hey guys welcome back so I'm off into London today I got up super early today at about 7 A.M which is
very early for me I've already walked over I gave her a nice long walk chucked the ball loads so
she's now had a bath and she's sleeping because Lucy's away so Ava's going to be home alone for
about five or six hours today which I always get very anxious leaving her for more than three but
she's fine I think I've left her the maximum I've left her at seven hours before she's totally fine
so I know she'll be okay but I just worry but yeah she's had a walk I'm off to meet Leah we're
having an emergency meeting before a YouTube event however I'm not going to go to the YouTube event
um because I don't really have time today and plus I want to go to the gym after our meeting and then
that takes me up to like five hours and I need to get back forever so I've told Lea that I'll
come in to town for a meeting with her actually we also I forget this we don't just have an emergency
John Lear meeting but we've got a meeting with a potential management and they represent some of
the biggest YouTubers in the UK and they reached out to us and were like we've noticed you don't
have a manager anymore would you like to have a chat about you know working with us and so we were
like absolutely I don't know we're enjoying being self-managed at the moment and taking
control of it I think I'm like oh I would quite like the assistance and like having someone there
to negotiate deals on your behalf and do contracts and everything but yeah we'll see how the meeting
goes so we've got that at 12 but before then I'm gonna be having a meeting with Leah about just
our Channel and things going on so we'll see I have a manager for my channel and I just think it
really helps I love my management and I I wouldn't be without them so yeah I think it could be a good
thing for John and Leah but we'll see I'm also in my gym kit today it's too hot and these gym kits
are breathable and they don't show sweat patches so I'm just rocking a Jimmy I will go to the gym
at some point today maybe but yeah I'm having my meeting in a gym kit which this is the thing I
love about being a creator online is that you can kind of be unprofessional in meetings and I I say
unprofessional with quotation marks because obviously you can't be rude and like be like
horrible to work with but I just mean like you can get away with going to meetings in your active
wear and I suppose this because what we're doing isn't professional it's just you know as a Creator
and just an online personality so all that matters is that my personality shows up not my attire oh
yes the gates are open this is my favorite little cut through this is a little private development
of all these beautiful Flats in all these Mansion blocks and it's so beautiful and usually the gates
are shut so I can't use it as a shortcut but I absolutely love it just got myself an oat flat
before I hop on the train guys I know I complain about it all the time but
I just cannot wait for autumn and winter I can't wait to be here at this train station
cold shivering with a jumper on a coat a hat I'm just so done with hot weather
right I've arrived Leah is here but she's just nipped to the Loo and we've actually found a
really nice table for a meeting in the middle of these buildings Google Google's just through there
um there's lots of bars and places we were going to go here but it's round it's like a
breakfast place yeah we're gonna have a meeting out here lovely day for it I mean I've just been
complaining about the weather like but it is and that is cooler now which is great hello Ava we
slept together last night didn't we again we're in another little Heatwave guys and last night Ava
went to her bedroom door and looked at me as if to be like I'm not sleeping in there it's too hot
even though downstairs where she sleeps isn't actually that hot but
um yeah she was just like no so I was like okay so I gave her a shower I got her all wet and then
let her sleep in my bed a wet dog in my bed how disgusting is that but it's the only way to keep
cool I had a shower she had a shower and then she made for a very good bed fellow I really enjoyed
it but I'm worrying that the more I do this the more she's getting used to sleeping with me
however today she's going away for two and a half weeks she's going to stay with my parents and then
with my brother because I've got a very busy schedule coming up um but before that in about
half an hour she's got a vet's appointment just a little checkup so yeah I need to take her to that
um but that is all she is gonna hate me she thinks she's going for a walk she's going to
the vets which she absolutely hates luckily the Vets is less than a two minute walk away from my
house so I'm able to just leave with two minutes to go and walk there so this house you're about to
see I really wish I could buy it it's so overgrown and it would be absolutely incredible look at that
imagine if you Stripped Away that and revealed the house I mean it can't be good for the house
can it it's probably destroying the Integrity of the house here's the vet right on the end it's
very cute got a little veranda Ava hates it come on come on oh no this way come on come on come on
got some lung worm medicine tapeworm medicine and some ear cleaner for her
but that actually said that she could do with losing a little bit of weight well
she didn't say that she said if she loses some weight it's not the end of the world she was
like she's she's looking good and she's not overweight but she was like don't be scared
of if she drops a few pounds because it still you know she would be healthy if she lost a
bit more so which is odd because I always tend to think of Ava as being really really skinny
this is currently end of the Vlog Joel but I'm just inserting this sooner because I know that
what I'm about to say is going to be something to do with the title of this video and I don't like
it when YouTubers like click bait something at the start of the video but they don't say it right
until the very end I'm like I'm all for click bait but I'm like at least give the people what
they want early on so this is if you recognize this outfit from the last clip in the video it's
because I've moved this forward but basically I feel like I need to tell you guys something
um I'm so dramatic aren't I let's sit down and have a have a chat over a Pepsi Max anyway I
need to tell you guys something um if you're a member of mine you'll already know this you've
known this for five six weeks or something um basically I have a boyfriend which feels
very weird to say it feels so strange the title of boyfriend is never felt like a one that belongs to
me which sounds really weird even when I have had boyfriends in the past it's just felt very strange
um because I yeah I don't know why anyway that's not the point the point is I have a boyfriend
um that we've been together officially for a few months now and it's just been lovely we've
just been spending lots of time together and just it's been really nice to have something
just to myself even before I told my members it was just nice to have this secret relationship I
mean it wasn't secret to my friends and family he's met some of my friends he's met my family
um which no boy has ever met my family before ever so that was a huge deal that was over a month ago
now and that was that was very scary but it's good I'm not gonna go into huge detail just yet
I mean I'm sure he will pop up eventually um I did actually do my very first Vlog with him when I saw
him last week and that will actually be going live on my members page if I told my members sooner
than the whole Channel because you know this video on this Channel could potentially reach 57 000
people because that's how many people have clicked subscribe but also it could go further than that
it could be seen by loads of people and I I can't keep track of who watches whereas my members I
know who they are how long they've been a member like it feels like a real community so I feel
safer with them so yeah in the next few weeks I'm going to be releasing a um a video my first ever
Vlog with my boyfriend which is scary so if you do want to join my membership page you can do that
um also just want to say a very big thank you to everyone on yesterday's Members Only video
um where I got a bit teary and cried in the end and all the comments have been so so lovely so
thank you for being the kindest community on YouTube I truly am really really lucky to have
you guys so thank you so much for that it's scary showing like I know some of you also I said this
to my members over a month ago I was like I know some of you will be like just show him it's not a
big deal and I know to you guys it's not a big deal but I've been on the other end of having
a very public relationship that you know then I had to deal with the public breakup of it and it
wasn't very nice and so it's really scary to put a new relationship out there because suddenly you
get other people's opinions on on them and on us together and I know as soon as like people start
seeing us together in videos people read into things and they're like oh my gosh did you see
the way Joe spoke to him at this time stamp oh he's really horrible did you see the way
he just dismissed John and he did it and it's like what like people read into things and let
alone if you know hopefully we won't break up it's the happiest and healthiest relationship
I've ever had which feels very lovely but very strange um but you never know you know so it's
it's taking a calculated risk isn't it of going I can introduce my viewers to him but the downside
is if it does end then I will have to deal with it in a very public way which is scary
Reaper I don't think it will end I you know that saying when you like when you know you know and I
kind of know you know do you know anyway that's all let's crack on with the rest of the video
right we are pretty much packed up and ready to go so let me do some explaining I am heading away now
I'm driving home I'm so shiny sorry it's so hot today so I'm heading home to mum and Dad's today
to basically drop off Ava because tomorrow I'm driving up north to see my boyfriend and spend
a few days with him up north then from there we're driving to Edinburgh and we're going to go
to Edinburgh Fringe Festival for a few days then we're going to drive down from there to the Lake
District we're going to climb scarf El Pike and have a nice time in the lakes and then I'm gonna
come home spend a few days with Ava at my parents home so not I'm not coming here home I'm coming to
my parents home spending a few days with Ava then I'm going to Leah's in the Midlands I'm going to
be filming with her for a few days and then I'm going straight from Leah's back up north to see
my boyfriend again to go to Manchester Pride so what that's 18 days that I'm away for so anyway
I've had to pack for not just Ava but I've had to pack for myself so obviously the curtains are
shut because there's a heat wave so I'm trying to keep the heat out um so I'm taking my fan because
that comes with me everywhere in summer because I get too hot this is my picnic basket so inside
here you've got plates like proper ceramic plates Cutlery cups glasses it was my nan and Grandad's
um but they never actually used it so I've now got it and I'm going to take it up north and leave it
at my boyfriend's because we'll definitely use that um my suitcase has broken one of the wheels
has come off so I'm taking my massive North Face holdall I've obviously got a books magazines my
laptop in here and then in here is mostly Ava's stuff but with some leftover food because I don't
want it to go off in the fridge so I'm going to take it home I've also got a coat and an
umbrella Because by the time I get to Edinburgh it's going to be 18 degrees and raining and I
think that is it I think I've got everything it's very strange going away for such a long time and
packing for different climates because obviously the climate in London is different to The Climate
up north which is very different to the climate in Scotland which is then different to the climate
in the Lake District so it is yeah it's very difficult to pack for this long I do feel like
a bit of a nomad I mean finally I can be honest with you guys and tell you as I said I've told my
members this already oh there's a fly on my camera I've told my members this already in another video
that I've been up and down up north down south up north down South for months now you know I barely
spend a week here in London and I'm back up north and then I come down south again so so I feel like
a a bit of a nomad at the moment um which I really I'm enjoying but it feels very different because
I've just been you know I'm definitely a Hermit I don't really leave my house very much I don't
really leave London very much apart from going to see my family so now I'm doing some traveling
pretty much every week it does get a little bit exhausting today I'm driving sometimes I get
the train up north because it's only two hours on the train a high speed train the drive is about 4
hours but anyway that drives tomorrow so we can forget about that oh and I almost forgot I just
nipped out into the garden I've had I promised my boyfriend I'd bring a sander because we're
going to be redecorating his bedroom I think on Monday before we head to Edinburgh on Tuesday so
um yeah good job I remembered that right we're in everything is jam-packed in the back but this
is why I need a bigger Car Guys there's just so much stuff when you're traveling a bit and when
you have a dog so I have all of my dog's stuff as well as all of my own stuff it's just like I need
more space and that's just me and Ava like when when it's Christmas that is up to the ceiling
you might have seen in another Vlog we are jammed in and Ava's always jammed in as well luckily not
today there's just a bag at her feet but um it's barely big enough for me and Ava let alone anybody
else so it's so hot that this has fallen off my screen so I don't even know if my phone's gonna
stay on the screen it's saying it's 31 degrees outside thank goodness that we have AC in our cars
in the UK not much else I mean there's AC at the gym Etc but my problem is it oh I'm getting a call
salesman an hour and 26 to my parents not bad I'm
just gonna send them the drive so they know where I am at all times road trip
and it's helped me like really reposition it in my mind there's something that I can fit
into my day in a way that doesn't feel so exhausting and harmful to my sense of self
foreign
good boy oh I feel so excited good boy he always jumps on the sofa when I arrive home she wants to
cuddle love him so much my mum and dad are out today so they'll be back this evening
um so I'm gonna nip out and get my hair cut ready for this holiday I've just seen my
mum has made a cake fantastic yeah I'll leave Ava and Oscar to play while I go get my hair
cut and I have to do some work my manager's messaging me asking for some branded work but
I haven't done it yet I'm fuming guys I watched it takes about 30 minutes I walked in 34 degree
heat to The Barbers as you can see sweat patches started forming I could feel my back is like
soaked I was like right well I need to get cash out because for some reason men's Barbers are
still cash only except in London in London they let you pay on card but here in Hampshire they're
still cash only which is ridiculous so I went to go get cash out and I was like well I get
cash out I'll get a nice cold drink from the supermarket go in the AC supermarket and cool
down and then go to the hairdresser so I did that however there's no cash machine there was
a bank there when I last went into the town but I haven't been for like five six years no cash
machine the bank's gone as I walked to another Supermarket their cash machine was out of order
so basically I was like there's no cash machines so my only option is to just walk home um so I'm
gonna get some cash out now near my parents house at like two minutes away from their house and
um I'm gonna go tomorrow morning before I drive up north first stop is actually to look at the books
because I can't resist and I need a new read because I just finished a book recently if you
have any recommendations please let me know down in the comments oh my gosh I found the perfect
spot under the AC I'm just gonna stand there and cool with that one oh my gosh this has been
recommended to me so many times and they've got one copy left four pound fifty right I just got
the one book in the end I got some white chocolate for me mum and dad tonight and I got some jelly
crystals to make jelly uh because my new favorite dessert is quark and jelly mixed together and it
forms this move so I'll show you tonight it's really nice I've just arrived home and I forgot
I didn't get cash out that was the whole point of walking to Asda was getting cash out a Frick's say
because I'm so sweaty right I'm now going to show you how to make this new favorite dessert of mine
um this reminds me of when I used to do baking videos because I used to do some of them in my
parents kitchen because their kitchen's nicer than my kitchen yeah I haven't done any for
ages mainly because it just takes a long time to film and money with all the ingredients and to be
honest not many of you enjoy watching them and I know the comments will be filled with people
saying I watch them I love the baking videos but like the proof is in the pudding no pun intended
we're like yeah I will post my baking videos some of my lowest viewed videos on this channel
so yeah I could always add another membership tier I suppose to my membership club where like
you get all the members only perks plus maybe you get baking videos as well I could consider
that but I don't know that's just adding a whole extra thing isn't it so all you need is a tub of
Quark so this is fat free Quark this whole tub is about 200 calories and it's about 32 grams of
protein so that is huge protein jelly this is raspberry flavor jelly it's about six calories
once you've made it up with all the water and you basically whisk it in here whisk the jelly up
Chuck the Quark into a food mixer and start whisking it up add this jelly mixture to it
whisk until it goes all frothy like this and then you need a really big bowl bigger than you expect
um this might not even be big enough just pour it in uh just about car
and then that goes straight in the fridge oh look at mum and Dad's tomatoes
they're doing well there's some big ones over here oh wow I mean they're not ripe but they
actually gave me a tomato plant last year or was it my brother I can't remember someone gave me a
tomato plant didn't yield any Tomatoes I killed it within minutes I'm good at keeping plants
alive my mum can't keep indoor plants alive I can but I can't keep outdoor plants alive
my lemon trees died as well my celosiers died I'm really not good at outdoor plants