it wasn't supposed to be like this
a beautiful farm, in a beautiful setting
peaceful, calm, relaxing
it's a cold and rainy day out there
warm and cozy in here
peaceful, calm, relaxing
but it doesn't feel that way
I should be in peace
but I am restless, instead
my mind can't stop thinking
trying to find images, trying to find a way to communicate this that I feel
there's a fire burning inside me
one that I cannot put out
the only way I know to make this stop is to grab a camera and start taking pictures
where? it doesn't matter
of what? it doesn't matter
the light in the ceiling will do just fine
as will do the poster in the kitchen
the mirror in the bathroom? a mystery, a gate to other world
it's an
urge... an itch to create
the mirror in the bedroom
anywhere and anything
the window in the living room
the window in the bedroom
the kitchen sink
this is no art
these are the creations of a lunatic
but it doesn't matter because it makes me feel good
for a while, at least
because the fix doesn't last, it never does
soon enough, it comes back
I need to get out, somewhere, anywhere
a trip to the grocery store sounds about perfect right now
grab a shopping bag, please
by the way, have I told you that Rachel has joined me here in Norway for the rest of the trip?
nah, I don't think I told you that
but now, you know
it feels good not to be alone anymore on the road
even if I appreciate my time by myself
to the grocery store we go, and the camera is coming with me
it always comes with me
always within reach
ready for when I see something
a fire extinguisher in a closet in the basement is a useless fire extinguisher
you'll never get to it in time, your house will burn down
a camera that is not with you is a useless camera
you'll never get it out, the fire will consume you
always have a camera with you
because you just never know when and where the fire will start burning again
any camera, by the way
today, it's the small one that I'm bringing with me
enough to put out even the biggest fires
one piece of advice:
if you have the time, don't drive to the grocery store
park far away and walk, and take photos on the way there
it's easy to say this here in Norway, because it's beautiful everywhere
I mean, look at this place!
but I do this anywhere I am, because anytime is a good time to make an image
remember the fire? it's still there
but instead of burning, it's driving me
I just follow orders
if that means crossing the road to take a picture, I cross the road
there are days where you just feel it, you see good photographs everywhere
or you think you see good photographs
most likely, it's a lie
the fire is misleading you
but you are having fun, you lose track of time, everything flows smoothly...
and that's all that matters
I wasn't expecting to walk through a cemetery on my walk to buy broccolI
but here we are
you just never know what you're going to find
bring that camera with you
eventually, we make it to the store
just another day, the fire is now under control
but it will have to be put out tomorrow again
and the next day
this is the way
follow the fire, feel it, and act
see you in the next one