.
Google Slides took me, I tracked my time, took me
from 8 PM to 5:30 AM
to put everything that I had made
in Canva into Google Slides to make it make sense.
And I added a bunch of things.
I incorporated the agency's feedback.
And so today's the day
where I verbally pitch the actual brand or client.
So yeah, it's just for a video series,
three-part video series.
And if I get it, you'll see it happening some time
in the late summer, early fall.
And if I don't get it, forget this ever happened.
(imitating a laser)
Men in Black - (imitating a laser)
In case you're curious,
some things that people ask for in pitches is why you?
What's your connection to either this brand
or this message or this audience or demographic?
Another thing they usually ask is like,
what's your experience making your idea?
Like have you made it before?
If you're pitching a short film,
have you made a short film?
If you do nail art and you're pitching
like you're gonna do like a TikTok time lapse
of like some fan nail art, have you, like, do you do nails?
Like what's your experience?
Give us some examples.
And then they just want you to talk
about your idea thoroughly in a way that shows
that you are excited about it,
and in a way that they can understand.
So I don't know if you have any questions.
(Evelyn chuckling at the phone)
If you have any questions, I guess let me know.
I haven't been the best about getting
in the comments section after the fact,
but I'ma work on it.
What else before I go?
Ooh, I showered. Ooh, I ate breakfast.
I answered my text messages.
Look at me.
Okay, we're making progress.
I'm gonna start practicing
like running through the presentation
and I'll be back to tell y'all how I feel like it went.
(Evelyn exhaling)
Woo.
(Evelyn chuckling)
Hmmm. Mmhm!
Yep, yep.
Just left the meeting.
My stomach was feeling like a bunch of SpaghettiOs.
Okay. Betty spaghetti.
(Evelyn chuckling)
I think it went well.
The hardest part is answering questions
after the fact because I don't know what I'm talking about.
I dunno what I'm talking about.
But the thing about me, one thing
about me is I don't know what I'm talking about
but I will figure out what I'm talking about
as the process goes along.
That really speaks to, you know what I'm saying,
my journalistic background, if you will, if you'll recall.
That's what I went to college for.
Sorry, the adrenaline is like seeping into my bloodstream.
(Evelyn exhaling) (paper slapping)
Cross that off the list.
(pen scratching)
I have other things I need to do today
but I'm gonna take a break.
I'm gonna take a break.
(jazz music) (Evelyn eating)
(glass banging)
(drink shaking)
(ice clinking)
(can open) (drink pouring)
(stirring sound)
Refreshing.
Fruity, not too sweet.
(ice clinking)
This good.
(jazz music ends)