- I just got my 60 day chip in AA.
I still drink five nights a week.
I'm fooling everyone but myself.
I'm drunk right now.
- I'm using my graduation money on an HIV test.
- I have a very high-profile, prestigious job
and I'm addicted to heroin.
- I think about the time when I first
went to the clinic because I thought I had HIV
and I was negative.
- I've definitely known people in this position
and one of my best friends
really had his life going for him and...
Started developing a OxyContin problem.
- I am a recovering sex addict.
And in the time of hashtag Me Too,
it's a really strange thing to say and admit
and feel like people take you seriously.
- I started drinking when I was like, 13, a lot.
And I started smoking pot
and then some kid on the bus gave me Xanax
and I started snorting Xanax,
and I started doing coke.
It just kind of escalated
until I started using heroin
because of the Oxy's were too expensive.
- I organized an intervention
and he was clean and then he dropped back into it.
And then it went sour real quick.
- It's challenging and it's difficult
and it's not about the sex and it's not about
a connection, it's really about the insecurities in myself.
- It was literally a few weeks after that
that like, you know, police had a warrant for his arrest.
- I had just shot up and I like, looked around
and I realized like, what the fuck am I doing with my life?
- I've been a sex addict for a very long time,
but I've also been married for seven years
and together with my wife for ten.
I have damaged someone's life, including my own,
but I damaged someone who's very important to me
and we are on the verge of divorce right now.
And I've been struggling to save that marriage.
And I don't know that I can
and maybe the lesson that I need to learn
is that you can't save it.
- So, it was like, two in the morning
and I called my insurance
and went to rehab
and it's changed my life.
Unfortunately, relapse is very common
and I shot up the day I left rehab
and that's actually when I contracted HIV.
- He got clean and detoxed and
really thankful thankful that the placed that he worked
really valued him for the person that he was
and understood that this was a really sad place he went
but needed some help and he got it
and he took responsibility for it.
- Over time, you know, you come to terms with it
and it's just a part of who you are,
just like any other illness that you can acquire.
- I am sober currently.
And it is a challenge.
And every night I wanna act out on something
and I want to use somebody
to make myself feel better.
- You really need to give a lot of love
and you need to give a lot of support
and rehabilitation is really important.
- I'm happily partnered.
I mean, life is good.
I mean, he knows, we go to the clinic together.
- You can choose to be a better person,
you can choose to put down the things
that cause you negativity.
And you can let them go.