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Hi.
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Hey what's going on guys, my name is Terence Kane.
I am 22-years -old.
I'm currently living at a homeless shelter.
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This is the shelter that I am currently staying at.
Like I called at least like six shelters and they were
like all full.
And I finally called Horizons
and then they said they have a bed.
Show you guys how it actually looks.
This is my room.
I appreciate the fact that I'm sleeping on a bed.
But for the most part, it's like,
you kind of want your own space so,
it's nice to like have a place, you know?
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The reason why I'm homeless right now
is because me and my mother got into a situation.
She was getting mad because she seen me like really,
like, just not doing anything.
Honestly it is my fault because I should be in school,
I should be working.
But, I've been dealing with depression
and I haven't really been motivated to do anything.
For the last, two years man,
I've been suffering with social anxiety.
Just being very nervous.
Not wanting to be around people.
You know what I'm saying, paranoia.
Sometimes like, I had a hard time believing in myself.
It's just cause the things I went through, you know,
like certain people.
I feel like if you get shitted on for so long it's like,
you know what I'm saying,
you kind of loose your self confidence.
I say a lot of shit happened in my life.
They have a lot of people in the shelter that can
help you with mental health.
As long as you let them know what your dealing with.
They can help you.
Oh, hi, how you doing Adam?
I'm well thanks how are you?
I'm good and you?
Very good.
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Terrence: What advice would you give to somebody who has like,
extreme amount of anxiety,
and it's so severe that sometimes
they don't even leave their house?
I would first of all ask, or begin to ask them about...
uhm, okay... You know...
Has the anxiety made you depressed?
Have you become depressed because of how anxious
and miserable you are?
Okay, because that's basically what
happened to me was, you know when I was 20 and 21.
Adam: When I was in University I had struggled severely
with anxiety and depression,
at one point I was quite suicidal.
Luckily, I sought some help. I spoke to a counsellor.
And that person basically saved my life.
I feel that that person saved my life.
A very large percentage of youth come into the shelter
with some kind of mental illness,
whether diagnosed or undiagnosed.
So I, I meet with as many as I can,
and I help as many as I can but it's, it's ah, never enough.
Literally just living in the shelter can contribute
further to those kinds of mental health issues.
There's no stability,
sometimes they're here for only a day or a week.
It's difficult for them to see the light
at the end of the tunnel.
And that, of course,
contributes to things like anxiety and depression.
About to leave the shelly.
Leave my shelly room.
Can I get the door please?
[door lock buzzes]
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Terrence: Living in a shelter,
my plan is to not really get attached to anybody.
So I'm not like, really like, into that.
But Max, my roommate, he's pretty cool.
Honestly my plans for the future...
Who do you wanna become in the future?
Terrance: I love music, it's kind of in me.
Sometimes I get depressed, you know like,
writing music helps me cope.
♪ I'm all about the Jay I'm at it everyday ♪
♪ I smoke a couple blunts ♪
♪ and watch my problems stay away ♪
Terrance: I started to, like, make music,
it was like grade 4.
Writing like just different kind of songs,
like writing the middle of choruses,
you know what I'm saying,
like just about a girl that I liked.
♪ And I'm a get my pants off. I'm a throw my hands up. ♪
I'm gonna become a legend one day. You gotta dream big.
♪ She wanna kick it like her name is Messi ♪
♪ Hey, game, she can be top or she can be backy ♪
♪ Hey, game, game, game, game ♪
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It's been a bumpy road,
It's been a hectic road but, you know,
I try to keep my thoughts positive.
Living in the homeless shelter, sometimes people judge.
You know, we're looked down upon.
But everyone should be like, equal.
For my future, I'd want to like, just be successful.
I guess everyone has like, their own,
like definition of success,
but for me success is like,
just being happy like, you know, feeling like happiness,
like within you, inside every single day,
And they're like the people
that you're around like every single day.
I think that's really like success for me.
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It's about it for today.
I'm about to go into the shelter.
Just so you know. Sleep, stuff like that.
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