>> Hi, I'm Randy Kay.
And I died for roughly 30 minutes,
a little over 30 minutes.
But what I really want to share with you
is what being in Heaven means to you here on Earth.
It all began when I was raising the proverbial corporate ladder.
Things were going great. I was out in Washington, D.C.,
and we were launching what would potentially be a cure
for Alzheimer's.
And then the FDA forced a recall,
and then I led a biotech company
needed to raise $60 million dollars.
And so therefore our finances began to trend down.
But the worst of all was that my daughter,
our daughter, suffered many strokes
and this was devastating.
My wife and I sat in a coffee shop
in Escondido, California, drowning our sorrows in lattes.
And I said, at least we have our health.
Two weeks later, I was dead. I had flown out for an interview
with a large health care manufacturer,
Johnson and Johnson.
And on the flight back, I slept the entire way,
didn't drink any water,
and we landed and I was exhausted.
I went to bed.
I woke up in the middle of the night
and I had a sore calf. I could barely walk
and not being the most intelligent person,
at that point, I decided to go downstairs
and take a bike ride up the coast.
We lived in San Diego, California.
Now, normally that bike ride would be very comforting.
The ocean to the left and the glassy waters would be soothing,
but they were not. It was like going uphill, only
I was on a flat road, because my breathing was very labored
and my leg continued to hurt tremendously to the point
where I just struggled to get back home.
When I got back home, my wife came downstairs
and she said that you are in terrible trouble.
I could not breathe very well at all.
My calf was about one and a half times its size.
I went to the doctor wanting to get a prescription
for an anti-inflammatory. And the long story short
is that I was rushed to the E.R. after collapsing.
The doctor said I was a walking dead man.
By this time, the test results showed
that I had six blood clots that were by now,
because I had let it go so long, had traveled from my calf
all the way up to my lung, the pulmonary artery,
which is the main blood flow to the lung.
I was literally suffocating to death.
A patient next to me was rushed out,
and I learned later that this patient had
a disease called MRSA
that's an abbreviation for a bacterial resistant strain.
So now that bacteria which, at the time
caused about 20 percent deaths,
that was rushing through my body,
causing sepsis, that means that my body had become toxic.
And this resulted in me blood clotting
not just in my lung, but throughout my body,
to the point where the physician could not draw any blood
from my brachial artery in the arm.
At that point, my body started flopping on the bed
like a fish out of water, and everything went dark.
I want to forewarn you that I'm going to probably tear up.
Even though I've, I've been asked by my wife not to do so,
it is virtually impossible for me
not to be overwhelmed with emotion for what comes next.
And I was, as I was rising in my spirit body,
my heart had stopped.
My brain soon followed after a matter of seconds
and I saw warring angels in the distance.
They were otherworldly.
There were gargantuan on the one side,
they had bristling or bright armor,
and they were fighting with what looked like swords.
On the other side, they looked more worn
and there were angels on both sides
that were on the ground in battle,
and I realized that they were battling for my soul.
And I also knew at that point that I needed to cry out the one
who I had received as my lord and savior
after having been an agnostic in my youth.
And that is, I cried out the name of Jesus Christ.
And then I was next to a body and his robe was soft and white,
and he rested his cheek against my cheek,
and I felt his soft bristles against my cheek.
And I knew instantly that it was Jesus Christ
and the first thought I had was, This is love.
And then the first thing he said to me was, trust me,
and this is the first take away I want to share with you.
The first words out of Jesus Christ's mouth were,
Trust me. I know we live in an age
where it's easy to have unbelief, to question
whether their God is real.
And I had cried out two weeks before dying,
questioning that very thing. Are you real, God?
I don't see you answering my prayers.
He turned me to look into his eyes,
and they were literally the eyes of love.
And they tunneled into every dark place within me.
Jesus's light tunnels into your dark places,
as they did for me in Heaven, revealing everything,
not just in the glory, the presence of Jesus Christ,
but washing them anew, cleansing me to the point
where I was in absolute peace and comfort.
And then I saw several vignettes.
I saw the times when I had pleased the Lord,
and they were satisfying. But even more interestingly,
I think, were the times when I had not pleased him.
And oftentimes we have questions: If we fail,
what does that mean in terms of our relationship
with Jesus Christ?
And he showed me these things, but they were not condemning.
They actually assuaged me,
that is, my concern, in that they reflected
the grace of Christ in my own failure.
And I did not recall those failures
after I returned to this world.
I only recalled and I recall every detail,
every facet of heaven, but my sins had been removed
as far as the east is from the West,
so that not only did the Lord forget my failures,
my sins, having asked forgiveness from him,
but I had forgotten them as well.
I continued in Heaven as I strolled with Jesus,
and there were so many amazing ventures in Heaven,
this I want to share with you
because it's very relevant to your life.
And that is, I looked at the feet of Jesus
and a river emitted from his feet
that ushered forth throughout Heaven.
And he took a literal bottle,
and he had poured something into that river,
which we know from the Bible is the river of life.
And he explained to me that he'd collected all of my tears,
throughout my entire lifetime.
And he had poured them into the river of life
to turn my sorrows into joy.
If you're going through any sorrows today,
any sense of failure,
as I have felt so many times in my life prior,
if you feel that you are fearful of disease, a virus,
if you have lost a loved one or face a sickness yourself,
know that when you get to heaven, those tears,
which Jesus has been collecting on your behalf,
will be poured forth into the river of life and Heaven,
ushering forth a new life to you such that your sorrows
will be turned for joy. There is hope in heaven,
but there's also hope in this life
because the hope of heaven is the presence of Jesus Christ.
The presence of Jesus Christ
is pervasive throughout all of Heaven,
as it should be pervasive in our own life
because we are his temple,
if we know Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.
And what that means is that you have a taste of heaven
within you now. And what that means to you now
is that you have the Lord Jesus Christ
from which to draw from your own sorrows,
to pour forth those sorrows and turning them to joy
by soaking in the presence,
steeping yourself in his presence
and the glory of God to be redeemed from your sorrows.
I want to pray for you. And my prayer for you is this.
I pray that the presence of Almighty God,
which I have seen face to face, becomes so dominant in your life,
that you no longer have any cares
in this world. I know that's a lot to ask for,
but I also know the power and the glory of Jesus Christ.
To become that overriding person such that
you might live abundantly to the full in this life.
I pray for your healing.
Because all in Heaven are healed.
I pray also for your salvation if you don't know him.
Because you do not want to see him face to face,
having said, I did not know you in this world.
You want to see him face to face as I did.
As somebody I had known for eons.
I also pray for you.
That you would no longer carry the guilt, the stain,
of all of your failures and your fears.
Because once you relinquish them to Jesus, asking him
to cleanse you of those, asking for his forgiveness,
you will see them no more.
You will see instead the grace of God reflected in your heart.
And your heart in Heaven will govern you
all the days of your life and eternity as your heart,
which is the very presence of the Lord,
and your born-again spirit, is that which you will live with
as the only driving force or presence in your life.
No more struggles. No more fears.
And I ask you. And I think I speak,
having been with him, that you can walk now more boldly,
knowing that God is with you always, will never forsake you,
ever, ever, ever. And all you need to do.
Is trust him.
God bless you.