- Honey, can you sit down please?
You trying to put the buckle in?
- Come on, buddy, sing it.
Hurray.
- Cheeki, come.
Guys, I feel like this has been my favorite summer
like the best summer I've ever had.
I feel very grounded with the current routine I have
but it's not boring
because there's like sprinkles of spontaneity.
So overall, feeling fantastic.
I feel like all those years of consistent therapy
and reflection is paying off
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All right, folks, before I stepped out,
I wanted to show you guys my little outfit of the day.
I'm wearing this pinky breezy number.
The top is from L'artagent
and then the skirt is from Reformation.
I love this purse because it literally fits everything
but it's a very like inconspicuous size
like you wouldn't think that I could fit so much.
For my fragrance, let's pop on a bit of Prada.
I love the way this smells.
It's kinda like, it smells like the end of summer
like August heat, you know what I mean?
So I'm just popping out to run a couple of light errands,
going to a PR room to select some pieces.
Today's just a really fun day
so I thought I would take you guys along with me.
That looks good.
- Like right there.
- Yeah.
- It's like right there so it's not dragging.
- I've gotta do something about this closet
because right now it's completely unfunctional.
I definitely need a little bit more storage.
So today, I am going to try and tackle this
and I guess the organization montage starts now.
It is the next day and the closet is done.
Tada.
It really is just an improvement
from the last time you guys have seen it but I wouldn't say
it's like a Pinterest organization moment.
The next thing I need to do is just create some labels
and down there is like my craft section.
We've got like a Polaroid and some film.
I'm just stoked
that I can actually use this as a closet now.
Tomorrow is Lennon's birthday.
- Mhm.
Second birthday.
We're throwing him a little kids party.
- Yes.
- So we need to make some little party bags.
Look at this. - I know, it's cute.
- It's the first time we get to do this, huh?
- I know.
- [Ben] And then we wanna be eco-friendly.
We wanted to keep the paper,
make sure that all the gifts for the kids
aren't just loads of plastic
which is really difficult to find.
- [Jenn] It is.
- [Ben] Do you remember getting a party bag
when you were young?
- I actually don't.
Do you remember getting a party bag when you were younger?
- I do but it was so fun, you know?
When you're young, it's exhilarating.
You get a little bag, you don't know what's in it.
It's very exciting.
- I know, I'd be actually really stoked if I got socks
like look how cute these socks are.
I bought these all at Axel & Rose.
One, two, three, four, five, six,
seven, eight, nine, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14.
Right?
Should it just be 15 just in case?
- [Ben] Yeah. - Okay.
Lennon turned two yesterday which it honestly blows my mind
and his birthday party was perfect.
I feel like it was such a stark difference
from what it was last year 'cause when he turned one,
it's like a Korean tradition to go big.
It's really a party for your family, your friends
but this year was just Lennon
and his closest friends in like a play center.
I did not vlog anything.
I just got a couple of film photos
which I will print out and put it in a photo album.
I also just spent some time to journal last night
about some reflections I had about motherhood
and his specific milestones.
I feel like I've always had this chronic need
to document everything
like I'm kind of like a memory hoarder
and I feel like we're all kind of guilty of that
especially with the advent of the smartphone.
When there's something amazing happening
or something that we feel like we won't experience again,
our initial thought is just to start recording
and as much as I still feel
like there's like a place for this
and I still love doing this as my career,
I'm kind of leaning more into the word
and documenting my experiences through journaling.
I don't know, I think it's just kind of diversifying
the way I capture memories
and not everything needs to be recorded and uploaded online.
I also think moving forward, now that Lennon is two,
we're making it a conscious decision
to show him less and less on our channel.
He's starting to talk more, his personality is here
and he understands that he's being perceived.
As an explanation
on why I showed his first few years of his life,
I think it was through a lens of me
coming into the role of a mother
like there's a term for this actually.
It's called matrescence.
It's kinda like puberty but for moms
because it is this transitionary period
of where you are a singleton to becoming a parent, you know?
It is quite an adjustment.
And so I don't have regrets
showcasing how that experience has been like for me
and hopefully my son doesn't get upset at me
for showing this
but I think now that he is talking and he's more aware,
I think it just makes sense to create a boundary here
and I think the reason why I'm even saying
an announcement like this
is because I feel like some mothers
who don't show their kids, they get this criticism
saying like, "oh, she doesn't like being a mom"
or "she hates it, she's trying to hide it."
Maybe I shouldn't care what people think
but I know that the majority of you guys are,
I feel incredibly blessed to have viewers like you guys
who are incredibly understanding
and empathetic about our situation
but I just wanted to make it extremely clear
that I am not ashamed of being a mom.
I am not trying to hide the fact that I'm a mom.
I love my role as a mom but my interactions with my son
are just going to be private now
but in essence, I just wanted to address
if there's any confusion
and yeah, and just, it's just a reminder
that what content creators put online
is just a small portion of what their reality is like.
I am gonna wrap this vlog up
because we are heading to England in a couple hours.
So I gotta put my son down for a nap.
Hopefully he sleeps and hopefully he sleeps on the plane
but I'm not expecting anything.
We'll see.
But yeah, I'll see you guys in my next one
and thank you guys for watching.
Bye.
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