I,
feel like I failed Vlogmas.
(scratching)
(upbeat chiptunes music)
Hello, and welcome back to the the channel
and Vlogmas, I'm not sure what day we're on
'cause I stopped making them into days
and I'll get more into that, but yeah.
Today, I want to talk about,
YouTube creator burnout,
more specifically, during Vlogmas.
So, last year in Vlogmas, I didn't really prepare
the way that I would have liked.
I-
There were a lot of times when I was filming
last minute videos, mostly they would be in ASL
because it was just easier to film, do a transcript
real quick and then upload it.
Now, when I do ASL videos, I always have to do a voiceover
so that takes up a lot more time,
a lot more saving and rendering and re-uploading.
It's a whole new process adding in the voiceovers,
but yeah, so I did that, I did a lot of last-minute filming,
a lot of last minute editing,
and a lot of just running around trying to figure out
what I could do in terms of videos and whatnot,
and then in January, I made a video talking
about whether I could be a daily vlogger or not.
The answer is no.
(laughing) It just wouldn't work,
because of the fact that I do captioning on my videos,
there's just no way to get that kind of stuff up on time
and I sit around all day and work from home.
I'm not that exciting, let's be honest.
So, fast forward to this year for Vlogmas,
and I wanted to do it again, of course,
but I wanted to do it better, I wanted to prep better,
I wanted to just get everything done ahead of time.
I wanted to be at least a week, preferably two weeks
ahead of time, and in November, I wanted to start
writing out a list of video ideas.
I wanted to go on my Google calendar
and put them in their own designated, like, day
on the calendar, and I wanted to get so much filmed
ahead of time, edited, and just so I could send it off
to either Rev or Ai-Media to get it captioned
and have it ready to go.
It went pretty well for the first week of Vlogmas
'cause I started filming at the end of November.
Ideally, I should have maybe done it about a week
earlier than that,
especially because I was taking a week off,
that time in November, but I didn't,
and, but, you know, still, I was able
to get that first batch of videos up,
and then after that, it all kind of just went down.
Eventually, I would be able to batch record
a whole lot of videos, a couple of days' worth, at least,
but then instead of trying to balance filming and editing,
I just kept focusing on filming, and really,
I should have found a balance between filming and editing,
because oftentimes, then, I would try to rush to editing
and then I would take to long, and then I would try
to send it off to get captioned
and then it wouldn't get captioned in time,
so then I'd have to go and send it off to somebody else,
and it was all just a mess, and I would get paranoid,
but then also, mental health happened,
and appointments happened, you know,
I had a dentist appointment and that,
when there were days that I would wanna film,
I had a dentist appointment because that's just,
that's what they had available, so that threw me off,
and then, really personal things happened
that screwed up my mental health,
and then I just didn't wanna film.
I mean, I really wanted to film,
but I couldn't get myself to film, you know.
If you've got depression and whatnot,
you get what I'm saying.
And then I did end up missing a day
because I tried to upload but it took two hours
to upload, it was my speaking engagement video
that's already live, but after two hours of uploading,
it failed because I forgot to delete the original upload
that I had unlisted to send off to get captioned,
and I had a 12 hour stream that day,
and I couldn't upload and stream at the same time.
It was going to lag so hard, so I skipped a video.
Then a couple of days later, I had a video,
made it private because it was,
it was a pretty bad video to put up and there was that,
so I just kind of felt like a failure,
and then I didn't have anything else filmed.
Not only did I not have anything else filmed,
but I couldn't think of what to film.
I did have other ideas, but they required outlining,
scripting, going out and filming,
and I just felt like these were videos
that I didn't want to put into Vlogmas,
'cause I didn't want them to get covered up
by my other Vlogmas videos,
by everyone else's Vlogmas videos.
These were the kind of videos that I thought,
if I really gave it a chance,
maybe they would do really really well,
but I don't think they're gonna do well during Vlogmas
because nobody's able to keep up
with all the Vlogmas videos in their sub boxes,
because there's so much, right?
I did not want to risk that with the type of videos
that I have in mind, so then I just couldn't think
of anything else to film, because I wanted something
that I wanted to film, but I also wanted something
that would interest you all, so part of me was starting
to think, maybe I should just quit Vlogmas,
just stop it because it's failing now at this point.
But now, we're only a couple of days away,
and here I am, batch recording, and I want to finish it.
I think there are gonna be some days that I might skip,
for example, Sunday the 23rd because it's a travel day,
but I think what I'll end up doing is,
even if I can't do Vlogmas exactly the way
that it's supposed to be,
I might go back to my regular upload days, after the 25th,
so, Mondays and Thursdays, yeah.
So, the two times a week video type of things
and finish off Vlogmas that way.
So yeah, long story short, I wanted to do Vlogmas
better this year, but, I got,
things just got a little carried away,
and I unfortunately couldn't make it happen
the way that I wanted, but, that's okay.
I cannot, nobody should beat themselves up
if things get a little bit out of their control
and they can't finish a goal that they wanted to finish.
It sucks when you can't, but it's not gonna be
the end of the world, and at the end of the day,
you don't wanna stress yourself out even more
because when you stress yourself out,
it's not good for your body, bad things happen,
so let's not go there, right?
So I think that this is going to be the last video
for Vlogmas except for maybe if I'm doing a video
about a present that I made, but regardless
of what day that this goes up, I do hope
that you enjoyed this month worth of videos,
this month's catalog of videos.
I had a really great time, despite little bumps
in the middle of the road here and there.
I really did enjoy doing it, and next year,
I'm still gonna try to do it better, to prep better,
and whatnot.
I'm going to try to do that a month ahead of time. (laughs)
But you know what, we definitely have to bring this hat back
at least, right, you know, this cute little Pikachu hat.
I love it, I love it so much!
But yeah, if this video goes up, say, on the 25th
or whatever, let me know how your holidays were,
even if you celebrated Hanukkah, I don't care.
Let me know and I think Kwanzaa's happening after this,
so you can let me know what you're doing for Kwanzaa,
if that's something that you celebrate.
I'll be honest, I don't know a whole lot
about those two holidays, but you know what?
You're more than welcome to educate me, if you want to.
I know I can Google.
Conversation, right?
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