What do you wish for me?
Truly,
I wish-
I wish you
happiness.
Health.
No pain.
To feel love in your heart
for as many people as you can.
To continue to...
It's getting
narrower and narrower.
I know, even-
Yeah.
To just wake up every day
and feel happy to be alive.
I really, I wish that for you. - Absolutely.
Why do you think I am in your life?
I think that you are in my life.
Here's what I say.
What?
When I met your dad.
So
I think dad was here to teach me about...
It's called unconditional love.
I know. Let me tell you.
Let me tell you what this even means.
It means Daddy fell in love with me,
and he said, I love you for everything you are.
You listening?
Listen.
And then everything you are.
And he said,
I also love you for
everything you're not.
And I said, a little
like this, like,
what are you talking about?
What are you talking about?
But I loved him and I married him,
but I didn't really understand
what he was talking about.
Like this.
Like unconditional love.
Like I love you no matter what.
I didn't really understand that.
And then Rachel was born. - That's me!
And let me tell you what I think
you're doing in my life.
I think you are here to teach me
about all the love, no matter what.
- And patience. - Yeah, you are here
to teach me a little bit about patience.
I'm still learning about that part,
but I learned the love part.
I did learn the love part
like all the things you are
and all the things you're not love.
And you love me
all the things I am
and all the things I'm not love.
I learned that one.
I didn't really learn it with Dad.
Like I learned a little teeny bit
with Dad and then...
Here you are.
I got you, right?
And that's it. Patience.
I'm still working on that part.
Yeah. - Yeah.
I'm not that good at patience. - Okay.
What's your favorite thing
about me?
Hum.
That's tough,
because
I think your heart when you're all in is
very rare.
Like the passion that you have
when you're all in is-
It's impressive.
Also,
like your excitement, your ability to
come up with ideas and to make your-
You're incredible.
If you ever need a jumpstart for
something, you can count on you to
jumpstart.
Pull through.
I've got the excitement.
That's right.
So your heart and your excitement.
I...
can I tell you
my favorite thing about you? - Yeah.
I think how much you love
like you love so
much and so strong.
And I'm kind of the same way, so it's
nice to see
you doing it in a successful way,
in a way that's healthy
because the times that I've loved
hard, I've ended up getting really burned
and then super discouraged and angry.
But because of the way you love, it's
encouraged me
not to think of love negatively
and not to turn into like a hateful or
cold person.
I love the way you love Mom, especially.
I do too.
Of course you do.
What do you see in me that I don't see
for myself?
I see a capacity for greatness
that has nothing to do
with what you do in your career.
Huh?
Like
you just have an ocean inside you,
you know?
I don't think you know how big it is.
And it's clean.
Like there's no garbage in the ocean.
Like, there's no, like,
sea turtles pulling straws
out of their throat.
It's just a big,
beautiful, clean, pristine, salty,
delicious ocean.
And I just think
you just are so powerful.
You're so powerful, and you just don't.
You don't always know it.
You're like,
Oh my God, I don't know what to do.
But it's real. - Thanks.
What are you
hesitant to tell me?
I really didn't
want to cry.
These are good tears.
Yes, they're very good.
Very good tears.
I just am.
I'm so scared to lose you.
And I love you so much.
And you always say to me,
do you know how much I love you?
You say it all the time.
Every time I see you and I go, Yes, yes.
Because I'm so awkward.
And I
as soon as I see you well up, I'm like,
because I don't want to do it.
And
I feel that I haven't maybe said enough
how much you mean to me.
And- - I think I know.
Yeah, but it's nice. I don't. I should.
I should say it more.
Oh, I think- I feel it.
I know it.
I don't think we always need words
between ourselves.
But you're so good at that, you make me feel
like I walk through the world.
I'm having a bad day.
But I'm like,
I know MayMay loves me today, and
that's- that's great.
If this-
Oh.
If this were to be our last conversation,
what is something you never want me to
forget?
I never want you to forget
that you don't need me
to breathe or to do
anything
that you do.
You step out of the door every day
and you conquer the world.
Like if my last day
was today,
I'll meet you at the stars.
And you can do it without me.
Like, know
I'm going to be waiting for you.
Know that you can just live.
That I can just so selfishly
Like, just want you for myself.
But I can see how selfish
other people are for you too
because you just bring so much life
and so much light into people's life.
Like it's a shame not to know you.
You're not easily forgettable
and it's not easy to give up on you.
I'm trying.
It's not even a possibility.
I couldn't fathom a world without you.
That you can do a world without me.
Oh, why do you love me?
Why don't I love you?
Aw!
I mean, I know I've already said it,
but just you.
You bring such peace to my life
and like a
you, you make me feel like
I've done something good with life.
Like I feel completed with you.
So, I mean,
it makes it sounds sad, like there's
nothing more to come.
And there is, you know, and that's
what makes it even -even more exciting.
But if someone doesn't believe
in, like, a real soulmate, like,
I feel like we're
an example of that, you know? - Yeah.
I feel like I
found my soulmate.
And I love you for so many reasons, but
first of all, that was probably
one of the nicest things I've ever heard.
I'm glad I'm your peace
and not your crazy.
I think I might be a little bit of
your crazy.
Not to me.
You're the crazier one of us, probably.
But I could tell a little bit.
Why do I love you?
You're just it for me for so many reasons.
Your love of family,
the way you love me,
the way you love our kids.
"Our kids."
You just have such a good heart.
And I wish everybody could see that
because I feel it. But I.
I love you
because you allow me to see that
because not everybody gets to see that.
Sometimes people think you have RBF.
I do.
But I get to see the silly side of you
and I get to see the loving
and caring and compassionate person
that you are.
And that's why I love you.
You allow me to love you.
If this were to be our last conversation...
Oh, no, it's not good.
I don't like saying that.
Back to your anxiety and fears.
Oh, no, that makes me anxious!
What's something
you never want me to forget?
Oh, man.
Ugh, dang.
Something you never want me to forget?
Yeah, something you never want me to forget. - You to forget.
Right? Right.
Dang. That's hard to say
because I feel like you already know,
like it's unspoken.
Okay, I'll just speak it.
I'll speak it up.
You're like: Yeah!
Come on, buddy. You know what it is?
I mean,
obviously, I love you,
and I'm always going to be here for you.
Yeah. - I always got your back.
I always got your baby's back.
Sound right?
You know what I mean? Man...
I mean, I feel like, you know,
I'll always be here, no matter what
Yeah. - Grandma always said:
Unconditional love.
Unconditional. Love
you unconditionally. - Yeah.
Yeah. Love you unconditionally.
I would never want
if this was our last conversation,
I would want you to know
if there was anything in life
that I ever went wrong with you.
It was never intentional, you know.
It was just me going through the motions
because I think sometimes
people just brush things aside
and then try to move over it.
And I know that's in our nature too. - Hmm.
But I just want you to know
if I never really deeply apologize
for anything.
Oh, it sat with me and it resonated with me.
Yeah.
And I was deeply apologetic
for whatever I've done.
So and that I love you.
And to read my life scrapbook
that I have saved in my safe
that nobody sees.
It's in my will to give it to you.
Wow, interesting.
I didn't know that. - Yeah.
I've been putting it together for
a long time. Yeah. - Wow.