hi, I don't wanna do this this is Sierra she was in vlogmas last year she's making me do
this why are you making me do this baby because oh why do i why you making me do
this baby? Sierra: because I think it was really fun all the other times that you did it and
people like to see how you're doing and it will get you out of the house Chase: do they?
Sierra: mm-hmm Chase: will it? Sierra: I think vlog is more casual so you can just kind of go
with the flow and like reflects on how you're feeling that day and oh hello and
then you can add in like little baby mental health updates if you want baby
mental health updates and also you have a lot of updates in your life that
you haven't been recording so there is a lot to talk Chase: there's a lot of shit that have
happened in the last in the last 12 months so okay I don't want you to think
that she's like forcing me to do this at knifepoint Sierra: but you know sometimes you need a little push
Chase: yeah Sierra: think overall it'll be good like you know it'll help you get over this like
am I making videos? Chase: am I depressed? Sierra: why am i not making videos
Chase: does everyone hate me? Sierra: and you can say whatever you want in here because its your videos
Chase: true, my arm hurts from holding my camera its been so long
Sierra: its going to be a lot of complaining in these videos
Chase: right now because it's December 1st um we're gonna go look for the sani hat
the sani hat? go get the the light though for the this
because you can't really see much Jesus
sneak peek into that room I don't want to show you what's in there though but
I'll show you if you keep watching vlogmas oh you know why I'm used to I
think having a tripod or something holding the camera because this is my
arm is like welcome to chase Ross 30 pounds heavier and more depressed than
ever why am I here? what am i looking for? I literally came in here
vlogged in such a long time that I forgot to hold my camera with a tripod
okay let's go explore the basement and try to find the sani hat you're gonna
be mad at what I said in the room I said welcome to chase Ross 30 pounds heavier
and more depressed than ever Sierra:babyyyyyy
now you have to say 2 good things about yourself
Chase: sometimes I'm funny that's a good thing
does it have to be like a physical thing Sierra: no, well maybe it should parallel the insult
Chase: I have nice eyes well I have nice eyes Sierra: c+ compliment Chase: listen, maybe vlogmas at the end of 25 days I'll
have great compliments to say about myself Sierra: ignore the mess
Chase: ignore the mess? Sierra: in the basement
Chase: ok say we just leave this house for two days Sierra: if im recording, it's gonna be a lot of my dog
we're that haunted house again going down then Chase: when you scare the shit out of
me Sierra: yeah when I was at the top or right
Chase: no these are the cat ones... under the stairs?
Sierra: i was thinking of these here, do you have to use the same hat? Chase: yes I've had that hat for 14 years
I'm just recording your ass no do you know what that is and this is almost a
scam Chase: i literally have no idea where the hat is
nah its just gloves. Where was it last time? Sierra: minou... hi... well we did
pictures Chase: I saw it yesterday though Sierra: oh I doingthe power cleaning where you just throw stuff and hid it everywhere
Chase: my hands in my pants
come on pussies, who's gonna come on Daddy's lap first? Sierra: going to be a lot of my voice in this
Chase: I look... Sierra: beautiful ... oh hes purring
Chas: it's really hard to feel motivated
honestly like I've really I have not been okay in the last couple of months
I've barely posted I just really don't feel like myself and I apologize if this
vlogmas season isn't gonna be like the years before where it was fun and
exciting and I got my nipple pierced and stuff like that I
I appreciate that Sierra's trying to help me by making me do this because I
haven't had any energy to make any type of videos and to do anything because I
don't know I'm just really I'm just not feeling great and maybe it'll be
therapeutic for me to like cuz I feel like I haven't really made a mental
health updates and like not doing great you know and it would be good to like
talk about it so maybe I'll be able to do that during vlogmas I'll try to
post daily but I'm not gonna pressure myself or else I will feel way too
overwhelmed remember two years ago and I built IKEA
furniture for like four days of vlogmas good times so if you have any ideas of
things that you'd like me to do or to talk about during vlogmas that would be
really helpful because I would like this to not be 25
days of me complaining and being depressed I would actually like to feel
better I'm not always like this it's just when I think about YouTube and
making videos and talking to people that I haven't talked to a long time and
stuff like that something just happens to me and I just shut down so when I
don't think about this I'm like relatively happy which is great but I
want to get back to a place where making videos makes me happy because I always
said the second I stopped making videos that's how you know there's something
really wrong with me and I'm really not okay
well that happened and that's happening currently right now so I'm not doing
great but I miss making videos it was a thing that I loved doing the most in the
world it was like if you could change anything about your life what would you
change and I said nothing because I loved every part of being able to make
youtube videos and educate and make series and have fun during the vlog miss
I did a whole thing when you were downstairs I talked about I'm depressed
and how I don't want this to be 25 days of me complaining I would like to
actually feel better but I feel like shit so I asked people
if they have suggestions of things that they wouldn't want me to do I do really
need to make a video for queer BFF because that's the app that I'm
literally a part of and I haven't talked about on YouTube at all so people should
definitely go download that app because it's fantastic Sierra: its adorable Chase: yes and I saw you
actually going it the other day you were like looking through it it was really
cute Sierra: maybve we will go through it together, because i dont know exactly how to use it because im old
Sierra: because I wanted to see if we matched if thats a thing but i couldnt find you like youre f**** right next to me where are you?
Chase: well, we will do it together
so that'll be a video where we talk about that app Sierra: show old people show BOOMERS
Chase: ahhhh shes not a boomer
thing we can do is my hair is really long which you don't know this because
my hair is up right now you have no idea how long my hair is but so maybe do
something with that and also the cream Sierra: yesss, oh my goodness
Chase: i have not talked about
flat n' flawless at all on YouTube at all they don't even know what that is yeah
it's a cream that is made for post-operative scarring specifically
made for post-operative scarring I'll put the link in the description it does
so I'll make a video about that I guess I do have a lot to update on my life
okay fine you were right ten minutes into this video and she's already right
forcing me to do this it was a good idea you're so smart
Sierra: thanks, how do you feel?
Chase: numb but hopeful
Sierra: so you listen to me when I say go make a video and let's go
for a run so two for two Chase: yeah she's good to me I would just really like to be
excited about making videos again and vlogmas like it was my favorite time of
year I literally planned vlogmas like
December 26 I would plan it for next year I loved it so much so hopefully
this slaps me in the face a little bit and it's like oh yeah I actually do
really like doing this I've just been so not great I haven't been doing Sierra: this is a nice
like work yourself back into it because vlogmas is more casual and less like you don't
worry about now that your videos are scripted anyway but like just kind of go
with the flow and see how you're doing each day
Chase: like I don't have a specific
strict topic Sierra: yeah go through the day so to summarize we have surprises we have
updates Chase: lots of updates Jesus I didnt even realize how many updates there
were Sierra: lots of things to ask people if they have suggestions Chase: yeah we could also
make videos together Sierra: yeah we could do that Chase: for like p***hub im kidding haha
Sierra: pay the bills Chase: haha pay the bills
Chase: ok, day one is this for you nothing Christmassy Sierra: I have a Christmas onesie on
Chase: oh there you go
the only Christmas thing in this video because you know what we're easing into
it so it's like I'm not feeling the Christmas spirit but slowly goes on
you'll see like one more decoration each day and then by the end of it I'll be
Santa Claus well I'm also doing Christmas cards Sierra: oh yeah, you see? so many updates
Chase: yeah I'm opening up the Christmas card applications for an extra five days yeah
so that people can have time because I haven't really talked about it here
either so if you watched at the end of this video thanks but now you know that
you can get a Christmas card if you want one holiday card
we took our picture we got it in the mail yesterday Sierra: it's adorable
Oakley looks adorable you don't even know who oakley is yet do you
Chase: maybe if they watched last year yeah Sierra: comment in the comments below if you
know who Oakley is Chase: yeah who's Oakley Sierra: and to be specific cuz there's lots of
different kinds of it please Chase: you know just for people who are into feet give
him a little some Sierra: a different body part in each video
Chase: okay see you tomorrow
love you bye