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- [Manju] What are you hesitant to tell me?
- I'm open, I think, with you on most things
and I think we have been open with a lot of things
but if you were to ask me
one thing I think I probably haven't told you is
that we're apart, we're on two different sides
of the world right now so it's great to,
it's great talking online and stuff
but once we're physically together
and that train that we're on,
I don't know what that's going to be like.
I'm sure it's going to be great,
but it's not going to be without its challenges, I'm sure,
as in any relationship.
- Like again, I've grown in my vulnerability,
which, - Yeah.
- But I want to get to that complete vulnerability
where
all guards are down, complete.
And that doesn't say
that we love each other any less or whatever
because
we struggle with that,
it's because, a lot of it is really how we grew up
you know what I'm saying?
I grew up suppressing
my emotions a lot.
And that suppressing it so much that it just,
builds up, built up and I just became angry
and it came out
where it would come out in the wrong way at the wrong times.
That make sense?
So I'm trying to learn to
channel it the right way
and just be able to articulate it.
- Yup.
- How are we most similar, and how are we most different?
- I think we're similar in the sense of,
there's a lot of subjects that we hit it right on,
that we agree on, racism,
and fairness,
We believe that people like, what's the Amazon guy?
Benzo? What's his name? - (laughs) Bezos?
- Yeah. He's too damn rich.
He needs to spread that a little better.
Yeah, fuck him.
Where we're different,
especially now, the stuff with the vaccines,
the mask, and the distancing, that's aggravating to me
and you're on the other side of that.
You like to follow the rules
and you kind of believe in the system,
and I don't, I totally don't
- Oh no, I don't agree with you there.
I don't believe in the system.
I don't like America or the government.
It's not that I follow these things
because I just am a blind sheep
that just loves the government.
Just because what I've personally researched
and what I've seen (coughs)
(laughs) sorry. - There you go, COVID!
- I just feel the most comfortable,
taking that response.
- There's some great work being done.
But, for our people? For our people?
Nobody cares.
Nobody cares about black people having mental illnesses.
Nobody cares. Literally.
- I can't imagine how much-- - Money they're getting
- horrible shit is being carried out
under these used discretionary funds.
I can't imagine, I mean it's a money grab.
And you know what?
In one way you're letting us know
that you don't really give a shit.
- Right.
- But there's a way to make people give a shit.
- There you go.
- The fact that you convinced humans that they weren't human
and they believed it, so much to the point
you embedded it in their goddamn DNA for centuries,
through inbreeding, through Christianity,
through all the horrible things.
- Due to our conversation earlier
about the current situation of the world,
I've gotten insight today on how our family feels
about the current situation going on
with politics and racism, and everything happening,
and I think that it would be upsetting
to you
that they're not more far along in the process
as they should be.
Because I know earlier you were expressing
wanting to start conversation
and kind of get a feel of where everyone stands
and kind of all be on the same page
or at least try to get there
and I think that it would,
it's definitely something that needs to happen
but it's definitely going to be a big, long process.