May arrived unexpectedly fast.
It feels like just yesterday
I was wrapping up in the warm blankets
and staring far into the distance
through barren trees at naked landscapes.
And suddenly, almost out of nowhere, I find myself
surrounded with flowers.
Instead of blankets, there are tall ancient trees
sheltering me with their young green foliage
Instead of barren landscapes and naked hills
there is lush grass and wildflowers,
swaying gently in the warm May wind.
When did it happen?
How did life so suddenly turn into a dreamy fairy tale?
I am afraid to say I missed the exact moment,
but I am inhaling every bit of it right now.
I'm yearning to be outside
touch grass with my bare feet
and welcome this new season of life with an open heart.
I spent this past week enjoying slow,
though at times hectic life with family.
I came to England alone as a teenager,
so whenever family comes to visit, I take days off
for as long as I need
to fully surrender myself to these fleeting moments.
You know,
part of my videos have a slight fantasy
or escapist element to them, but it is still truthful.
I share the slow and mindful lifestyle and thoughts
in my videos and I do indeed live it.
That is not to say that I don't have my own struggles
and chaos
or that work and living doesn't overtake every breathing second of time.
But I put as much efforts as I can to stay mindful
so when a moment requires my presence in real life,
I prioritize that.
I read about love languages a long time ago
and figured that the way I give love
is mostly through quality time.
I find that the way I give love
and receive love are a little bit different.
But sharing experiences with people
is something that brings me immense joy.
So when I spend time with others,
I make sure that I give as much attention as I can
to the person near me.
I love to cook for people,
make treats,
take them to my favorite places, and hidden gardens
I discovered on some of my walks.
That means that the phone
and any other technology stays on the further shelf.
So this week was used as a sort of digital detox,
as well as family time.
So today, as I get back to
my work schedule and regular routine,
I simply want to share a peaceful moment from my life
making mini lemon tarts, enjoying spring blooms
and gentle sunshine
before a week of rain
that is forecasted over the coming days.
These lemon tarts didn't turn out
as pretty as I wanted them to be,
but so delicious that I wanted to share them anyway.
After all, I make it not only for the beauty
but for a shared experience.
I sort of stopped striving for perfection
and now try to let go of control at times when it's not required.
I thought that perhaps just because it didn't
turn out as picture perfect as I wanted it to be,
I shouldn't share it.
But as much as I love to share beauty,
I also love to share the realistic side of life.
I fail a lot, but every failure is a step to improvement.
I believe it only makes us stronger and more capable.
I hope your life has been peaceful lately,
and if not,
I hope to have given you a moment of calm today.
Thank you for spending your time with me.
I will see you next week.