Let me just address I'm not sorry at all for wearing my pajamas in today's video. Hello Bidgets,
my name is Fredduccine Alfredo because that is the name of my Twitter and that is a perfect segway to today's video because I
Wanted to paint, but I also wanted to talk to you guys because I feel like this year
I want to be more honest and college Frederic currently gives no fucks and he will probably regret this in four years
So I asked you guys on Twitter
No, I'm not sick. I'm just telling you to follow me on Twitter. Hey, that was honest
We're off to a great start
I asked you guys on Twitter to send me any question as long as it'll stay monetized
And I said, I would answer them honestly with no filter because I don't give a shit
I'm also working on this big-ass
Painting and this is like my third day working on it because I'm a slow painter and this is a pain in my ass
So this is a pain with me video and a Q&A. So I guess you can call this a q and paint? that was
Terrible! if you are very smart and a hardcore gamer, you'll know what I'm painting
But I'm not gonna focus on the painting. This is about the question
So let's start answering some and let me get my paint out. What is the number one thing you won't do as a youtuber?
Hey, so I realized that making this video I couldn't say everything
I wanted to say so I pinned a something in the comment section that has all my opinions if you want to take the time
To read that. Okay. Bye. I'll never become part of the beauty community. 1) i'm already beautiful
So I don't need the community to tell me and 2) I don't like them
I don't like any of them anymore
And I know everyone always asked for another youtubers opinion on other youtubers
Even though it doesn't matter and I'm not gonna expose anyone's name because I don't care to name them
But I just have a really big problem with youtubers who
Manipulate their audience in a bad way. Every youtuber is manipulative and that's not necessarily a bad thing
I know the word always has a negative connotation to it
but if you think about it manipulating can just be
Getting you to do something that we want you. Youtubers do it every day by making a good looking thumbnail, a good title
Saying merch is limited editions so you get to buy it faster, even though it comes back every other month, you know that stuff
is like ok. No one cares because it's our job to do that. It's my job to entertain you guys
Yeah, I have to make a good title in video
It's not gonna be watching me piss on a toilet for two hours straight. Well, some people would want to watch that
Don't get any ideas and let me have my opinion you can get offended
I don't care but just respect my opinion. I think most of you are sane to understand where I'm coming from
there are some people in the beauty community, who are
so far up their own ass and on the social hierarchy list that they just think that they're
Untouchable, no one can have a bad opinion on them without getting paid, which to me is very ironic because those are the same people
Who say in the comments like
"everyone gets so offended" and then they too get offended at another person's opinion. hypocrisy is everywhere basically, but I don't know those big youtubers
it's just I don't like the fact that they
Force themselves to be relatable. I understand the appeal of being relatable
I mean everyone likes to be relatable; to an extent every youtuber has to be relatable
In order to get the following they want but you can be relatable based on your personality and your hobbies
But when you force it by saying things that are complete lies
I just wonder like how stupid do you think your audience? is a good majority people on YouTube are naive because
They're very young. A lot of us are very young. I was just as naive when I was little watching other youtubers, too
And then I stopped following them because I realized they were dicks. I just don't see how beauty influencers
"influencers" are
Relatable anymore
like is a beauty guru really relatable if they complain about being poor and
they're a millionaire? how many people watching them are also in that same situation? how many get
Millions of makeup products every day? That's not the average person and I'm not saying you can't be relatable
Once you're a big youtuber, just watch jenna Marbles for god sakes
it's her personality and what she does that makes her relatable. It's her genuineness, not the act that they put on YouTube because a lot
of youtubers have to put on an act. We're all personalities
We have elevated versions or we can make our own versions of ourselves that we want to show to the audience
That's just my two cents on it. I mean, I'm very
Opinionated on that stuff. It's one of the few things
I don't like about youtubers, but I know at the end of the day, most people don't care and they're not gonna be canceled anyways
Because they are untouchable. Let's just go on to the next question
Hobby you want to pursue? I have told you guys I wanted to go into animation and still working on that
I don't think I'll become an animation channel, but I do want to do it because it's always been like that hobby
I can never pursue and you know?
What do you want to accomplish this decade? that is asking a lot because at the end of this decade
I'll be almost 30 and I still don't consider myself adult yet, but get my own apartment, have a boyfriend
I don't have to be married. I just want to be able to have someone before I turn 30 or else I will
Freak out. I've been working on this one place for so long. I'm sorry. I'm trying to paint grass. Okay
I pray I have a good job by the time I'm 30
I want to graduate college and I just want to be happy. I mean, that's my main goal
I don't like the idea of setting all these expectations because I'm just gonna I'm not gonna go through all of them
Let's face it and I'll just be disappointed at the end
So if I have low expectations, I don't have to get disappointed by anything
I also want to study hand in the next 10 years. What made you want to do Youtube?
to anyone who's watched my live streams in the past I've talked about this and that's kind of why I'm doing this video because
I don't really do live streams anymore
But I originally started YouTube because I had to move from South Carolina to New Jersey and I didn't want to move
Because I had a great friend group and I didn't want to lose that
And I knew youtubers could make money
So I was like what if I can get famous in six months and be able to pay for
The house and my parents so we don't have to move anywhere?
that obviously didn't work out but then it made me realize I love doing
YouTube videos so I kept going with it
And now I want to say my purpose for doing YouTube is to be a role model
I never had growing up because there was never a Gaysian on
the internet and you guys tell me that I inspire you to come out and that's just that makes me happy at the end of the day
Lets me know I did my job. What was your biggest high school memory that you'll cherish for a long time?
Well, that was only a year ago, and I don't really have many good high school memories if I think about it
I love college so much more but my favorite one
I want to say being able to talk to my assistant principal about anything. every experience with him and my other teachers were-- they'd help
Me to this day
It wasn't some pep rally or high school party that I'm gonna love forever because I wasn't invited to those anyways
how does it feel to actually grow up and realize you're not a kid anymore?
Well, I hate you for telling me I'm not a kid. How dare you? I think I realized
I was an adult when someone told me they only knew Teen Titans go and not the original and I was like goddamn
Gen Z is fucked and I know I'm part of it but I'm your elder
I am an OG Gen Z and you will watch Teen Titans and not the new one on Cartoon Network because Jesus Christ
That's a terrible show, but I like growing up
I like being able to be independent and have my own life in New York and I love being at home too
Like I still like being a kid.
What is something people in your fanbse do that you wish they didn't?
Oh, I don't want to generalize my own fan base cuz I love the majority of you guys
but always there's that 1% that no one likes. people who always compare me to other
Kpop people or just compare me in general-- it diminishes my idea of myself cuz I start to think are you watching me
Because I'm me or are you watching me because I'm someone else? and I think that's the biggest thing is I don't want people who watch
Me for one thing. I don't want to be known as the piano guy, the guy who painted his shoes
I don't want to be known for a specific thing. I'd rather be known for who I am as a person
oh and stop asking me about kpop cuz you guys know my opinion. what something new you learned and never want to forget? the
Piano.
how is school going for you? And how is dorm life? college is really fun. I
Love my classes and I love my major. My dorm life could be better
I don't have the best roommates, but they are tolerable
I'll probably make a video about my rooming situation in the future once I'm not a freshman
What's the perfect guy like to you? someone who isn't
Surface level. if you think you're hot and that's all you use to get followers good for you, but you won't get my follow
I just want someone who has a lot of
You know, things to them. someone interesting, but I'm also not looking for anyone at the moment because I want to focus on YouTube
So and I think I've always said the perfect guy
Is someone who's passionate. just something I want people who are motivated because they help me stay motivated
Like I'm allowed to sulk in bed and watch friends all day, but you have to get me out of bed
What do youtubers are you subscribed to? Over over 500 channels, I think?
but if there's anyone that you should watch it's jenna Marbles because she is still the best one in my opinion
who's my favorite artist? if you can't tell this is pixel art, and it's goddamn annoying
Because I had to draw all these squares. My favorite artist is
You know, I forgot the name but lately it's this guy on Instagram. I'll just put post-it right here, by the way
I have an art account now called that digital Asian because some bitch took that drawing Asian and I'm gonna
Find them. what song would you have your cremated remains pressed into a vinyl of? personally,
I want to turn into a tree
I want to be infused into a tree seed and my children can help me once I grow up but a if i had to choose one song, it
Would be look-alike by Conan gray and that might be what you meant by artist
He's also my favorite artist at the moment
If I are the power to change one thing about the world, what would it be? I wish people could stop being selfish
That is one of the biggest downfalls for humans in general and everyone including your favorite youtubers believe it or not
We are all guilty of being selfish and then that doesn't have to be a bad thing
It's okay to be selfish, but when you have millions of dollars
I would expect you to use it and not let it grow in a bank forever
No one cares about your trust fund Sarah helped out the other side of the world because your child isn't even born yet
That's not targeted towards anyone. I'm just rambling. What has been the biggest obstacle
You've had to face for YouTube and college career? for YouTube it is myself
I had a really bad impostor syndrome and I kind of got it back towards the end of the year
but it always held me back doing YouTube because I would always doubt myself and it's the reason why I'm still insecure about whether or
Not I can make this my job because fun fact not every youtubers a millionaire. I still have college debt
Oh, yeah
That'll definitely be something I have to get over eventually because having that doubt making every video is not healthy and don't worry
I'm working on it. for college I'd say it is finding people who like me for me
I had a dating app at some point and
one of the first people who I matched with actually recognize me from YouTube and it just it ruins it like
so fast because you know something about me and I know nothing about you and I can't have a conversation because it'll be like
Hey, what's your favorite color? Oh, mine's blue. Oh, I know yours is yellow too. Is there even a point of me being here?
I just know that a lot of people will be friends with youtubers for the sake of the status which
Stop that grow up already you care about my following more than I care this point
I just want to find genuine friends and I did find them already
But I was definitely paranoid going into college thinking that I would not be friends with anyone. Am I happy? Yeah
I'm pretty happy right now. How do you prevent yourself from catching feelings when you aren't ready to love again? This is a tip
I learned from friends. focus on the person you like really picture them in your mind
and then just think about
Something that you hate about them and just constantly focus on that part until you eventually don't like them
But I don't think you should focus too hard on preventing because you kind of I don't think you can stop
How your heart feels just let yourself feel that way that's part of life. advice on making new friends and social life?
This is not directed towards you, it's directed towards specifically people on Twitter. instead of spending hours online
Complaining about not having friends, DM some people goddamn it. Do you realize how many communities are on Twitter?
And how many people are just like you searching the web for online friends?
I have done that to several people and I've gotten read from a double text. It's not the end of the world
You're not gonna be embarrassed for the rest of your life
It's how adults have to become friends you just have to act on it
Now if you have social anxiety, that's a different story
But it's still getting in the right mindset. But complaining for hours on Twitter will not help you get a friend
Why did the saying "looks can be deceiving" really hit home? Sorry, but the beauty community, really targeting them today
It may look pretty on Instagram, but they're ugly on the inside. your thoughts on YouTube and how animators are in the platform
I'm not gonna focus on YouTube because I can talk about it forever. My final essay was like a YouTube burn book
So let's just talk about animators. I like them and I'm talking storytime animator specifically not the meme
Animations. I don't even know why they're called meme stuff
I've seen the memes before and I like some of them but why are most of them edgy?
Okay, I don't like that. I don't want to see blood and gore on every single video. I want to see happy cute things
Oh and one thing that bugs me is when the whole animation is just a head bobbing. Who's the rudest youtuber I've ever met
Well, good thing is I've never met any youtubers in real life
How do you get over someone? you can try your best but sometimes you don't all it takes is time
My friends have said it before and I didn't believe them but now I do
Time is the biggest factor and be patient because it took me two years to get over someone
What are my major complaints about YouTube and being a youtuber yourself?
my major complaint YouTube is how
unstable it is as a job for me at least because it's not reliable as much as I like being a youtuber because it is
A lot of freedom for me. It's not a stable job. There's a lot of risks to doing it
Whereas if you work, you know a regular traditional job, like i was a cashier, that was consistent. on YouTube
It's like playing the Wheel of Fortune every day
Which youtuber would you like to collaborate with and what would you like to do in the collab as of right now?
I will only collab with Jordan Cunningham
just because I'm his friend. He is the only person on YouTube that I have talked to and I don't want to collab with someone for the
Sake of gaining their fan base or you know getting more subscribers
That's why I only show my friends on this channel and not other youtubers
But I don't like it when youtubers collab with each other and they're basically strangers
It's kind of obvious that it's fake and I rather have a genuine friend than have a good video with a famous youtuber
Have you ever thought about quitting YouTube at some point? Yeah, A lot. A lot. I always think about it, but I could never leave
You guys like you made me and we have this great community. I don't want to just ditch that. I love making videos
So I don't plan on leaving. How does one obtain confidence? one obtains confidence through themselves. Is it hard?
Yeah, is it possible for everyone? Yes, I think it's the less fucks I gave about life the more confident I became with myself
I would stopped caring about
Captions on Instagram. they will talk about editing a photo for hours and I I can't do that
It's not worth my time and like there's two types of confidence
Like are you confident with your body or are you confident just as a person and I used to be insecure with my body a lot
That's right. Youtubers have feelings too and I know Instagram is a big reason for that. Don't compare yourself to
Models on instagram because first of all it's probably face tuned and second of all the standard for beauty is not healthy
an average person is not gonna have a
23 inch waist you know
It's like I'm following you what to feel bad about myself? hardest part about college that isn't usually talked about
I'm not gonna say this because I haven't been through all four years of college yet
I'll just talk about this in terms of high school
popularity in high school is one of the
stupidest things to exist and I'm gonna tell you right now don't care about being popular in high school because
There's no point in it. I went to college with the intent of getting a fresh start
But some people I know from high school carried their high school experience into their first year
And we're just still a senior in high school if that makes sense
They didn't mature in any way
If anything they just acted the same toxic stuff, and if you refuse to let yourself grow well, have fun in the real world
Where no one cares what SAT you got,
how good you are at lacrosse and how attractive your boyfriend is. what are some of the biggest mistakes that I've learned from?
one of the things I've always done as a kid is
borrow my feelings
And my friends can tell me an indefinite amount of times to stop and I probably won't another mistake
I made was dating guys another mistake
I made was buying a 24 by 24 inch canvas thinking I could do it in one day. Fuck this painting.
how do you let go of a toxic friend who only hurts you and makes you feel like the worst person ever? when trying to
Think about this like a few years back when I would still make excuses for people just reread what you just said
Is that worth it for a friend? a "friend"?
You will find a better friend than that. And I think I just told myself "Frederic, Stop being a goddamn pushover, you're weak
Stop being weak." And now if I find a toxic friend, and I don't like a bitch then
I got blocked by someone the other day and I was so happy to be blocked by them. I don't tolerate bullshit
Alright, so sorry my painting looks terrible. It'll look better once it's done
I'm just taking my goddamn time with it. But those are most of the questions you gave me
I didn't answer all of them because some were repeats some were just
Not intriguing questions to me. Hopefully this helps some of you and if you're still watching me
Thank you for having a good attention span
But until then if you enjoy this video give it a like leave a comment down below about what you want me to do next
I want your opinion on all the things I said - I like criticism. I like to hear other people's sides
So go ahead and leave those and subscribe for more videos every week
Alright, let's read a coming out story. if you're new here
I read coming out story at the end of every video just to inspire you to come out and be yourself and they're always anonymous
So here we go
I was on a day out for my friend's birthday and we got to the person's house and I got a text saying hi
I don't know how tell you this but someone has been saying some really effed up shit
Then they proceeded to send me screenshots of saying that I'm the gayest man ever
So I was like hashtag panic attack and my friends who I was all out to were supporting me
I called my sister and then came out to her after seven months of knowing that I am bi she took it really well the
next day
My sister talked to me and told me that if I wanted to sort out this mess then I would needed to come out to
Them so with a lot of courage
I went downstairs and came out. the mess was sorted out and I am now out and happy as ever
Don't let people bully you. thank you for sharing your story. And as always I love you guys and everything is less than three