Castiel: Let me tell you my story
Castiel: Let me tell you everything.
♫No one knows what it's like♫ Castiel: I'm not, uh,
♫to be the bad man, ♫ Castiel: hammer as you say
Castiel: I have questions, I
♫To be the sad man, ♫ Castiel: I have doubts,
♫Behind blue eyes♫ Castiel: i don't know what is right and what is wrong anymore.
♫And no one knows what it's like, ♫ Castiel: Dean. Dean: We're done.
♫To be hated,♫
♫To be fated,♫
♫To telling only lies.♫
♫But my dreams,♫
♫They aren't as empty♫ Crowley: You know what I see here?
♫They aren't as empty♫ Crowley: The new god,
Crowley: and the new devil working together
♫As my conscience seems to be.♫
Castiel: I can't turn back now,
Castiel: I can't.
♫I have hours, ♫ Dean: It's not too late, dammit Cas we can fix this!
Castiel: Dean! it's not broken.
♫Only lonely,♫
Castiel: I was convinced I was on this righteous path,
♫My love is vengeance,♫
♫But never free♫ Castiel: Now I realise there is no righteous path
♫But never free♫ Castiel: Its just people trying to do their best in a world where it's far too easy to do your worst.
♫Discover♫
When I was... bad...
and I had all those things writhing inside me...
I caused a lot of suffering on earth, but I devastated Heaven. I vaporised thousands of my own kind
Dean: Nobody cares that your broken Cas, clean up your mess!
Castiel: I pulled away, nothing you could have done would have saved me, because I didn't want to be saved.
Naomi: You're the famous spanner in the works,
Naomi: Honestly, I think you came off the line with a crack in your chassis,.
Castiel: I thought I was doing the right thing.
♫No one knows what it's like♫ Dean: Yeah, you always do.
♫To feel these feelings, ♫ Castiel: Metatron, he - he took my grace.
♫Like I do♫
♫And I blame you, ♫ Castiel: I was human.
Castiel: Leaving nothing but freedom and choice.
♫No one bites back as hard, on their anger♫
Castiel: So why this confusion?
♫None of my pain woes♫ Castiel: which feels like it's … a hair's breadth from
Castiel: Terror or pain
♫Can't show through♫
Castiel: You know, just when you think you do understand, it'll turn out you're wrong.
♫But my dreams, they aren't as empty♫ Dean: You can't stay
♫But my dreams, they aren't as empty♫ Castiel: You didn't understand anything at all.
Ephraim: It'll be over soon, I'll take the pain away.
♫As my conscience seems to be.♫ Castiel: I want to live.
♫As my conscience seems to be.♫ Ephraim: but as what Castiel? An angel or a man?
♫I have hours, ♫ Castiel: I did what I had to...
♫I have hours,♫
Castiel: Became what they become.
♫Only Lonely♫
♫My love is vengeance ♫ Castiel: And got my grace back
♫That's never free♫ Bartholomew: What you now? A penitent?
Castiel: I'm nothing.
♫Discover♫
Claire: You changed.
The Castiel I met, he was crappy, like super stuck-up and a dick and you just wanted to punch him in his stupid angel face.
And now you're just, I dunno, nicer.
Castiel: You are human now, and I can crush you like a bug.
Metatron: You could, but you won't.
Metatron: think I didn't notice?
Metatron: You are broken Castiel,
Metatron: I don't know what it was that happened,
Metatron: but what ever it was, you are scared.
Castiel: You think I'm afraid to die?
Amara: I know you are.
Amara: You reek of fear and self loathing
♫No one knows what it's like to be the bad man,♫
♫No one knows what it's like to be the bad man, ♫ Castiel: Just do it.
♫To be the sad man, ♫ Amara: Blue eyes, you aren't worth the effort.
♫Behind blue eyes♫
♫Behind blue eyes♫ Castiel: Why Hannah?
♫And no one knows what it's like to be hated, ♫ Castiel: We were friends
♫And no one knows what it's like to be hated, ♫ Hannah: The other angels, they hate you.
♫And no one knows what it's like to be hated, ♫ Castiel: And what about you, do you hate me?
♫to be fated♫
Angel: That's far enough Castiel.
♫To telling only lies, ♫ Castiel: Excuse me?
♫To telling only lies, ♫ Angel: I have orders, you aren't allowed up stairs.
♫But my dreams, aren't as empty, ♫ Castiel: After all I've done for you.
♫But my dreams, aren't as empty, ♫ Hannah: I'm sorry.
♫But my dreams, aren't as empty, ♫ Castiel: You should be.
♫As my conscience seems to be. ♫ Castiel: I don't believe I'm welcome in heaven.
♫As my conscience seems to be. ♫ Kelvin: No, you're not. They still hold a lot of grudges up there.
Kelvin: But what if I told you, you could come back?
♫I have hours, only lonely, ♫ Kelvin: That all your sins could be forgotten?
♫I have hours, only lonely, ♫ Kelvin: You help us track down Kelly Kline, and you will be welcomed back into the fold.
♫My love is vengeance, that's never free♫ Kelvin: wouldn't it be better to have us waiting in the proverbial wings? All the power of Heaven behind you?
Castiel: I was so full of mission,
Castiel: Hiding, lying
♫No one knows what it's like, ♫ Castiel: I'm ending this once and for all,
♫To feel mistreated, ♫ Castiel: Kelly and her baby have to die.
♫To be defeated,♫
Castiel: You know, old me,
♫Behind blue eyes, ♫ Castiel: Would have just kept going,
Castiel: 'cause the ends always justified the means.
♫No one knows how to say, ♫ Castiel: 'cause the ends always justified the means.
Castiel: But what i went through...
♫that they're sorry,♫
Castiel: I saw the future.
♫And don't worry, ♫ Castiel: and I knew what i had to do next.
♫I'm not telling lies, ♫ Castiel: This child must be born, with all of his powers.
♫But my dreams, they aren't as empty♫ Castiel: I saw a world without pain or hunger or want.
♫As my conscience seems to be,♫ Castiel: And it is a world without fear and without suffering and without hate.
♫I have hours,♫
Castiel: I saw paradise.
♫Only lonely,♫ Castiel: I just wanted, I needed
♫my love in vengeance, ♫ Castiel: To come back with a win for you.
♫that's never free,♫ Dean: No!
Castiel: So, that's everything, I believe it's what you would call a tragedy from the human perspective.
♫No one knows what it's like, to the bad man♫
♫To be the sad man♫
♫Behind blue eyes♫ Castiel: but maybe the human perspective is, limited, I don't know.