For initial three months after marriage, everyone was good with me.
After three months they started torturing me.
at times of being unwell or denied him having sex but he used to beat me and force me for it.
He would push me from the bed and kick me in the back so much that I wouldn't be able to get up next morning.
Didn't you ask them why did you abort my child without my permission?
I did ask why did this happen to me after that injection, why did you do this? He would beat me
He would never listen to me, he used to wrongly accuse me of betrayal.
One day he tied my hands and shut my mouth and started beating me accusing me all the time.
That boy he says I have an affair with is a respected person.
Then he got a stick and started beating me badly.
My parents called my in-laws and asked them if I could see my dead Grand Mother's face for the last time?
They didn't allow it, instead they injected me and I became unconscious. My father had come for me then.
And once I had to go to my mother's house,
my brother-in-law's child told me to wear a dress he thought looked good on me.
When my husband saw me in that dress,
he put my arm into the locker and started pressing the locker from outside.
He started beating me and he keeps a black knife with him at home.
He went in search of it.
Meanwhile my Brother-in-law's wife came and took me to the kitchen,
where I laid unconscious for a long time.
When I regained my consciousness I was in the hospital and my arm was being plastered,
that time my parents kept calling, there was a function that day.
I didn't tell my parents I had a plaster for ten days, I thought my husband will get better with time.
My parents had spent a lot on my marriage.
I didn't want to hurt them but telling them what was happening.
My parents stand for me, but I have seen women in court who have no one.
What will happen to such women?
Court and law helps only if you bribe them.
My mother was really sick and my sister called me saying, 'once she is dead, only then you will come!'.
I started crying over the phone,
my husband came started beating me saying, 'Why were you talking for so long?'
Other family members were watching him and then all of them started splashing kerosene oil over me.
I picked up the phone again called my Mother crying for help.
People from my Mother's home came and they were also beaten.
They didn't show me to them, everybody was taken to Police Station.
Holding me by the neck he made his cousin take me away from the place so that police couldn't find me.
I was put in a room there.
When police forced them about me, my husband came and threatened me not to say truth in front of police.
At that time I thought about my parents family only, I wanted them to be released and nothing else.
They were set free.
They didn't allow me a leave to home even at that time.
Such boys should be dealt harshly they think women are not human.
He used to say to me 'I am a bird I can go anywhere, what will you do? You are stained forever.'
How did you finally go home?
He was not home, he was on a picnic and my mother came, I had not eaten from three days, nobody cared.
I was sitting on stairs praying to God, "Do I have nobody to take me home!"
Right then Mom came, I was very happy to see her.
He wont divorce me until he gets money from me, my father can't afford the money.
and I have two more sisters who are still unmarried. My father can't afford.
What about the dowry you had given?
It all lays with them.
How much is that worth?
My parents may be knowing that.
They don't give it back?
Did you file a case?
NODS
What did the judge say?
He is still hearing the case.
The society of Kashmir is such, once a girl marries she is supposed to stay at her husband's home until death.
That's what stopped me from telling truth to my parents and coming back home, I was afraid of society.
Do you think about working outside for yourself?
Yes!
What's your dream job?
A religious teacher.