I've got a problem with drinkin' alcohol.
Yep, there you go.
I've got to take a little swig of this.
(slurping)
Ah!
Yeah I've been drinking since, I don't know,
8:00 this morning.
I feel fine now.
I'm a little bit buzzed,
and a little bit drunk,
and a little bit, you know, I feel good.
I do have a little cut on my lip.
I fell last night talkin' to Andrea
with the Dr. Phil show.
Fell forward and hit somethin' and, (laughs)
Do you have trouble remembering stuff
like the next day, or?
Well if it happens after about probably
four or five in the afternoon I don't remember.
It's just a washout.
(intense music)
No that's probably the second one.
I knew I was gonna be comin' out to Dr. Phil's
so I didn't want to drink tomorrow
and just went with the fifth.
You know, a fifth today is no problem.
Its easy.
(groans)
This is where I dwell.
The main part of my
existence is right here.
And then you walk into the
closet then you walk into the bathroom
and that's it.
What I'm sad about
is my ex wife leavin' me.
Tonight while I get ready for bed,
I'll probably just pass out.
(groans)
Not knowin' what is comin' tomorrow.
No knowin' anything.
(groans)
Hoping you can help me.
When we arrived at his house the next day,
he was a completely different person.
Sunday mornin'.
The day after
my last interview.
And I
feel okay.
We can pour that out.
I'm done.
I am so done.
After two, three days, once my body, I guess,
has it's fill,
the I just get up the next day
and have no desire at all.
It's weird.
I can go for a couple of weeks
without havin' a drink,
but then when I do
take that first sip
I mean it's all the way,
ride or die.
The very first time I ever drank
I was probably 12 years old.
Everybody seemed to be happy
when they were drinkin',
and I got me a little swig
and everything kind of started gettin' dizzy.
Then when I got to college,
it really got out of hand.
I have been to two rehabilitation facilities.
The first time I went
was basically to please my wife.
The second facility was court ordered,
so that really didn't count.
Since a year ago, after my divorce with my wife,
it's progressively gettin' worse and worse.
I've got a son and a daughter
that both live with their mother.
And the last time that I've physically had them
was about six months ago.
I have injured myself on a number of occasions.
I've got a solid steel gun cabinet.
I fell backwards and hit the back of my head
and it severed an artery.
My whole face got black,
and it was even down to about my mid chest.
It just totally black.
When I was in ICU, the doctor came in and said,
"If you continue on this same patterns,
"you'll lose your life in four to five years."
Now is my rock bottom.
If I don't get ahold of this stronghold pretty soon,
you know I could die.