hey guys welcome to a new vlog
so as you guys know i have been on a weight loss journey hi
so what i'm about to show you is really hard for me i just want to have this on youtube for myself
for you guys to share my progress and i want to inspire and motivate other people to just
push harder obviously don't do anything on your limits but i noticed that i am so much stronger
than i give myself credit for i have been trying to walk more recently and i'm trying to build my
stamina what you see right now is me walking up and down a flight of stairs six times it's crazy
to be doing that and it is such a surreal feeling for me
because just a couple years ago i documented me walking for only a minute and like 13 seconds and
my breathing was horrible i was so embarrassed and so ashamed and in that moment i truly thought that
this was it this was my life this is how i'm going to be forever bed bound there were times
where i tried to convince myself my delusional self that i wasn't been bound but honestly if
you can only walk for a minute at the size that you are then that is a version of bedbound and
of course there's that famous tree video that i've done where i walk to the tree and i could
only walk for two minutes and 19 seconds it was so hard but now i can walk for 30 minutes yes i'm out
of breath but the fact that i'm able to do it is so mind-blowing to me while doing these stairs i
had someone really close to me rooting for me and i think that has helped a lot but i think what was
amazing is that i was rooting for myself you can start to tell that i start to get a little slower
and i am breathing a little harder i am taking a little bit of like a breather in between each
flight you know what i'm not gonna lie when i do these stairs i wanna stop after the second one
and then i tell myself okay one more usually my goal is four but somehow i always end up
doing six this is where i'm like wow my body is so much stronger than i give myself credit for
i will never do anything to put myself in a damaging situation like i feel my body i know
my body i would never force my body to do anything that could possibly hurt me when it comes to like
exercising y'all just going from only being able to walk for one minute to doing six flights of
stairs is just really really empowering it is such a satisfying feeling to know that i did this for
a lot of people watching six flights of stairs is easy breezy for y'all but two years ago i couldn't
even walk up two steps like literal two stairs i could not do it and now all of these stairs
multiply that by six i will admit that watching this clip back was very very hard for me i cried
i've never really seen my body in this type of way before i never realized how big i truly was so
a lot of crying did happen i didn't want to post this but i feel like by posting it it's only going
to do more good for me i want to remember this moment i want you guys to remember this moment am
i embarrassed yes am i ashamed yes but am i proud abso freaking lutely so i just got on the shower
and i wanted to do a little grocery haul moment instacart came while i was in the shower i am
currently cooking some bacon which is actually one of the things that i am hauling it is the uncured
hardwood smoked turkey bacon vans ate whole grain multi-grain waffles a [ __ ] ton of broccoli
squash and zucchini bananas shrimp bag of onions chicken thighs salmon eggs ground turkey table
blend mrs dash and southwest chipotle mrs dash so i'm having my typical breakfast i'm having
a multi-grade waffle what i just showed you turkey bacon and some coffee marble tv tray i
got from amazon and then marvel played a marble cup i just thought that was like kind of funny
y'all i got a package so let's open it literally using kitchen scissors
oh my god so i have been enjoying editing and i feel like i prefer editing with headphones
so i got me a pair these are the beats studio wireless open
this is the skyline collection in midnight black by the way dang
even the box is snatchy change the way you hear sound it comes with a little home for them
look how cute so now i'm gonna go edit oh my god
i like can hear myself talk no [ __ ] okay you guys so i'm about to make dinner the ingredients
include salmon broccoli scallions cucumber sriracha soy sauce rice vinegar and sesame
seeds to season the salmon i'll probably just use like mrs dash or something you say i make
you nervous a tragedy i'm a beautiful disaster a reckoning you wonder how i got this way
you think i'm
okay you guys i have officially completed this lego set look how amazing and then also
i got to make little bottles you guys this was so fun oh whoopsies chocolate frog which uh made me
crave chocolate of course got to make the glasses hi dumbledore how are you hi rarity how are you
resting [ __ ] face we got she's the sweetest cat like ever
and we have the wand moment so this is one of the last legos i'll be doing for a very very
long time i will show you guys my next one in my next vlog but i'm gonna be starting
so today's comment of the day is from chelsea harrell and they said maybe it's a hormonal
issue are you taking those properly and i'm pretty sure this is what she's talking about
do you guys see the waviness in my hair y'all really think that i'd be braiding
my hair and i promise you that is not the case i have been like having like wavy hair moments
that looks like i braided my hair even though i didn't oh okay i agree i think the same thing
i know me too
okay okay okay so yeah i have been having like curly hair moments which is really weird because
my hair is naturally straight and i've had a lot of people say it could be hormonal i looked it up
did some research and you're correct so there was a minute there where i stopped taking my estrogen
and that's when it kind of happened so it all makes sense am i taking it properly now
yes i take one milligram a day every morning when i first wake up that includes she's so cute that
includes my vitamin d that i also take and i take stuff for um bipolar and anxiety yes taking all
meds properly and if you take meds don't forget to take those because it could be bad you could
end up with curly hair wait that's not bad that's good anyways i'm gonna go hopefully you guys did
enjoy this vlog i'm gonna hang out with rarity because she's being needy hopefully you guys
have a great night great day whenever watching this i'll see you guys my next one bye you say
i make you nervous a tragedy i'm a beautiful disaster a reckoning you wonder how i got this way
you think i'm someone to be saved someone
and battle scars